Re: Damn it. I binged. I freaking binged.

[Guest guest]

You are going to get cancer from eating tortilla chips? I am sorry to hear you are very distressed about this but I have not read anything about tortilla chips causing cancer. Maybe I am wrong. What does growing up have to do with not eating chips? Do you think if you were "grown up" you would not want them? I am confused by your terminology about growing up. I don't want to grow up if it means I can't eat junk. Michele press182 wrote: I can't take it. I just don't want to binge anymore. I don't even give a sh*t about losing weight I just don't want to do it. Period.I'm going end up riddled with cancer from eating and tortilla chips.Why can't I grow the f*ck up and stop eating junk? Michele Currently Reading: Twilight by

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[Guest guest]

You are going to get cancer from eating tortilla chips? I am sorry to hear you are very distressed about this but I have not read anything about tortilla chips causing cancer. Maybe I am wrong. What does growing up have to do with not eating chips? Do you think if you were "grown up" you would not want them? I am confused by your terminology about growing up. I don't want to grow up if it means I can't eat junk. Michele press182 wrote: I can't take it. I just don't want to binge anymore. I don't even give a sh*t about losing weight I just don't want to do it. Period.I'm going end up riddled with cancer from eating and tortilla chips.Why can't I grow the f*ck up and stop eating junk? Michele Currently Reading: Twilight by

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[Guest guest]

I agree, eating for reasons we don't know how to control sucks. The good news is, It's not like you fell off some kind of diet wagon and now you are a food lush until the next time you can get up the nerve to try dieting. Instead, since this isn't a diet, all you have to do is eat what you want to eat at your very next meal, and not beat yourself up too bad over some chips. I eat chips, and I LOVE them. I have also come to terms with the idea that from time to time I am just going to eat till it hurts, just not every time. Take Care,Maureenpress182 wrote: I can't take it. I just don't want to binge anymore. I don't even give a sh*t about losing weight I just don't want to do it. Period. I'm going end up riddled with cancer from eating and tortilla chips. Why can't I grow the f*ck up and stop eating junk?

[Guest guest]

I agree, eating for reasons we don't know how to control sucks. The good news is, It's not like you fell off some kind of diet wagon and now you are a food lush until the next time you can get up the nerve to try dieting. Instead, since this isn't a diet, all you have to do is eat what you want to eat at your very next meal, and not beat yourself up too bad over some chips. I eat chips, and I LOVE them. I have also come to terms with the idea that from time to time I am just going to eat till it hurts, just not every time. Take Care,Maureenpress182 wrote: I can't take it. I just don't want to binge anymore. I don't even give a sh*t about losing weight I just don't want to do it. Period. I'm going end up riddled with cancer from eating and tortilla chips. Why can't I grow the f*ck up and stop eating junk?

[Guest guest]

Hard as it is to believe, even so called normal eaters overdo

themselves on occasions. What IE wants us to learn is to be gentle

with ourselves when we do likewise because - there usually is a dang

good reason for turning to food! Corny as it sounds to me, there

really is a good side to a binge - you get a chance to AHA! and find

what is driving you to eat when not hungry.

Hey, corn is a FOOD and if its delicious and satisfying its OK to eat

too. I love the IE book's twist of calling these 'play foods'!!

Maybe you need to ask 'who are you punishing?? I certainly hope its

not yourself

>

> I can't take it. I just don't want to binge anymore. I don't even give

> a sh*t about losing weight I just don't want to do it. Period.

> I'm going end up riddled with cancer from eating and tortilla chips.

>

> Why can't I grow the f*ck up and stop eating junk?

>

[Guest guest]

Hard as it is to believe, even so called normal eaters overdo

themselves on occasions. What IE wants us to learn is to be gentle

with ourselves when we do likewise because - there usually is a dang

good reason for turning to food! Corny as it sounds to me, there

really is a good side to a binge - you get a chance to AHA! and find

what is driving you to eat when not hungry.

Hey, corn is a FOOD and if its delicious and satisfying its OK to eat

too. I love the IE book's twist of calling these 'play foods'!!

Maybe you need to ask 'who are you punishing?? I certainly hope its

not yourself

>

> I can't take it. I just don't want to binge anymore. I don't even give

> a sh*t about losing weight I just don't want to do it. Period.

