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[Guest guest]

, I thought I'd send a separate note to deal with some of your

questions.

Unfortunately, I don't think the way I'm feeling is due to the

estrogen, since I've been feeling this way for quite a while. I

thought that if the news from the surgery wasn't too bad, it would

help me feel more optimistic, but it didn't really change anything.

Now, I've just started second guessing my choice of doctors,

treatment, etc. I only found the name of the recently added " A " list

doc in Boston on Sunday night, 8 hours before I was due at the

hospital. It wasn't him I was seeing, though I've heard of him, and I

didn't know what to do. I guess I just let inertia carry me to the

hospital for the scheduled procedure. It turns out he didn't use

scissors, but a resectoscope, so I'm terrified that he just further

" burned " my uterus and I'll be worse off than when I started. I think

I felt so pessimistic about the chances for success before the surgery

that I just let him go ahead. Now, knowing that the scarring wasn't

as bad as I'd expected, I'm wondering if I made the wrong choice.

I keep going over it in my head and I can hardly sleep because of all

the second guessing. He said he'd treated many AS cases. He's the

head of the RE dept at one of the top 5 hospitals in the country for

gynecologic issues. He says a large % of the patients he's treated

for AS have gone on to have children, including approx 40% of the ones

even he thought had near-hopeless cases. So, why the resectoscope?

Why not the scissors, if other specialists think the scissors are

needed? ETC. Am I an idiot for having let him operate on me? Or

should I try to actually trust him instead? I'm going to lose my

mind.

I did make an appt with Dr. Isaacson, in case I need it. The first

available appt (because there was a cancellation!) is June 15! In the

meantime, I'm taking 2.5 mg Premarin/day --- IS THIS ENOUGH? And I'm

scheduled to see the original RE in approx 3 weeks. IS THIS SOON

ENOUGH? Am I better off with so much info (some of which is

conflicting) or is it just making me crazy?

You're probably wishing you hadn't asked any questions now, aren't

you?!

Kim