Guest guest Posted November 29, 2006 Report Share Posted November 29, 2006 - I'm sorry to hear you had such a bad day. It sounds terribly insensitive of your boss! I hope that IE can help you find a better relationship with food. Personally, I have found a lot more relaxation about food myself, even if all my hopes of losing haven't been met yet. Thinking about you. - > > Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5 " 3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. > > Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. > > Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. > > I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. > > I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. > > I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. > > Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. > > Michele > > > > --------------------------------- > Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 29, 2006 Report Share Posted November 29, 2006 - I'm sorry to hear you had such a bad day. It sounds terribly insensitive of your boss! I hope that IE can help you find a better relationship with food. Personally, I have found a lot more relaxation about food myself, even if all my hopes of losing haven't been met yet. Thinking about you. - > > Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5 " 3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. > > Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. > > Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. > > I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. > > I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. > > I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. > > Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. > > Michele > > > > --------------------------------- > Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 29, 2006 Report Share Posted November 29, 2006 - I'm sorry to hear you had such a bad day. It sounds terribly insensitive of your boss! I hope that IE can help you find a better relationship with food. Personally, I have found a lot more relaxation about food myself, even if all my hopes of losing haven't been met yet. Thinking about you. - > > Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5 " 3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. > > Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. > > Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. > > I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. > > I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. > > I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. > > Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. > > Michele > > > > --------------------------------- > Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Hi ... I just want to say that I have done that before and when I saw the look in the womans eyes who I said it too I realized right away what a foot I had just stuck in my mouth. It is all relative to where you are at. To your boss she very well may feel overweight or uncomfortable and her feelings are valid, but I bet she was just not thinking of you as a 'fat ' person at all but as yourself, who she was venting too, or at least I hope her intention was good!! When I was more overweight than I am now, I felt like a thinner person trapped in this getting larger and larger body. It was a very bad feeling and the weight threw me into a deep depression. The only way I found out of that place was through excersise. It was hard at first, I could only do FIVE MINUTES!! I did the elliptical and I wore these huge ugly sweat pants to the gym to cover myself up and would not look in any mirror nor would I look anyone in the eyes. This was how I felt about myself inside, I have no idea how the outside world may have seen me . After a while I could do ten minutes. Then 20!! THen I suddenly jumped from 20 to an hour. Then, I jumped from an hour of cardio to 1 hour cardio and 1 hour of other types like resistance and strength. Then I joined a website that had support (like this one but its a forum) and I found healthy eating habits. Some days I did not want to do it but I made myself because I had a goal and a vision of myself in my head so strong. Not a diet, mind you, just focused on good health . I have and still eat what I want (for the most part) I wish you the best and I hope my post explained to some degree that it is all relative to where you are at with yourself as opposed to other people. I hope you have a better day HUGS Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5 " 3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. Michele Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. -- .. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Hi ... I just want to say that I have done that before and when I saw the look in the womans eyes who I said it too I realized right away what a foot I had just stuck in my mouth. It is all relative to where you are at. To your boss she very well may feel overweight or uncomfortable and her feelings are valid, but I bet she was just not thinking of you as a 'fat ' person at all but as yourself, who she was venting too, or at least I hope her intention was good!! When I was more overweight than I am now, I felt like a thinner person trapped in this getting larger and larger body. It was a very bad feeling and the weight threw me into a deep depression. The only way I found out of that place was through excersise. It was hard at first, I could only do FIVE MINUTES!! I did the elliptical and I wore these huge ugly sweat pants to