> I'm going end up riddled with cancer from eating and tortilla chips.

>

> Why can't I grow the f*ck up and stop eating junk?

>

[Guest guest]

I could have written your e-mail. Lately I've been eating way too many chips pretty much every evening. When I don't have chips I feel deprived and sad. When I do have chips I feel worthless and weak and like I have no willpower. And then I feel guilty and I also panic that I'm going to get really sick from eating all this junk! The advice everyone has given is great advice! We have to remember that chips are just food and we are allowed to eat them if we want to. And they will always be there to eat...nobody is going to take them away from us. And they won't make us sick. Now we just have to believe it.

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[Guest guest]

I could have written your e-mail. Lately I've been eating way too many chips pretty much every evening. When I don't have chips I feel deprived and sad. When I do have chips I feel worthless and weak and like I have no willpower. And then I feel guilty and I also panic that I'm going to get really sick from eating all this junk! The advice everyone has given is great advice! We have to remember that chips are just food and we are allowed to eat them if we want to. And they will always be there to eat...nobody is going to take them away from us. And they won't make us sick. Now we just have to believe it.

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[Guest guest]

Kip, you MAY eat what you want, any time you are hungry. No one, but

no one 'allows' you but yourself ;-) And I do know how difficult this

is to believe after so long being 'told' what/when/how much etc. I had

to say to myself over and over again - " This is FOOD and my body

needs food. " And it did take time for me to believe it too. Best

wishes for your IE journey - Katcha

>

> Lately I've been eating way too many chips pretty much every

evening. We have to remember that chips are just food and we are

allowed to eat them if we want to. And they will always be there to

eat...nobody is going to take them away from us. And they won't make

us sick. Now we just have to believe it.

[Guest guest]

Kip, you MAY eat what you want, any time you are hungry. No one, but

no one 'allows' you but yourself ;-) And I do know how difficult this

is to believe after so long being 'told' what/when/how much etc. I had

to say to myself over and over again - " This is FOOD and my body

needs food. " And it did take time for me to believe it too. Best

wishes for your IE journey - Katcha

>

> Lately I've been eating way too many chips pretty much every

evening. We have to remember that chips are just food and we are

allowed to eat them if we want to. And they will always be there to

eat...nobody is going to take them away from us. And they won't make

us sick. Now we just have to believe it.

[Guest guest]

Every time I'm not sure if something I'm doing is something a "normal eater" would do, I ask myself if my DH would do it. He is one of those natural intuitive eaters. Does he binge on something from time to time? Yep. Not as a regular rule, but I've seen him binge on chips and dip and on ice cream and on pizza. He doesn't do it every day, week, or even month, but every so often - when the mood strikes him. So, if I binge on occasion, I don't freak. I used to binge daily (or more often), so anything less than that is progress for me. As they say in the 12-step programs, it's all about progress, not perfection.

Kathi

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[Guest guest]

Every time I'm not sure if something I'm doing is something a "normal eater" would do, I ask myself if my DH would do it. He is one of those natural intuitive eaters. Does he binge on something from time to time? Yep. Not as a regular rule, but I've seen him binge on chips and dip and on ice cream and on pizza. He doesn't do it every day, week, or even month, but every so often - when the mood strikes him. So, if I binge on occasion, I don't freak. I used to binge daily (or more often), so anything less than that is progress for me. As they say in the 12-step programs, it's all about progress, not perfection.

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[Guest guest]

Thank you, All for your words.

DH and I had a few conversations about this. He truly thinks I don't

eat enough or I don't eat a " balanced meal " .

He says that I'm either eating all protein and vegetables, all fruits

and vegetables, all starch (cereal/oats/beans).

He thinks I'll never " get over it " if I don't let it go. I think it's

easy for him to say, frankly.

He also thinks I don't eat enough. He's been known to say, " Salad

isn't enough " . He thinks the portions I give myself are too small.

" If you're hungry. Have a sandwich. Ya want some chips on the side

eat them. Ya want another handful? Eat more. Who gives a f*ck?! "

I did notice the night before the binge I was hungry after dinner. Dh

went and got tortilla chips (just a handful) and I decided to " stay

strong " Well I had a few with my soup for lunch and then I had a

handful more, etc.

