Guest guest Posted April 24, 2000 Report Share Posted April 24, 2000 Lea, Thanks for the encouragement. I know in my mind that all you say is true, but putting it into action is another story. I do look to this surgery as the chance to change my life before I let the joy of life slip away. I know that is putting an awful lot of emphasis on weight, but to some degree I cannot help but think that thin does equal happy. I can just see you screaming as you are reading this e-mail. And I know that intellectually I am screaming along with you. But emotionally I am not. At this point, I am willing to give up all the food in the world and drink all my food through a straw for the rest of my life if necessary!! By the way, I just figured out how to look at all the pictures on the onelist site. It was really great putting faces to all your names. This is such a positive an inspiring group. Right now I need that so much. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 24, 2000 Report Share Posted April 24, 2000 believe me I know exactly where you are coming from. I have learned to liv one day at a time. I do have my down days but I know that the next day I can make it better. I guess some of my ourlook comes from my suicide attempt back in 89. I was in abusive relationship and one of the reasons I stayed was becuase I thought nobody else would want me because of my weight. My mother had pushed me away because of the relationship and I fel lost without her to turn to. The best advice I can give anybody is to live life as you want. Do things in spite of rejection because you may be surprised. Put yourself out there. If you do end up getting hurt and rejected go home and lick your wounds and go out there again. Lea Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 24, 2000 Report Share Posted April 24, 2000 Lea, I can totally relate to what you've experienced as far as the suicide attempt. I too had attempted it twice in my life, and both times came down to me feeling so shitty about me as well as other things, but now that I'm losing, and feeling SO MUCH better about me, in a very loving relationship with someone I adore, I feel like that was a setback back in the " old days " . I try not to think about what I did, what I put my family and friends through, but when I do, I realize that they loved me then, just as much as now, whether morbidly obese, or slimming down as I am now. I come from a very close family, unfortunately I didn't realize that until after my first attempt. I'm SO GLAD now that it didn't go " as planned " , and kicking myself when I do think back on those rotten days of my life. I now try to focus on the positive, and try and try to remain as positive as I can, although, I was always negative, and often times even now, I find myself in the same predicament. This is when I kick myself, and say " That was the past, let's focus on the future " , and it seems work to my benefit now, and that's even being of my Paxil since surgery! Dawn Re: future dating life believe me I know exactly where you are coming from. I have learned to liv one day at a time. I do have my down days but I know that the next day I can make it better. I guess some of my ourlook comes from my suicide attempt back in 89. I was in abusive relationship and one of the reasons I stayed was becuase I thought nobody else would want me because of my weight. My mother had pushed me away because of the relationship and I fel lost without her to turn to. The best advice I can give anybody is to live life as you want. Do things in spite of rejection because you may be surprised. Put yourself out there. If you do end up getting hurt and rejected go home and lick your wounds and go out there again. Lea Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Recommended Posts
Join the conversation
You are posting as a guest. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.
Note: Your post will require moderator approval before it will be visible.