the gym to cover myself up and would not look in any mirror nor would I look anyone in the eyes. This was how I felt about myself inside, I have no idea how the outside world may have seen me . After a while I could do ten minutes. Then 20!! THen I suddenly jumped from 20 to an hour. Then, I jumped from an hour of cardio to 1 hour cardio and 1 hour of other types like resistance and strength. Then I joined a website that had support (like this one but its a forum) and I found healthy eating habits. Some days I did not want to do it but I made myself because I had a goal and a vision of myself in my head so strong. Not a diet, mind you, just focused on good health . I have and still eat what I want (for the most part) I wish you the best and I hope my post explained to some degree that it is all relative to where you are at with yourself as opposed to other people. I hope you have a better day HUGS Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5 " 3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. Michele Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. -- .. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Hi ... I just want to say that I have done that before and when I saw the look in the womans eyes who I said it too I realized right away what a foot I had just stuck in my mouth. It is all relative to where you are at. To your boss she very well may feel overweight or uncomfortable and her feelings are valid, but I bet she was just not thinking of you as a 'fat ' person at all but as yourself, who she was venting too, or at least I hope her intention was good!! When I was more overweight than I am now, I felt like a thinner person trapped in this getting larger and larger body. It was a very bad feeling and the weight threw me into a deep depression. The only way I found out of that place was through excersise. It was hard at first, I could only do FIVE MINUTES!! I did the elliptical and I wore these huge ugly sweat pants to the gym to cover myself up and would not look in any mirror nor would I look anyone in the eyes. This was how I felt about myself inside, I have no idea how the outside world may have seen me . After a while I could do ten minutes. Then 20!! THen I suddenly jumped from 20 to an hour. Then, I jumped from an hour of cardio to 1 hour cardio and 1 hour of other types like resistance and strength. Then I joined a website that had support (like this one but its a forum) and I found healthy eating habits. Some days I did not want to do it but I made myself because I had a goal and a vision of myself in my head so strong. Not a diet, mind you, just focused on good health . I have and still eat what I want (for the most part) I wish you the best and I hope my post explained to some degree that it is all relative to where you are at with yourself as opposed to other people. I hope you have a better day HUGS Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5 " 3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. Michele Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. -- .. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Hi Michele, I'm so sorry to hear about your experience. But try to remember that this is part of the journey for you. IE is to free yourself of the obsession/addictive behavior related to food and weight. And we are all at a different place. Your boss may be just as obsessed and disgusted with her own weight as you are with yours. Keep your chin up. You are doing exactly what you need to do for you today. You WILL get there! Remember that your journey will be different than mine or anyone elses. And as you move through the process, think of all the people you will touch - all of the women/men(?) in this group have something to learn from you and your experience - just as you do from them. Just sharing what you lived through today has touched each of us. One final thought - have you considered working with an IE coach? I am getting started with a coach very soon with the hopes of working through the emotional side of all of this, so I don't get wrapped up in my negative self talk, or the food issues that come up when I am around my family during the holidays I keep thinking of the song by India Arie - "I am not my hair". Have you ever listened to it? The message is that who "I" am has nothing to do with what you (or I) see on the outside. When I am struggling, I sing that song to myself. Hugs to you. I hope today is better for you! Robin Reply-To: IntuitiveEating_Support To: IntuitiveEating_Support Subject: Today was crapDate: Wed, 29 Nov 2006 20:33:18 -0800 (PST) Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5"3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. Michele Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Hi Michele, I'm so sorry to hear about your experience. But try to remember that this is part of the journey for you. IE is to free yourself of the obsession/addictive behavior related to food and weight. And we are all at a different place. Your boss may be just as obsessed and disgusted with her own weight as you are with yours. Keep your chin up. You are doing exactly what you need to do for you today. You WILL get there! Remember that your journey will be different than mine or anyone elses. And as you move through the process, think of all the people you will touch - all of the women/men(?) in this group have something to learn from you and your experience - just as you do from them. Just sharing what you lived through today has touched each of us. One final thought - have you considered working with an IE coach? I