PAINNNNNNNNNN

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ahoy everyone,

Ok.... time for my bi-monthly vent.

I'M HURTING LIKE THE DICKENS!!!!!! I WANT TO RIP MY BONES OUT AND SHOVE THIS ICE PICK STRAIGHT THRU MY SKULL!!!!

i know a lot of this has to do with major lack of sleep. this chickie keeps me up all night (well, not the chickie, but just having to monitor the darned heating pad) -- but my pain level has been way up there for several days now....

i've got a doctor's appointment with my GP today and i don't even remember why i MADE the appointment!!!!!!! what am i going to do? just go in there and say; "Um... just checking in.... yep, still hurtin like hell.... Goodbye" --??????

i cant cancel the appointment because then i'll get charged....

so.... does anyone have any creative ideas on how to use this doctor's appointment wisely??

arg... i'm sorry - i really have nothing else to say except that i am hurting so bad and i am just so grateful for u all & reading all your posts --- you all make me feel like i'm still SOMEONE. i know that didnt make sense. it's just that i feel like such an outsider over here....

.....and i went out to dinner last night with this guy and my friend's daughter (who's here on vacation) and i felt like such a social retard.....

i am GREAT with my clients - but when it comes to socializing with "normals", i'm a complete failure and end up saying STUPID things.

AND: we all rode in my car --- and i didnt THINK about the fact that my car is a complete PIG STY before picking these 2 up..... it was SO embarassing......

and then the girl asks: "What's that??" (pointing at the smelling-salts thingie i have taped to my dashboard for times when i feel like i'm going to pass out) -- so, i thought i'd just tell the truth - and when i did; there was a dead silence in the car.

Augh!!!!!!!!!!

well.... i've got ONE hour before my doc's appointment..... i'd appreciate if anyone has any input on what i can use it for.... LOL!!!!!!!!

wishing you all a great day!

alooooooooha!

jaaaaaaaaana