Guest guest Posted May 12, 2007 Report Share Posted May 12, 2007 After reading some of the great posts yesterday, I had some interesting insight in the shower this morning. My entire " dieting " history (age 12-37) can best be described as my Head being just as unfaithful to my Body as a cheating wife/husband. Time and time again my Head would tell my Body, " You dont really understand the way things are. This is new and real. Your signals and cues are off. I dont need to be spending more time with you and building a relationship with you. I can best understand you by spending more time with these friends (my diets aka LOVERS) You make me sick. You arent perfect. These are! " Each time my Head would make promises to my Body that would understandably become lies. " This it it! This time I mean it. I know all of those times before were just leading up to this. This time Ive got it under control. Its going to be so good, Honey. Just wait and see. I promise! Just go along with this and we will be happy. " Ive been trying to eat intuitively for almost 6 months and Id say maybe really " getting it " in a deeper awareness for about a day of it. HA HA None the less, I can tell that my Body is beginning to get smaller. I wont get on the scale because my Head falls in love with that too. For today my Head is really admitting to my Body " I was wrong and I dont know. " My Body is still recovering from the trauma. My Body doesnt trust my head and is waiting for the slightest provocation to rebel. My Body has been the suffering wife/husband through the Heads many infidelities. I guess its just going to take some time to rebuild the trust and really believe that this time the Head is really committed to a relationship with the Body. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 12, 2007 Report Share Posted May 12, 2007 Excellent post, I can definitely relate to what you are saying about trust issues and making justifications, I have found myself doing that many times. This time around I am trying to impose no rules on my intuitive eating therefore there is nothing for me to cheat on, no rules to break. If I find I eat for reasons other then intuitive ones then 'Oh well I ate for reasons other then intuitive ones' and I try to move on. It is not always simple, I have the arguments in my head that I am not worthy but I am fighting them and moving on. It is a slow process but I am telling myself I am worth it...yes I am (sorry I just needed to reinforce that thought...LOL) Take care and thank you for your insights. > > After reading some of the great posts yesterday, I had some > interesting insight in the shower this morning. > > My entire " dieting " history (age 12-37) can best be described as my > Head being just as unfaithful to my Body as a cheating wife/husband. > > Time and time again my Head would tell my Body, " You dont really > understand the way things are. This is new and real. Your signals > and cues are off. I dont need to be spending more time with you and > building a relationship with you. I can best understand you by > spending more time with these friends (my diets aka LOVERS) You make > me sick. You arent perfect. These are! " > > Each time my Head would make promises to my Body that would > understandably become lies. " This it it! This time I mean it. I know > all of those times before were just leading up to this. This time > Ive got it under control. Its going to be so good, Honey. Just wait > and see. I promise! Just go along with this and we will be happy. " > > Ive been trying to eat intuitively for almost 6 months and Id say > maybe really " getting it " in a deeper awareness for about a day of > it. HA HA None the less, I can tell that my Body is beginning to get > smaller. I wont get on the scale because my Head falls in love with > that too. For today my Head is really admitting to my Body " I was > wrong and I dont know. " > > My Body is still recovering from the trauma. My Body doesnt trust my > head and is waiting for the slightest provocation to rebel. My Body > has been the suffering wife/husband through the Heads many > infidelities. I guess its just going to take some time to rebuild > the trust and really believe that this time the Head is really > committed to a relationship with the Body. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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