Also, that morning I really wanted scrambled eggs and sausage, but

the " cleantard " in my head said, " No. You'll never get the body you

want eating sausage. It's all food, exercise doesn't matter nor does

quantity. Have some steel cut oats and egg whites cooked w/ Pam

instead " .

I don't know. I threw out the idea that I binge on carbs(not just

sugar but complex ones, too) and thought maybe I need to be on a low

carb diet, not for weight loss, but maybe it's a physical thing. He

doesn't buy it and says that I binge on carbs because my body is

depleated and was depleated for so long. Then it goes back to me not

eating enough/balance. Whatever.

[Guest guest]

Thank you, All for your words.

DH and I had a few conversations about this. He truly thinks I don't

eat enough or I don't eat a " balanced meal " .

He says that I'm either eating all protein and vegetables, all fruits

and vegetables, all starch (cereal/oats/beans).

He thinks I'll never " get over it " if I don't let it go. I think it's

easy for him to say, frankly.

He also thinks I don't eat enough. He's been known to say, " Salad

isn't enough " . He thinks the portions I give myself are too small.

" If you're hungry. Have a sandwich. Ya want some chips on the side

eat them. Ya want another handful? Eat more. Who gives a f*ck?! "

I did notice the night before the binge I was hungry after dinner. Dh

went and got tortilla chips (just a handful) and I decided to " stay

strong " Well I had a few with my soup for lunch and then I had a

handful more, etc.

Also, that morning I really wanted scrambled eggs and sausage, but

the " cleantard " in my head said, " No. You'll never get the body you

want eating sausage. It's all food, exercise doesn't matter nor does

quantity. Have some steel cut oats and egg whites cooked w/ Pam

instead " .

I don't know. I threw out the idea that I binge on carbs(not just

sugar but complex ones, too) and thought maybe I need to be on a low

carb diet, not for weight loss, but maybe it's a physical thing. He

doesn't buy it and says that I binge on carbs because my body is

depleated and was depleated for so long. Then it goes back to me not

eating enough/balance. Whatever.

[Guest guest]

If you forbid certain foods, you will crave them. The more you try to avoid

them the more you will binge on them. They will control you instead of you being

in charge. If you start to have an " all foods fit " mentatlity you will

eventually begin to choose to have everything and anything you want when you

want it and when you are hungry mentality. In you are afraid of over indulging

in these foods, you probably will, but only in the beginning. Eventually these

foods will lose their control over you because you will learn you can have them

anytime you want but only when you are hungry. This is what IE is all about.

My advice would be to relax and enjoy the foods you want but only eat them when

you are hungry. I know it is hard to challenge those voices we hear in our

heads, but the sooner you do, the healthier you will become, phisically,

emotionally and mentally.

--

Alana

Thank you, All for your words.

DH and I had a few conversations about this. He truly thinks I don't

eat enough or I don't eat a " balanced meal " .

He says that I'm either eating all protein and vegetables, all fruits

and vegetables, all starch (cereal/oats/beans).

He thinks I'll never " get over it " if I don't let it go. I think it's

easy for him to say, frankly.

He also thinks I don't eat enough. He's been known to say, " Salad

isn't enough " . He thinks the portions I give myself are too small.

" If you're hungry. Have a sandwich. Ya want some chips on the side

eat them. Ya want another handful? Eat more. Who gives a f*ck?! "

I did notice the night before the binge I was hungry after dinner. Dh

went and got tortilla chips (just a handful) and I decided to " stay

strong " Well I had a few with my soup for lunch and then I had a

handful more, etc.

Also, that morning I really wanted scrambled eggs and sausage, but

the " cleantard " in my head said, " No. You'll never get the body you

want eating sausage. It's all food, exercise doesn't matter nor does

quantity. Have some steel cut oats and egg whites cooked w/ Pam

instead " .

I don't know. I threw out the idea that I binge on carbs(not just

sugar but complex ones, too) and thought maybe I need to be on a low

carb diet, not for weight loss, but maybe it's a physical thing. He

doesn't buy it and says that I binge on carbs because my body is

depleated and was depleated for so long. Then it goes back to me not

eating enough/balance. Whatever.