am getting started with a coach very soon with the hopes of working through the emotional side of all of this, so I don't get wrapped up in my negative self talk, or the food issues that come up when I am around my family during the holidays I keep thinking of the song by India Arie - "I am not my hair". Have you ever listened to it? The message is that who "I" am has nothing to do with what you (or I) see on the outside. When I am struggling, I sing that song to myself. Hugs to you. I hope today is better for you! Robin Reply-To: IntuitiveEating_Support To: IntuitiveEating_Support Subject: Today was crapDate: Wed, 29 Nov 2006 20:33:18 -0800 (PST) Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5"3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. Michele Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Hi Michele, I'm so sorry to hear about your experience. But try to remember that this is part of the journey for you. IE is to free yourself of the obsession/addictive behavior related to food and weight. And we are all at a different place. Your boss may be just as obsessed and disgusted with her own weight as you are with yours. Keep your chin up. You are doing exactly what you need to do for you today. You WILL get there! Remember that your journey will be different than mine or anyone elses. And as you move through the process, think of all the people you will touch - all of the women/men(?) in this group have something to learn from you and your experience - just as you do from them. Just sharing what you lived through today has touched each of us. One final thought - have you considered working with an IE coach? I am getting started with a coach very soon with the hopes of working through the emotional side of all of this, so I don't get wrapped up in my negative self talk, or the food issues that come up when I am around my family during the holidays I keep thinking of the song by India Arie - "I am not my hair". Have you ever listened to it? The message is that who "I" am has nothing to do with what you (or I) see on the outside. When I am struggling, I sing that song to myself. Hugs to you. I hope today is better for you! Robin Reply-To: IntuitiveEating_Support To: IntuitiveEating_Support Subject: Today was crapDate: Wed, 29 Nov 2006 20:33:18 -0800 (PST) Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5"3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. Michele Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Hi Michele, I'm sorry that your bosses comments hurt you so much. You can do this though. My best friend from college lost 175lbs (50% of his weight) without dieting. He was in his mid-20s and it took about 3 years. Throughout his years losing weight, sometimes he didn't lose anything and sometimes he lost a lot. I think a lot of his success was due to his endless optism and patience. Patience with yourself and others is going to be one of your greatest assets in this battle to change your life. I wish you success and I whole-heartedly believe that you can get there. Amy > > Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5 " 3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. > > Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. > > Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. > > I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. > > I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. > > I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. > > Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. > > Michele > > > > --------------------------------- > Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Dear Michele The number 370 doesn't disgust me. Why? Because it's a number. It's not YOU. YOU ARE MICHELLE! I bet you are a million things but you are not a number. You are not "a 370". It truly holds no value or meaning. Someone confided in you because she sees you as a compassionate and understanding person with whom she could share her feelings without fear of judgement or being laughed at. That is a gift to behold and one to be celebrated! To be seen for your qualities, not your quantities. Much love to you. Focus on the whole of who are you are and what you can do to celebrate yourself and continue to make yourself feel great every day Love, Trudi wrote: Hi ... I just want to say that I have done that before and when I saw the look in the womans eyes who I said it too I realized right away what a foot I had just stuck in my mouth. It is all relative to where you are at. To your boss she very well may feel overweight or uncomfortable and her feelings are valid, but I bet she was just not thinking of you as a 'fat ' person at all but as yourself, who she was venting too, or at least I hope her intention was good!! When I was more overweight than I am now, I felt like a thinner person trapped in this getting larger and larger body. It was a very bad feeling and the weight threw me into a deep depression. The only way I found out of that place was through excersise. It was hard at first, I could only do FIVE MINUTES!! I did the elliptical and I wore these huge ugly sweat pants to the gym to cover myself up and would not look in any mirror nor would I look anyone in the eyes. This was how I felt about myself inside, I have no idea how the outside world may have seen me . After a while I could do ten minutes. Then 20!! THen I suddenly jumped from 20 to an hour. Then, I jumped from an hour of cardio to 1 hour cardio and 1 hour of other types like resistance and strength. Then I joined a website that had support (like this one but its a forum) and I found healthy eating habits. Some days I did not want to do it but I made myself because I had a goal and a vision of myself in my head so strong. Not a diet, mind you, just focused on good health . I have and still eat what I want (for the most part) I wish you the best and I hope my post explained to some degree that it is all relative to where you are at with yourself as opposed to other people. I hope you have a better day HUGS On 11/29/06, Michele Hagenlock <sheljo> wrote: Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5"3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. Michele Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. -- .. Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Dear Michele The number 370 doesn't disgust me. Why? Because it's a number. It's not YOU. YOU ARE MICHELLE! I bet you are a million things but you are not a number. You are not "a 370". It truly holds no value or meaning. Someone confided in you because she sees you as a compassionate and understanding person with whom she could share her feelings without fear of judgement or being laughed at. That is a gift to behold and one to be celebrated! To be seen for your qualities, not your quantities. Much love to you. Focus on the whole of who are you are and what you can do to celebrate yourself and continue to make yourself feel great every day Love, Trudi wrote: Hi ... I just want to say that I have done that before and when I saw the look in the womans eyes who I said it too I realized right away what a foot I had just stuck in my mouth. It is all relative to where you are at. To your boss she very well may feel overweight or uncomfortable and her feelings are valid, but I bet she was just not thinking of you as a 'fat ' person at all but as yourself, who she was venting too, or at least I hope her intention was good!! When I was more overweight than I am now, I felt like a thinner person trapped in this getting larger and larger body. It was a very bad feeling and the weight threw me into a deep depression. The only way I found out of that place was through excersise. It was hard at first, I could only do FIVE MINUTES!! I did the elliptical and I wore these huge ugly sweat pants to the gym to cover myself up and would not look in any mirror nor would I look anyone in the eyes. This was how I felt about myself inside, I have no idea how the outside world may have seen me . After a while I could do ten minutes. Then 20!! THen I suddenly jumped from 20 to an hour. Then, I jumped from an hour of cardio to 1 hour cardio and 1 hour of other types like resistance and strength. Then I joined a website that had support (like this one but its a forum) and I found healthy eating habits. Some days I did not want to do it but I made myself because I had a goal and a vision of myself in my head so strong. Not a diet, mind you, just focused on good health . I have and still eat what I want (for the most part) I wish you the best and I hope my post explained to some degree that it is all relative to where you are at with yourself as opposed to other people. I hope you have a better day HUGS On 11/29/06, Michele Hagenlock <sheljo> wrote: Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5"3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. Michele Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. -- .. Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Dear Michele The number 370 doesn't disgust me. Why? Because it's a number. It's not YOU. YOU ARE MICHELLE! I bet you are a million things but you are not a number. You are not "a 370". It truly holds no value or meaning. Someone confided in you because she sees you as a compassionate and understanding person with whom she could share her feelings without fear of judgement or being laughed at. That is a gift to behold and one to be celebrated! To be seen for your qualities, not your quantities. Much love to you. Focus on the whole of who are you are and what you can do to celebrate yourself and continue to make yourself feel great every day Love, Trudi wrote: Hi ... I just want to say that I have done that before and when I saw the look in the womans eyes who I said it too I realized right away what a foot I had just stuck in my mouth. It is all relative to where you are at. To your boss she very well may feel overweight or uncomfortable and her feelings are valid, but I bet she was just not thinking of you as a 'fat ' person at all but as yourself, who she was venting too, or at least I hope her intention was good!! When I was more overweight than I am now, I felt like a thinner person trapped in this getting larger and larger body. It was a very bad feeling and the weight threw me into a deep depression. The only way I found out of that place was through excersise. It was hard at first, I could only do FIVE MINUTES!! I did the elliptical and I wore these huge ugly sweat pants to the gym to cover myself up and would not look in any mirror nor would I look anyone in the eyes. This was how I felt about myself inside, I have no idea how the outside world may have seen me . After a while I could do ten minutes. Then 20!! THen I suddenly jumped from 20 to an hour. Then, I jumped from an hour of cardio to 1 hour cardio and 1 hour of other types like resistance and strength. Then I joined a website that had support (like this one but its a forum) and I found healthy eating habits. Some days I did not want to do it but I made myself because I had a goal and a vision of myself in my head so strong. Not a diet, mind you, just focused on good health . I have and still eat