RE: Mikki

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How have your 4 days been going? Everything was ok for me today until after lunch when I wanted a little sum'in sum'in... ate a cream horn- which was enough and felt satisfied but guilty so ate 6 mini cup cakes. How stupid is that? I had a chicken wrap and some grape tomotoes for lunch, and the cream horn would have been fine to have with it. But my diet brain saw failure and my stupid brain said, eat more. I really want the rest of this day to be sane.Mikki Behnke wrote: Hi MIchelle! I am brand new to IE (this is my 4th day) as well, but this is a very friendly group of ladies! Mikki

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Thanks for your post, Mikki. I am experiencing the same type of problems you talked about.......

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Hi ! I think I'm doing pretty well - just adjusting to the idea that doing "well" means not worrying rather than not eating LOL! I managed NOT to step on the scale last night, usually I'm on the darn thing 2-3 times a day! My big boo-boo was to eat a 3rd piece of pizza last night when I was satisfied after 2 - although normally I would have had even more just because it's my traditional "cheat day".

Just remember to try to ditch the guilt! We are supposed to be overcoming our fear of eating this stuff, so (if I understand it right), it's OK and even encouraged to go ahead and eat that cream horn so that you can release that fear/guilt cycle. So although you ate some cupcakes while in that "diet cycle", and not because you really wanted them, what it really has done for you is make you aware of your feelings about the cream horn. Maybe this is the time when you are supposed to go out and buy a dozen cream horns and keep'em around the house

Repeat after me, "cream horns are not bad" LOL

The issues that came up for me this week were that I haven't been able to let go of the fear of gaining weight, I still want to step on the scale twice a day and make sure I'm not "blowing it" (my life) by eating what I want. Also, I've been more emotionally vulnerable this week - something my husband said made me really insecure and normally I would have started nibbling, instead I just sat with it and tried to watch myself go through these (untrue) thoughts about the issue. I had a lot of issues about relationships from my emotionally abusive father, but I thought I'd gotten over it for the most part! But just the simple act of not eating when some uncomfortable old feelings came bubbling up made me much more aware of what kind of crap is still down there, and I realized at least in that situation that all those old thoughts and feelings were groundless and tried to let them fade away. And ya know, my husband was very affectionate last night, for "no reason" he came home and gave me several big hugs and we sat on the couch with our feet intertwined and talked about stuff, instead of being separate on the couch and easy chair ... we always get along great, but there was a little extra sparkle and I wonder if maybe, just maybe, it's partly due to MY feeling more open and relaxed instead of having this "tension of worry" or resentment from those old old messages and insecurities?

sorry this got a little long, I'm just musing as I wake up

Have a fabulous day, and don't forget to treat yourself!!!!

Mikki

-----Original Message-----From: IntuitiveEating_Support [mailto:IntuitiveEating_Support ]On Behalf Of michelle FridaySent: Friday, August 17, 2007 7:14 PMTo: IntuitiveEating_Support Subject: RE: Mikki

How have your 4 days been going? Everything was ok for me today until

after lunch when I wanted a little sum'in sum'in... ate a cream horn- which

was enough and felt satisfied but guilty so ate 6 mini cup cakes. How

stupid is that? I had a chicken wrap and some grape tomotoes for lunch,

and the cream horn would have been fine to have with it. But my diet brain

saw failure and my stupid brain said, eat more. I really want the rest of

this day to be sane.Mikki Behnke <mkbehnkecomcast (DOT) net> wrote:

Hi MIchelle! I am brand new to IE (this is my 4th day) as well, but this is a very friendly group of ladies!

Mikki

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WHat's a cream horn???Mikki Behnke wrote: Hi ! I think I'm doing pretty well - just adjusting to the idea that doing "well" means not worrying rather than not eating LOL! I managed NOT to step on the scale last night, usually I'm on the darn thing 2-3 times a day! My big boo-boo was to eat a 3rd piece of pizza last night when I was satisfied after 2 - although normally I would have had even more just

because it's my traditional "cheat day". Just remember to try to ditch the guilt! We are supposed to be overcoming our fear of eating this stuff, so (if I understand it right), it's OK and even encouraged to go ahead and eat that cream horn so that you can release that fear/guilt cycle. So although you ate some cupcakes while in that "diet cycle", and not because you really wanted them, what it really has done for you is make you aware of your feelings about the cream horn. Maybe this is the time when you are supposed to go out and buy a dozen cream horns and keep'em around the house Repeat after me, "cream horns are not bad" LOL The issues that came up for me this week were that I haven't been able to let go of the fear of gaining weight, I still want to step on the scale twice a day and make sure I'm not "blowing it" (my life) by eating what I want. Also, I've been more emotionally vulnerable this week - something my husband said made me really insecure and normally I would have started nibbling, instead I just sat with it and tried to watch myself go through these (untrue) thoughts about the issue. I had a lot of issues about relationships from my emotionally abusive father, but I thought I'd gotten over it for the most part! But just the simple act of not eating when some uncomfortable old feelings came bubbling up

made me much more aware of what kind of crap is still down there, and I realized at least in that situation that all those old thoughts and feelings were groundless and tried to let them fade away. And ya know, my husband was very affectionate last night, for "no reason" he came home and gave me several big hugs and we sat on the couch with our feet intertwined and talked about stuff, instead of being separate on the couch and easy chair ... we always get along great, but there was a little extra sparkle and I wonder if maybe, just maybe, it's partly due to MY feeling more open and relaxed instead of having this "tension of worry" or resentment from those old old messages and insecurities? sorry this got a little long, I'm just musing as I wake up Have a fabulous day, and don't forget to treat yourself!!!! Mikki -----Original Message-----From: IntuitiveEating_Support [mailto:IntuitiveEating_Support ]On Behalf Of michelle FridaySent: Friday, August 17, 2007 7:14 PMTo: IntuitiveEating_Support Subject: RE:

Mikki How have your 4 days been going? Everything was ok for me today until after lunch when I wanted a little sum'in sum'in... ate a cream horn- which was enough and felt satisfied but guilty so ate 6 mini cup cakes. How stupid is that? I had a chicken wrap and some grape tomotoes for lunch, and the cream horn would have been fine to have with it. But my diet brain saw failure and my stupid brain said, eat more. I really want the rest of this day to be sane.Mikki Behnke <mkbehnkecomcast (DOT) net> wrote: Hi MIchelle! I am brand new to IE (this is my 4th day) as well, but this is a very friendly group of

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