Guest guest Posted July 29, 2007 Report Share Posted July 29, 2007 I don't have an " aha " or some other great realization to share. Just a whine, really. My family and I went to a local wilderness park yesterday, and DH brought the camera. I'd been feeling pretty fit lately. when I knew the camera was pointed at me, I stood up straight and smiled. Well, we got home and watched it. Ouch. I look horrible. I can't believe how fat I am. I was looking at the kids to see if they look different to me than they do in real life, and they didn't. They look the same, but I look huge. This must mean that I really look like that! If the camera added weight, it would be adding it to us all equally. It's so hard to block those images from my mind. I keep hearing my inner voice saying all kinds of really horribe things to me. I feel fine when I'm not looking at a video or pictures, but as soon as I do, I realize how fat I really am and it's very upsetting. I really do look horrible. It's crazy to think how different my self image is than reality. It's like I have the opposite of anorexia. I think I'm thinner than I really am. Oh well. Moving forward, I guess. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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