Obsessive thoughts

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Hi all,

This is my first post to this group. I was an intuitive eater for the

first 27 years of my life, fairly active and naturally slim without

even thinking about it. Then one day, after a period of enforced

inactivity during which I gained approx 5kg, I decided to go on a

" sensible " diet to lose those extra kilos (500 calorie per day deficit

to lose half kg per week). And it worked great - until I came off the

diet and found I couldn't stop thinking about food. I started binging,

then obsessively exercising, then binging and purging... and 3 years

down the track it's pretty much taken over my life. So much for

sensible dieting!

Anyway, I know that IE is the way to go, since it kept me slim and

happy for 27 years. And I am seeing a therapist to help with the

emotional stuff (which was all there pre-diet, but I didn't binge

then?!) But the thing I want freedom from the most is the obsessive

thoughts about food. How do you not think about something?

As soon as I've finished a meal I start thinking about when I will

next be able to eat. I ask myself 100 times over " am I hungry yet? "

until, by the time the hunger signal comes, I can't tell whether it's

for real or it's just my body saying " alright, I'll say you're hungry

if you'll just go away and leave me alone! " . Sometimes I get so tense

thinking about how I'm going to binge that I just go and do it so that

once it's done it's done and I don't have to think about it any more!

Does anyone else suffer from this problem, or have you overcome it? If

so, how? I want to free my mind and put all that energy into something

positive instead!

T xx