Guest guest Posted September 10, 2006 Report Share Posted September 10, 2006 Hey everyone I have a question. This summer I have mostly been alone. I have an odd living situation with my aunt and a couple exchange students. I live downstairs but we all eat together. I pay rent but I give my autn money for groceries and she cooks. This can not change, I can not cook dinner for myself because it would cause discompfort in the family. I would be rocking the boat so to speak. It doesn't really matter why but i kind of have to eat dinner with everyone else. While i was alone I found a way to eat for my body that had me felling really great and i lost 9 lbs. Since everyone has come back i have gained 3-4 of it back. They have me and they themselves too have been baking cookies and pies. But more then that I feel like eating store bought junk now. I hate it, it actually doesnt feel good to eat but i have this compulsion. its totaly mental , not a physical need at all and it hurts physically. Chocolate makes my stomache ill but i can not stop buying it and eating it quickly and by myself. No one judges what I eat, no one would bother me about it if i ate it openly but i do not for some reason. What do you think is going on with me? I am so confused and I am so scared. I felt so great before. I think it has something to do with fear that others will mess everything up for me. What do you think? How do I get out of this mind set? Ash Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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