IE newbie --- LONG!! (sorry)

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First of all, I could spend far too much time telling " my story " but

I'll try to be brief.

I'm 28 years old and live in Northern California. I've been battling

my weight for 20+ years - several years were starved away with

anorexia and hospitalizations, and may more I've spent dappling with

bulimia and obsessing over eating " clean " .

Where has all of this torture left me? Well, just a little over a

week ago I was thinking of taking my life because I felt that I just

couldn't deal with my thoughts of being fat, eating clean,

exercising, hating my body, etc. anymore. However, like a little

miracle, I heard about IE (on one of the body building - eat clean -

sites). I don't know why I even decided to buy the book (and even

read it), but I must say that I've felt better than I have in a LONG

time this last week.

Now, this may just be a " beginner's high " but whatever it is, I hope

that it doesn't end. For ONCE in my life I am ALLOWING myself to eat

what I want, when I want, and be okay. I was afraid that I'd go " all

out " but that hasn't happened. I've honored my hunger and that's

it.

It has been so freeing to not have to worry about eating another meal

of chicken breast and veggies - or trying to find other inventive

ways to stomach cottage cheese and egg whites. Now I know that these

foods have a place in a well rounded diet, but I don't feel like

eating them anymore.

My first day of IE I ate black beans and brown rice - I LOVED IT!!!!

My body had been craving carbohydrates! I TRIED not to listen ...

and felt horrible if I did.

Gosh .... this is getting to be a VERY long post. I'll stop for now.

But I'd love to hear from others - esp. those who came from

the " clean eating " mindset.

Thanks for listening!! And thank you for this site!