Guest guest Posted October 9, 2002 Report Share Posted October 9, 2002 many of you are offering prayers for Jane Ann and , as i do. this is hard, but i have to ask: for those of you with faith in the Creator, how do you keep from questioning Him about what is going on? knowing that He is Sovereign, knowing that His will is perfect, knowing that the fault lies not in Him, do you ever wonder, " what am i doing wrong, that all this should happen to me? what lessons am i not learning, that this cycle of pain and debilitation and emptiness keeps repeating itself over and over? " how do you turn back the darts of satan that mock, as one person explained it, " God may love you, but He doesn't have to like you? " it's not enough battling is it-isn't it PLS; there's the constant other side issues: diarrhea that lasts for six weeks, only to disappear the week of the colonoscopy (which was negative). spots on my lungs that move around, disappear, then come back, to be found unchanged by the CT scan (tuesday - also negative) spots on my brain that worsen, then disappear. pain that puts me in a wheelchair for six weeks, only to also disappear the week before the cleveland clinic visit.(my psychiatrist assures me i'm not crazy. he's the only one that feels that way. maybe i should get a second opinion there, too!) you all have your own stories, your own challenges. how do you keep the faith in spite of it all? i have all (repeat, all!) faith in God - that i am His child through adoption. i have wavering faith that He still loves me, but is instead only tolerating me. the Apostle felt that he was the chiefest of sinners. i begin to wonder if i've taken his place. yours in Him, Tanniyny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 10, 2002 Report Share Posted October 10, 2002 Laurel, You said all of that very well and it expresses my feelings almost totally. God didn't promise us we'd have no troubles, and I feel He gives us the strength daily to deal with it. I don't FEEL corageous but some people think I am. We, my husband and family, try to laugh a lot... even when there's pain. He recently had a bad fall and is still recovering from it. (He doesn't have PLS but we share some of the same symptoms due to a brain tumor back in '94. We're quite a sight going to church. It's the lame leading the crippled!. Friends and strangers are so wonderful when we go places...it renews our faith in humanity. Peace and blessings, Vivian Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 10, 2002 Report Share Posted October 10, 2002 Laurel, You said all of that very well and it expresses my feelings almost totally. God didn't promise us we'd have no troubles, and I feel He gives us the strength daily to deal with it. I don't FEEL corageous but some people think I am. We, my husband and family, try to laugh a lot... even when there's pain. He recently had a bad fall and is still recovering from it. (He doesn't have PLS but we share some of the same symptoms due to a brain tumor back in '94. We're quite a sight going to church. It's the lame leading the crippled!. Friends and strangers are so wonderful when we go places...it renews our faith in humanity. Peace and blessings, Vivian Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 10, 2002 Report Share Posted October 10, 2002 Vivian: Thank you for your kind words. I sometimes get to feeling bad for myself, but it doesn't take long to find someone worse off. I look at the victims of the world trade centers, the victims and families of snipers, the parents who have lost children, and I just think " by the Grace of God, there go I " . I am so thankful for all that I have, and I just don't mean material things. God has been good to me, and if I didn't have my faith, I'd just be so miserable. You and your dear hubby sound like a darling couple to me. Aren't you glad you have each other to " lean " on? Love to you both, Laurel Re: Faith... Laurel, You said all of that very well and it expresses my feelings almost totally. God didn't promise us we'd have no troubles, and I feel He gives us the strength daily to deal with it. I don't FEEL corageous but some people think I am. We, my husband and family, try to laugh a lot... even when there's pain. He recently had a bad fall and is still recovering from it. (He doesn't have PLS but we share some of the same symptoms due to a brain tumor back in '94. We're quite a sight going to church. It's the lame leading the crippled!. Friends and strangers are so wonderful when we go places...it renews our faith in humanity. Peace and blessings, Vivian Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 10, 2002 Report Share Posted October 10, 2002 Vivian: Thank you for your kind words. I sometimes get to feeling bad for myself, but it doesn't take long to find someone worse off. I look at the victims of the world trade centers, the victims and families of snipers, the parents who have lost children, and I just think " by the Grace of God, there go I " . I am so thankful for all that I have, and I just don't mean material things. God has been good to me, and if I didn't have my faith, I'd just be so miserable. You and your dear hubby sound like a darling couple to me. Aren't you glad you have each other to " lean " on? Love to you both, Laurel Re: Faith... Laurel, You said all of that very well and it expresses my feelings almost totally. God didn't promise us we'd have no troubles, and I feel He gives us the strength daily to deal with it. I don't FEEL corageous but some people think I am. We, my husband and family, try to laugh a lot... even when there's pain. He recently had a bad fall and is still recovering from it. (He doesn't have PLS but we share some of the same symptoms due to a brain tumor back in '94. We're quite a sight going to church. It's the lame leading the crippled!. Friends and strangers are so wonderful when we go places...it renews our faith in humanity. Peace and blessings, Vivian Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 10, 2002 Report Share Posted October 10, 2002 Vivian: Thank you for your kind words. I sometimes get to feeling bad for myself, but it doesn't take long to find someone worse off. I look at the victims of the world trade centers, the victims and families of snipers, the parents who have lost children, and I just think " by the Grace of God, there go I " . I am so thankful for all that I have, and I just don't mean material things. God has been good to me, and if I didn't have my faith, I'd just be so miserable. You and your dear hubby sound like a darling couple to me. Aren't you glad you have each other to " lean " on? Love to you both, Laurel Re: Faith... Laurel, You said all of that very well and it expresses my feelings almost totally. God didn't promise us we'd have no troubles, and I feel He gives us the strength daily to deal with it. I don't FEEL corageous but some people think I am. We, my husband and family, try to laugh a lot... even when there's pain. He recently had a bad fall and is still recovering from it. (He doesn't have PLS but we share some of the same symptoms due to a brain tumor back in '94. We're quite a sight going to church. It's the lame leading the crippled!. Friends and strangers are so wonderful when we go places...it renews our faith in humanity. Peace and blessings, Vivian Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 11, 2002 Report Share Posted October 11, 2002 Laurel, We are glad we have each other but the leaning is OUT...we'd both wind up on the floor!!! We did wind up in the gutter one evening when he tried to help me off a curb. That was funny but scary. The worst thing that happened was he left his glasses on my friends' car and I had to call her and confess what had happened in front of her house. We must have looked like 2 old drunks but didn't have the " benefit " of the liquid stuff that would have produced our behavior. Keep your spirits UP! Peace and blessings, Vivian Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 11, 2002 Report Share Posted October 11, 2002 Laurel, We are glad we have each other but the leaning is OUT...we'd both wind up on the floor!!! We did wind up in the gutter one evening when he tried to help me off a curb. That was funny but scary. The worst thing that happened was he left his glasses on my friends' car and I had to call her and confess what had happened in front of her house. We must have looked like 2 old drunks but didn't have the " benefit " of the liquid stuff that would have produced our behavior. Keep your spirits UP! Peace and blessings, Vivian Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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