Re: Re: Sharing with all of you

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hey Mindy! We had the exact same thought! That is exactly what popped into my head also--God was steering me towards slowing my pace down. My mom used to say when i was in H.S. (you know, when dinosaurs roamed the earth..as my kids would say!LOL!) ..she'd say--you think there is 28 hours in a day! I'd be up til 2, 3 or 4 in the morning, writing poetry, cleaning my room, etc. and still get up by 7am to get to school on time...these days...oh brother...so opposite. Just having 5 kids has taught me a bit to start to say 'no' sometimes. Yet i really struggle saying it...MS really has a mind of its own--so I try not to 'bite off' more than i can chew so to speak. ..Just folding the laundry or trying to stay on top of the housework is more than enough, and my very p/t job at the nursery school...oh man...just remembered, CPS is coming out for another visit tomorrow, gotta go pick up! hugs to all, kate Re: Sharing with all of youTo: MSersLife > I've always thought the my MS was God's way of saying "slow > down." > For so long my life was lived in "mindy mode" and I didn't stop > to > breath enough, even after my diagnosis. It wasn't until my > skills > at multi tasking were compromised from the disease that I > finally > had the "talk" with myself. Slow down. Slow down. Life > doesn't > always have to be in "mindy mode". > > My hubby coined the term 'mindy mode' because I would make him > dizzy > with all that I could accomplish in a day. I can still get some > things done but it's more like a "manic mode". > > Losing the feeling of being in control is a real loss. We need > to > start a LOC grief group. But we need a more creative name. > LOCO > would be good.... Loss of Control Outrageousness or Loss of > Control > Optimists Club. Ha. > > Mindy> > > >> > Hello Everyone!> > > > I have been reading the posts for the last few days and I am > totally > > amazed with how so many of us share the same struggles.> > > > For instance, just this past week I have been talking to my > husband > > and children about how difficult it is to have a Type A > personality > > and an illness that hinders that! Then I read a post about > this > > with another one of our members.> > > > The approaching holidays--- ah,yes! I struggle with this each > year- > > that balance between what I "want to do" and what I > > can "realistically" do and then the let-down that happens each > year > > when I realize what I can't do and didn't do because of my MS.> > > > I never thought about personality changes but you are so > right. > > Each night when I finally get to lay down and my mind can > think > > uninterrupted (LOL) then it starts spinning with lists of what > needs > > to be done around the house, what I need to be doing more of > with > > the kids and so on! My mind literally spins!> > > > Or about giving or helping others but in a limited capacity... > this > > is so frustrating! I struggle so much with this. I sign-up > for > > things or want to help friends and then my health will (of > course) > > act up then and I can't fulfill what I committed myself to or > I > have > > to alter it. > > > > My heart is just breaking from this disease..... do we ever > really > > get to acceptance? Here I am almost 16 years into this > disease > and > > I am still realizing what MS has taken away. It's so hard to > want > > to do so much - or worse remember when we could do so much > more > and > > we can't!> > > > I try to look at what MS has actually given me or how my life > has > > benefitted by this. I know with my personality I would've > probably > > really turned into a career-driven woman and then it would've > > probably been hard to change our finances to allow me to stay > home. > > But since I was diagnosed with MS prior to children - I was > already > > home! I know that MS opened the door to me considering and > > ultimately choosing to homeschool our children. So I am > thankful > > for the fact that some decisions were easy to do based on the > fact > > that I am home. > > > > Anyone else understand????? > > > > Sorry this is a little bit of a downer email,> > > >> > > > Recharge Your Chi! Believe and Achieve! Dreams are Worth Striving For!

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ians 4:13 I can do all things through Crhist who gives me strength.

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