[Guest guest]

If you forbid certain foods, you will crave them. The more you try to avoid

them the more you will binge on them. They will control you instead of you being

in charge. If you start to have an " all foods fit " mentatlity you will

eventually begin to choose to have everything and anything you want when you

want it and when you are hungry mentality. In you are afraid of over indulging

in these foods, you probably will, but only in the beginning. Eventually these

foods will lose their control over you because you will learn you can have them

anytime you want but only when you are hungry. This is what IE is all about.

My advice would be to relax and enjoy the foods you want but only eat them when

you are hungry. I know it is hard to challenge those voices we hear in our

heads, but the sooner you do, the healthier you will become, phisically,

emotionally and mentally.

--

Alana

Thank you, All for your words.

DH and I had a few conversations about this. He truly thinks I don't

eat enough or I don't eat a " balanced meal " .

He says that I'm either eating all protein and vegetables, all fruits

and vegetables, all starch (cereal/oats/beans).

He thinks I'll never " get over it " if I don't let it go. I think it's

easy for him to say, frankly.

He also thinks I don't eat enough. He's been known to say, " Salad

isn't enough " . He thinks the portions I give myself are too small.

" If you're hungry. Have a sandwich. Ya want some chips on the side

eat them. Ya want another handful? Eat more. Who gives a f*ck?! "

I did notice the night before the binge I was hungry after dinner. Dh

went and got tortilla chips (just a handful) and I decided to " stay

strong " Well I had a few with my soup for lunch and then I had a

handful more, etc.

Also, that morning I really wanted scrambled eggs and sausage, but

the " cleantard " in my head said, " No. You'll never get the body you

want eating sausage. It's all food, exercise doesn't matter nor does

quantity. Have some steel cut oats and egg whites cooked w/ Pam

instead " .

I don't know. I threw out the idea that I binge on carbs(not just

sugar but complex ones, too) and thought maybe I need to be on a low

carb diet, not for weight loss, but maybe it's a physical thing. He

doesn't buy it and says that I binge on carbs because my body is

depleated and was depleated for so long. Then it goes back to me not

eating enough/balance. Whatever.

[Guest guest]

I'm thinking your husband might be onto something about the reason

you tend to binge on carbs. I have found that since running more

mileage, I have deep cravings for sugar (cake, cookies, ice cream) on

days when I've not eaten enough. This made sense to me when I

thought about how my body might be craving instant energy in the form

of sugar to replenish what it lost during the intense activity. I

started experimenting with eating more " real " foods (yogurt, fruit,

mini meals of soup and protein) throughout the day and saw that my

cravings for sugar decreased. I could even walk by a cake at the

supermarket and not even look back. Anyway, I think this is the hard

part of IE - understanding that sometimes your body might crave foods

that are not " healthy " and that there is probably a good reason for

it - even if it's just to give you quick energy such as me with

cake.

>

> Thank you, All for your words.

>

> DH and I had a few conversations about this. He truly thinks I

don't

> eat enough or I don't eat a " balanced meal " .

> He says that I'm either eating all protein and vegetables, all

fruits

> and vegetables, all starch (cereal/oats/beans).

> He thinks I'll never " get over it " if I don't let it go. I think

it's

> easy for him to say, frankly.

>

> He also thinks I don't eat enough. He's been known to say, " Salad

> isn't enough " . He thinks the portions I give myself are too small.

> " If you're hungry. Have a sandwich. Ya want some chips on the side

> eat them. Ya want another handful? Eat more. Who gives a f*ck?! "

>

> I did notice the night before the binge I was hungry after dinner.

Dh

> went and got tortilla chips (just a handful) and I decided to " stay

> strong " Well I had a few with my soup for lunch and then I had a

> handful more, etc.

> Also, that morning I really wanted scrambled eggs and sausage, but

> the " cleantard " in my head said, " No. You'll never get the body you

> want eating sausage. It's all food, exercise doesn't matter nor

does

> quantity. Have some steel cut oats and egg whites cooked w/ Pam

> instead " .

>

> I don't know. I threw out the idea that I binge on carbs(not just

> sugar but complex ones, too) and thought maybe I need to be on a

low

> carb diet, not for weight loss, but maybe it's a physical thing. He

> doesn't buy it and says that I binge on carbs because my body is

> depleated and was depleated for so long. Then it goes back to me

not

> eating enough/balance. Whatever.

