Yes...I am ok.

[Guest guest]

Good afternoon from hot as he** St. Louis!

I am ok--thank you all for your thoughts, prayers and good karma.

First things first--the surgery Fri went well and I have had no

complications. My doctor said it was textbook and that I will be

fine. I was supposed to go in at 10:15 but was delayed until after

11. But I went home, rested and got my antibiotics and didn't try to

do more than relax.

The talk with went well. I can honestly tell you that it felt

like a giant leap of faith from a cliff with my eyes closed. At first

he was very upset, and then something (I have to thank God) clicked

inside of him and he didn't doubt me. He was worried that all of

this might make things worse with my cervical dysplasia (I have had

pre-cancerous cells recently) and for now I've been told it

shouldn't. When he held me as I cried and I told him that I couldn't

NOT tell him and that I HAD to trust him, he said he still loved me.

We talked for a few hours that evening and Fri morning before surgery

as well as a few times Fri evening. Sat he took me to a movie and

reminded me that we needed to plan our mid-week getaway--when did I

want to go?! I knew that was a sign from God that I DID have the man

I thought I was supposed to have and that we would be ok through

this. The trust in myself and my decisions is even greater now that

I know I can allow myself to trust in him as well.

My PC at home is still down so I'm at the library, then on my way to

a movie alone. is at work and since it's so freaking hot and

I've been HOME almost all weekend, I decided I needed a break from

the house.

Again, thank you so much for all the love and caring you've sent my

way--God hears every word, whether we believe he does or not.

Love to all

Alisab