what I want (for the most part) I wish you the best and I hope my post explained to some degree that it is all relative to where you are at with yourself as opposed to other people. I hope you have a better day HUGS On 11/29/06, Michele Hagenlock <sheljo> wrote: Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Today my boss and I were talking about weight and being fat and it just pissed me off that she felt she was fat. This woman is pretty short I would say 5"3' and might weigh 160 pounds. I just wanted to sceam at her and say hello look at me. I just felt she was being insensitive to me. I didn't voice my opinion with her but I probably should have, it just makes me angry because some people have no idea what it is to be really fat. Right now I weigh (and I have never told a living soul this number) 370 pounds. I am mortified because of this weight and I can just hear you all gasping as you read this. Noone is more disgusted with this number than I am. Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I don't want to be dramatic and I surely don't want to create any drama on here when there doesn't need to be any, I just wanted to vent my frustrations with my situation and that I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great numbers. Why would you want any different. I would give anything, ANYTHING, to see a 1 in front of my weight number...hell I would even settle for a 2. I don't mean to sound bitchy or mean spirited because I am not that kind of person. I am just overly frustrated by the whole process and I can't seem to trust it. My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. Thanks for listening to me vent and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments. I just want you all to know it isn't anything personal....it is just frustration. Michele Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. -- .. Cheap Talk? Check out Yahoo! Messenger's low PC-to-Phone call rates. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 > > Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but >ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I'm glad you recognize that eating will not satisfy you. I've been half-heartedly working on eating issues for years now -- and seriously working on overcoming eating issues for almost a year -- and I still have days when I eat because of something not related to hunger. I have been learning, however, to stop myself, realize the reason behind my desire to eat, and do something different instead. Take one episode at a time, Michele. Each time you do NOT eat when you're not hungry, you're reinforcing being an intuitive eater. > I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I don't know how to say this without sounding harsh, and believe me, I have felt that way more than once, but... the honest truth is that YOU are the only thing that will help you. You are the only person who can stop yourself from overeating. You are the only person who can walk away from the fridge or the cupboard. Unfortunately, there is no magic diet, pill, or book that will help you unless you help yourself. I used to feel that I couldn't help eating -- I was helpless in the presence of food. I just couldn't stop myself from eating when I go the urge -- when I was anxious, worried, procrastinating, angry, frustrated, upset, bored, etc. But you know what? I could stop myself. I can stop myself. In fact, I am the only person who can! > I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give >my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great >numbers. Why would you want any different. It's all a matter of perspective. When I was a size six, I wanted to be a four. It wasn't any reflection on anyone else. I just still saw myself as needing to lose 10 pounds. I don't think I would have said what your boss did in front of you, but only because I've been conscious of people's weights all of my life. My mom was obese her whole life and talked of it constantly. > My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never >satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. The thing is to make sure you're actually physically hungry. Was your stomach growling? Did you have a headache and feel grouchy? Sometimes I want to think I'm hungry, but if I have to ask myself if I really am, I don't think I actually am hungry. _________________________________________________________________ Stay up-to-date with your friends through the Windows Live Spaces friends list. http://clk.atdmt.com/MSN/go/msnnkwsp0070000001msn/direct/01/?href=http://spaces.\ live.com/spacesapi.aspx?wx_action=create & wx_url=/friends.aspx & mk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 > > Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but >ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I'm glad you recognize that eating will not satisfy you. I've been half-heartedly working on eating issues for years now -- and seriously working on overcoming eating issues for almost a year -- and I still have days when I eat because of something not related to hunger. I have been learning, however, to stop myself, realize the reason behind my desire to eat, and do something different instead. Take one episode at a time, Michele. Each time you do NOT eat when you're not hungry, you're reinforcing being an intuitive eater. > I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I don't know how to say this without sounding harsh, and believe me, I have felt that way more than once, but... the honest truth is that YOU are the only thing that will help you. You are the only