>

[Guest guest]

I'm thinking your husband might be onto something about the reason

you tend to binge on carbs. I have found that since running more

mileage, I have deep cravings for sugar (cake, cookies, ice cream) on

days when I've not eaten enough. This made sense to me when I

thought about how my body might be craving instant energy in the form

of sugar to replenish what it lost during the intense activity. I

started experimenting with eating more " real " foods (yogurt, fruit,

mini meals of soup and protein) throughout the day and saw that my

cravings for sugar decreased. I could even walk by a cake at the

supermarket and not even look back. Anyway, I think this is the hard

part of IE - understanding that sometimes your body might crave foods

that are not " healthy " and that there is probably a good reason for

it - even if it's just to give you quick energy such as me with

cake.

>

> Thank you, All for your words.

>

> DH and I had a few conversations about this. He truly thinks I

don't

> eat enough or I don't eat a " balanced meal " .

> He says that I'm either eating all protein and vegetables, all

fruits

> and vegetables, all starch (cereal/oats/beans).

> He thinks I'll never " get over it " if I don't let it go. I think

it's

> easy for him to say, frankly.

>

> He also thinks I don't eat enough. He's been known to say, " Salad

> isn't enough " . He thinks the portions I give myself are too small.

> " If you're hungry. Have a sandwich. Ya want some chips on the side

> eat them. Ya want another handful? Eat more. Who gives a f*ck?! "

>

> I did notice the night before the binge I was hungry after dinner.

Dh

> went and got tortilla chips (just a handful) and I decided to " stay

> strong " Well I had a few with my soup for lunch and then I had a

> handful more, etc.

> Also, that morning I really wanted scrambled eggs and sausage, but

> the " cleantard " in my head said, " No. You'll never get the body you

> want eating sausage. It's all food, exercise doesn't matter nor

does

> quantity. Have some steel cut oats and egg whites cooked w/ Pam

> instead " .

>

> I don't know. I threw out the idea that I binge on carbs(not just

> sugar but complex ones, too) and thought maybe I need to be on a

low

> carb diet, not for weight loss, but maybe it's a physical thing. He

> doesn't buy it and says that I binge on carbs because my body is

> depleated and was depleated for so long. Then it goes back to me

not

> eating enough/balance. Whatever.

>

[Guest guest]

Marguerite:

I'm glad you responded to this.

You and DH may be on to something. I recall never even being

a " sweets " person before I lost the weight and started over-

exercising. Very low calories (less than 900) for so long and doing 2

hour long circuit workouts a day...yeah, I'd say I was depleated.

Quick energy.

I sometimes wonder if my body just won't " let " me get that lean again.

Kind of like " Oh, no you don't! Not again, you ninny! "

I'm wondering if I should just accept that my body likes being a

certain weight. I have do drastic things to get it under by even 5

lbs.

I just wish I could get over this. I'm afraid to " surrender " because

I think I'll gain too much. I feel like everyone else eats clean and

lifts weights and does some cardio and gets what they want and I

can't?

> >

> > Thank you, All for your words.

> >

> > DH and I had a few conversations about this. He truly thinks I

> don't

> > eat enough or I don't eat a " balanced meal " .

> > He says that I'm either eating all protein and vegetables, all

> fruits

> > and vegetables, all starch (cereal/oats/beans).

> > He thinks I'll never " get over it " if I don't let it go. I think

> it's

> > easy for him to say, frankly.

> >

> > He also thinks I don't eat enough. He's been known to say, " Salad

> > isn't enough " . He thinks the portions I give myself are too

small.

> > " If you're hungry. Have a sandwich. Ya want some chips on the

side

> > eat them. Ya want another handful? Eat more. Who gives a f*ck?! "

> >

> > I did notice the night before the binge I was hungry after

dinner.

> Dh

> > went and got tortilla chips (just a handful) and I decided

to " stay

> > strong " Well I had a few with my soup for lunch and then I had a

> > handful more, etc.

> > Also, that morning I really wanted scrambled eggs and sausage,

but

> > the " cleantard " in my head said, " No. You'll never get the body

you

> > want eating sausage. It's all food, exercise doesn't matter nor

> does

> > quantity. Have some steel cut oats and egg whites cooked w/ Pam

> > instead " .

