I failed

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I freely admit that I have failed in her attempts to master blood

glucose level control. I have failed her in several respects. First of all

I have failed to gain her trust. In this same respect I have failed to gain

the trust of her husband. It has been evident for several weeks to anyone

who cares to make simple observations. When a person can make simple

experimental recommendations, which are in themselves perfectly safe for

another to perform, and yet these simple recommendations are never carried

out is a definite sign that I am not trusted. I failed to convince

that she is the primary person that all of her helpers, including her

doctor, nurse and husband, should listen to her wishes. They should

accommodate her and not her who accommodate them. I failed to show how to

do this. I failed to get to share with her doctors and nurse my

recommendations I have urged her to do. I failed to have her understand

that doing experiments in a fish bowl, where every one can see what is

happening is the safest way to conduct life experimentation. Keeping no

secrets amongst all those willing to help is the best way to make sure that

one will be safe, and I don’t think knows this. While I know

can count, I still failed to have her count a specific number of grams of

carbs of her own choosing and have her stick to it for at least two days in

a row. I failed to convince her importance of this simple procedure. I

failed to get to believe that she alone is the most important

authority over her body. I am not her authority. Presently, it appears

that her doctor, nurse and husband are her authorities, not . I failed

to demonstrate to that I am truly a master of my blood glucose

control, and maybe the fact of over a year of A1C’s being at or below 5.5

does not impress her, even though most of my past year and a half A1C’s were

5.3 and lower. I have failed others here, too. Long before Wayne had the

first amputation several others and I tried to get him to listen to us, but

we all failed him, and I am sure we regret that he is no longer with us. He

steadfastly believed that only his doctor was right, and he insisted on

doing what his doctor recommended and no others. I failed to have him chart

his progress or lack of progress where what was happening could clearly be

seen by him and all others who cared to look. Apparently, I have failed

in the same way. By doing this charting the evidence is clearly

visible to all, and any experiments in mastery of blood glucose control can

be shown to the diabetic, the doctor, the nurse, the spouse, and any others

who care to see. Through this method the individual diabetic learns who is

the real authority over one’s own body, and it usually comes down to be the

responsibility of a single individual, and you know who that would be. It

would be you.

I not only admit that I have failed , but I also admit I am helpless to

make her follow my instructions. When is willing to trust me, I am

willing to try again and again. Until that time comes I do not see any way

I can be of service to her and any further recommendations on my part are

futile. I do recommend trust the people on this list serve, for after

all it is the folks on this list serve and not my doctors who taught me

mastery of blood glucose level control. So in the future I wish you

good luck and hopefully you will make good choices.