person who can stop yourself from overeating. You are the only person who can walk away from the fridge or the cupboard. Unfortunately, there is no magic diet, pill, or book that will help you unless you help yourself. I used to feel that I couldn't help eating -- I was helpless in the presence of food. I just couldn't stop myself from eating when I go the urge -- when I was anxious, worried, procrastinating, angry, frustrated, upset, bored, etc. But you know what? I could stop myself. I can stop myself. In fact, I am the only person who can! > I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give >my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great >numbers. Why would you want any different. It's all a matter of perspective. When I was a size six, I wanted to be a four. It wasn't any reflection on anyone else. I just still saw myself as needing to lose 10 pounds. I don't think I would have said what your boss did in front of you, but only because I've been conscious of people's weights all of my life. My mom was obese her whole life and talked of it constantly. > My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never >satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. The thing is to make sure you're actually physically hungry. Was your stomach growling? Did you have a headache and feel grouchy? Sometimes I want to think I'm hungry, but if I have to ask myself if I really am, I don't think I actually am hungry. _________________________________________________________________ Stay up-to-date with your friends through the Windows Live Spaces friends list. http://clk.atdmt.com/MSN/go/msnnkwsp0070000001msn/direct/01/?href=http://spaces.\ live.com/spacesapi.aspx?wx_action=create & wx_url=/friends.aspx & mk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 > > Days like this make me want to run and eat until I feel satisfied but >ultimately I am not and the cycle just gets worse and worse. I'm glad you recognize that eating will not satisfy you. I've been half-heartedly working on eating issues for years now -- and seriously working on overcoming eating issues for almost a year -- and I still have days when I eat because of something not related to hunger. I have been learning, however, to stop myself, realize the reason behind my desire to eat, and do something different instead. Take one episode at a time, Michele. Each time you do NOT eat when you're not hungry, you're reinforcing being an intuitive eater. > I am at the point where I don't think anything will help me. I don't know how to say this without sounding harsh, and believe me, I have felt that way more than once, but... the honest truth is that YOU are the only thing that will help you. You are the only person who can stop yourself from overeating. You are the only person who can walk away from the fridge or the cupboard. Unfortunately, there is no magic diet, pill, or book that will help you unless you help yourself. I used to feel that I couldn't help eating -- I was helpless in the presence of food. I just couldn't stop myself from eating when I go the urge -- when I was anxious, worried, procrastinating, angry, frustrated, upset, bored, etc. But you know what? I could stop myself. I can stop myself. In fact, I am the only person who can! > I read your posts and the tears run down my cheeks because I would give >my life to weigh what some of you ladies weigh. 140, 160 those are great >numbers. Why would you want any different. It's all a matter of perspective. When I was a size six, I wanted to be a four. It wasn't any reflection on anyone else. I just still saw myself as needing to lose 10 pounds. I don't think I would have said what your boss did in front of you, but only because I've been conscious of people's weights all of my life. My mom was obese her whole life and talked of it constantly. > My body told me all day it was hungry. I fed it but it was never >satisfied. I can't lose weight at that rate. The thing is to make sure you're actually physically hungry. Was your stomach growling? Did you have a headache and feel grouchy? Sometimes I want to think I'm hungry, but if I have to ask myself if I really am, I don't think I actually am hungry. _________________________________________________________________ Stay up-to-date with your friends through the Windows Live Spaces friends list. http://clk.atdmt.com/MSN/go/msnnkwsp0070000001msn/direct/01/?href=http://spaces.\ live.com/spacesapi.aspx?wx_action=create & wx_url=/friends.aspx & mk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 Great advice, ! Thanks for posting that! ) Jenn <>< > I don't know how to say this without sounding harsh, and believe me, I have felt that way more than once, but... the honest truth is that YOU are the only thing that will help you. You are the only person who can stop yourself from overeating. You are the only person who can walk away from the fridge or the cupboard. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 30, 2006 Report Share Posted November 30, 2006 I've said this before and kind of feel like a broken record but The Overfed Head by Rob s is a great book for encouragement, mainly because he lost 140lb in a yr and half. The book is concise and really to the point and worth every penny. His website is Thintuition.com and for awhile he was giving away the book. I have read it several times just for encouragement. > > Today was a very crappy day for me. I apologize for the language but I am just so frustrated. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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