> >

> > I don't know. I threw out the idea that I binge on carbs(not just

> > sugar but complex ones, too) and thought maybe I need to be on a

> low

> > carb diet, not for weight loss, but maybe it's a physical thing.

He

> > doesn't buy it and says that I binge on carbs because my body is

> > depleated and was depleated for so long. Then it goes back to me

> not

> > eating enough/balance. Whatever.

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Honey, I so hear you. First, I would not compare myself to the crowd

that " eats clean and lifts weights and does some cardio and gets what

they want. " As I've mentioned before, you are probably not fully

aware of what lengths these people go to or what risks they take to

maintain that appearance. I know for myself that I am not willing to

go there.

Second, eating 900 calories a day is a sure way to bring havoc on

your metabolism and cause your body to fight you to retain every

calorie. I'm sure I'm not telling anything you don't already know,

but like me and others seeking that type of validation, the desire to

achieve a look or level of fitness tends to eclipse the rational

voice that tells you that near-starvation is not healthy.

I also resonate with your concern that your body might not let you

get lean. I wonder this often myself, and I sometimes think that my

body is not letting me get leaner now because it needs a break or a

rest from the diet/exercise manipulation of recent years. I also

know that I have been able to achieve one of my leanest looks by

eating intuitively. Believe it or not, although I've gotten there

through IE, I still struggle with the doubt that perhaps that was a

fluke and that I'm really supposed to weigh more, etc. I just have

to keep reminding myself that I do know my body, that it will get to

my natural weight given the chance, and that my natural weight is not

where I am right now. But I also do believe that my body is in a

phase right now of needing " time off, " so to speak.

> > >

> > > Thank you, All for your words.

> > >

> > > DH and I had a few conversations about this. He truly thinks I

> > don't

> > > eat enough or I don't eat a " balanced meal " .

> > > He says that I'm either eating all protein and vegetables, all

> > fruits

> > > and vegetables, all starch (cereal/oats/beans).

> > > He thinks I'll never " get over it " if I don't let it go. I

think

> > it's

> > > easy for him to say, frankly.

> > >

> > > He also thinks I don't eat enough. He's been known to

say, " Salad

> > > isn't enough " . He thinks the portions I give myself are too

> small.

> > > " If you're hungry. Have a sandwich. Ya want some chips on the

> side

> > > eat them. Ya want another handful? Eat more. Who gives a f*ck?! "

> > >

> > > I did notice the night before the binge I was hungry after

> dinner.

> > Dh

> > > went and got tortilla chips (just a handful) and I decided

> to " stay

> > > strong " Well I had a few with my soup for lunch and then I had

a

> > > handful more, etc.

> > > Also, that morning I really wanted scrambled eggs and sausage,

> but

> > > the " cleantard " in my head said, " No. You'll never get the body

> you

> > > want eating sausage. It's all food, exercise doesn't matter nor

> > does

> > > quantity. Have some steel cut oats and egg whites cooked w/ Pam

> > > instead " .

> > >

> > > I don't know. I threw out the idea that I binge on carbs(not

just

> > > sugar but complex ones, too) and thought maybe I need to be on

a

> > low

> > > carb diet, not for weight loss, but maybe it's a physical

thing.

> He

> > > doesn't buy it and says that I binge on carbs because my body

is

> > > depleated and was depleated for so long. Then it goes back to

me

> > not

> > > eating enough/balance. Whatever.

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Marguerite:

It's funny you mention that crowd because if you ever look at some of

the competitor blogs or people blogging about their contest prep,

they don't seem very happy. There's insecurity there, too, they just

mask it.

No. Deep down I know this.

The last parts of your response really hit something. Maybe I do need

a break from dieting and working out so hard. I'm always pushing too

hard or not doing something I really enjoy because I'm afraid it will

make me eat too much or if it's lower intensity I'll restrict to

compensate for the lack of activity. The most I've ever taken off in

a row has been 4 days.

Heh, you know, I didn't " break that scale number " eating clean

either! I did IE. If I was hungry I ate. If I wanted something I ate

it, but I didn't stuff myself on it.

Exercise? Ha! I did those old Crawford workouts from the early

90's and 30 minutes of cardio 3x a week! I loved how I looked and I

felt great. I don't know why I don't pull those out again.

They were fun. 's pouting, big hair and full makeup in Shape

Your Body is a riot!

Maybe Schwarzbein was right. You need to eat way more than you

think..

Thanks again Marguerite. Your post really helped. Hopefully you and I

can get some peace soon.

XXOO

> > > >

> > > > Thank you, All for your words.

> > > >

> > > > DH and I had a few conversations about this. He truly thinks

I

> > > don't

> > > > eat enough or I don't eat a " balanced meal " .

> > > > He says that I'm either eating all protein and vegetables,

all

> > > fruits

> > > > and vegetables, all starch (cereal/oats/beans).

> > > > He thinks I'll never " get over it " if I don't let it go. I

> think

> > > it's

> > > > easy for him to say, frankly.

> > > >

> > > > He also thinks I don't eat enough. He's been known to

> say, " Salad

> > > > isn't enough " . He thinks the portions I give myself are too

> > small.

> > > > " If you're hungry. Have a sandwich. Ya want some chips on the

> > side

> > > > eat them. Ya want another handful? Eat more. Who gives a

f*ck?! "

> > > >

> > > > I did notice the night before the binge I was hungry after

> > dinner.

> > > Dh

> > > > went and got tortilla chips (just a handful) and I decided

> > to " stay

> > > > strong " Well I had a few with my soup for lunch and then I

had

> a

> > > > handful more, etc.

> > > > Also, that morning I really wanted scrambled eggs and

sausage,

> > but

> > > > the " cleantard " in my head said, " No. You'll never get the

body

> > you

> > > > want eating sausage. It's all food, exercise doesn't matter

nor

> > > does

> > > > quantity. Have some steel cut oats and egg whites cooked w/

Pam

> > > > instead " .

> > > >

> > > > I don't know. I threw out the idea that I binge on carbs(not

> just

> > > > sugar but complex ones, too) and thought maybe I need to be

on

> a

> > > low

> > > > carb diet, not for weight loss, but maybe it's a physical

> thing.

> > He

> > > > doesn't buy it and says that I binge on carbs because my body

> is

> > > > depleated and was depleated for so long. Then it goes back to

> me

> > > not

> > > > eating enough/balance. Whatever.

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

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Its the diet mentality its not you I struggle with it too and still feel guilty when I enjoy something that is on the diet industry bad list it will take me some time but I am sure I will slowly get past it. EvaSee what's new at AOL.com and Make AOL Your Homepage.

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Its the diet mentality its not you I struggle with it too and still feel guilty when I enjoy something that is on the diet industry bad list it will take me some time but I am sure I will slowly get past it. EvaSee what's new at AOL.com and Make AOL Your Homepage.

[Guest guest]

Excellent response Alana! Its a great brief overview of IE. Holding

that in one's head is a great start to applying it in one's life.

>

>

> If you forbid certain foods, you will crave them. The more you try

to avoid them the more you will binge on them. They will control you

instead of you being in charge. If you start to have an " all foods

fit " mentatlity you will eventually begin to choose to have everything

and anything you want when you want it and when you are hungry

mentality. In you are afraid of over indulging in these foods, you

probably will, but only in the beginning. Eventually these foods will

lose their control over you because you will learn you can have them

anytime you want but only when you are hungry. This is what IE is all

about. My advice would be to relax and enjoy the foods you want but

only eat them when you are hungry. I know it is hard to challenge

those voices we hear in our heads, but the sooner you do, the

healthier you will become, phisically, emotionally and mentally.

> --

> Alana

>

[Guest guest]

Excellent response Alana! Its a great brief overview of IE. Holding

that in one's head is a great start to applying it in one's life.

>

>

> If you forbid certain foods, you will crave them. The more you try

to avoid them the more you will binge on them. They will control you

instead of you being in charge. If you start to have an " all foods

fit " mentatlity you will eventually begin to choose to have everything

and anything you want when you want it and when you are hungry

mentality. In you are afraid of over indulging in these foods, you

probably will, but only in the beginning. Eventually these foods will

lose their control over you because you will learn you can have them

anytime you want but only when you are hungry. This is what IE is all

about. My advice would be to relax and enjoy the foods you want but

only eat them when you are hungry. I know it is hard to challenge

those voices we hear in our heads, but the sooner you do, the

healthier you will become, phisically, emotionally and mentally.

> --

> Alana

>