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Hi Bryce my name is Bill and I am 44 and have had my MS now since Aug of

99 and mine all hit me out of the blue. I went from being healthy in

July of 99 to losing my balance and also bladder trouble by Aug. I had

no idea what MS was it was a new experience for me. I had to go on

disability at that time also. I worked as an electronic tech for over 18

years. I am very happy I was able to get my social security like I did.

Last summer from around July to February 2006 I had double vision and I

am sure it was from the summer heat. My doc had me take 2 different

steroid treatments it took so long for my double vision to go away I am

not sure if the steroid treatment helped or not, maybe it just went away

by it's self. I used an eye patch a lot and it really helped.

My 9 year old joked and called me a pirate during that time.

I rarely get out of the home so I enjoy this discussion group just to

still socialize with people.

Bill

Bryce wrote:

>

> Hi,

>

> This is my letter of introduction so to speak. I am 47 year old male

> that lives alone in Tacoma Washington. In my early 30's I was told

> that they thought I had MS. I did not want to hear that as my mother

> had it. I figure that since I only had one flare-up I am told it is

> called. That I was a miss-diagnose, however things have been getting

> so bad that I went to my doctor and they did one MRI last month and

> told me they were pretty sure I had MS. Still I would not listen; I

> figured if I did not look at it I could fight it better.

>

> Yesterday I went in for my results of the second MRI done last week

> about a month after the first one. There is no question from all

> have going on and the history of my mom having it. They told me that

> there are few more lesion they found on the second MRI.

>

> I have been on SSI for a while now, all the reason I have been on I

> can now see from reading about MS are part of the illness. The

> concentration, the blurred and double vision, the head aches, the

> body weakness. See I never looked at all these things as MS

> including the doctors I had started seeing. They had been told I

> had been told I might have MS at 30. They also knew about my mom.

> However, they said I had Fiberyalgia. For some reason I was able to

> live with that. See there is a way to deal with it. Although I did

> not know that pushing my body everyday to do some of the exercise

> was making the MS part worse. In addition, I did not know the stuff

> I was going through was MS it was not like my mothers. Therefore, I

> would tell myself it old age creeping in and hey it not like mom's

> so it can't be MS. The counselor that SS had me go to said the

> blurred and double vision was my way of handing stress. Whenever I

> got stressed out it effected my eyes. They said that because when I

> went to the eye doctor they said your eyes are okay you just need

> glasses.

>

> However, I guess I was ready to face it. I demand the doctor to an

> MRI, I was getting tired of locking myself away from people when I

> could not walk. When my grades at school start to do a fall. I went

> from a 4.0 student to a 2.5 and a fight to keep it there. I had to

> write down my address and carry it in my billfold because when I

> asked what it was I would blank out. I found myself feeling like a

> wire was cut up in my brain. The first MRI said it looks like it

> with the family history you have MS. Still it did not sink in until

> yesterday after three doctors sat down to tell me. That they have

> ruled out all known cause. The tripping over things not there, and

> friends asking me if I had been drinking. (which I do not drink)

>

> Right now I am faced with looking at getting a wheelchair, and

> having to find a place that I can live as I am renting room that is

> more of garage and I can not walk up the flight of stair to use the

> bathroom. I cannot afford much, and to pay all the dep. It is just

> about all I can handle right now. Even if I could, I do not have way

> to move the few items I have, nor the strength. Today I sitting here

> feeling a desperation I do not ever remember feeling. It is a

> helpless feeling, one minute I can figure out how to do something

> then the next I sit here and cannot figure things out. I get mad at

> myself for not being able to see things or to see the answers to

> simple things.

>

> Well I have rambled on far too long in this email. Thank you for

> listening. If anyone knows of a way to reach, a MS group in Tacoma

> Washington please let me know.

>

> Bryce

>

>

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Gee Bill, I never realized how young you are! Wow! That must have been scary to have double vision for that amount of time. Once last summer of '05 I had double vision for 15 minutes--it was awful! I am confused about disability. How does it work? I don't just 'get it' with a dx of MS, right? I work part-time during the school year at a nursery school doing music. I don't actually have a 'physical' disability, but find my fatigue and depression affects my concentration and focus, and that is why I haven't tried to get more work.blessings, kate

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Bryce,

Welcome to the group. I don't have MS but my husband Chuck does. However I can relate to the memory problem. I had chemo in 1990 and have what is called chemo brain. It affected my short term memory.

Why don't you contact your county to see if they know of anyone that would volunteer to help you move. How about talking to the scout master in your area? There might be some boy scouts that would be willing to help. I will keep you in my prayers.

Hugs

nne

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Hi,This is my letter of introduction so to speak. I am 47 year old male that lives alone in Tacoma Washington. In my early 30's I was told that they thought I had MS. I did not want to hear that as my mother had it. I figure that since I only had one flare-up I am told it is called. That I was a miss-diagnose, however things have been getting so bad that I went to my doctor and they did one MRI last month and told me they were pretty sure I had MS. Still I would not listen; I figured if I did not look at it I could fight it better. Yesterday I went in for my results of the second MRI done last week about a month after the first one. There is no question from all have going on and the history of my mom having it. They told me that there are few more lesion they found on the second MRI. I have been on SSI for a while now, all the reason I have been on I can now see from reading about MS are part of the illness. The concentration, the blurred and double vision, the head aches, the body weakness. See I never looked at all these things as MS including the doctors I had started seeing. They had been told I had been told I might have MS at 30. They also knew about my mom. However, they said I had Fiberyalgia. For some reason I was able to live with that. See there is a way to deal with it. Although I did not know that pushing my body everyday to do some of the exercise was making the MS part worse. In addition, I did not know the stuff I was going through was MS it was not like my mothers. Therefore, I would tell myself it old age creeping in and hey it not like mom's so it can't be MS. The counselor that SS had me go to said the blurred and double vision was my way of handing stress. Whenever I got stressed out it effected my eyes. They said that because when I went to the eye doctor they said your eyes are okay you just need glasses. However, I guess I was ready to face it. I demand the doctor to an MRI, I was getting tired of locking myself away from people when I could not walk. When my grades at school start to do a fall. I went from a 4.0 student to a 2.5 and a fight to keep it there. I had to write down my address and carry it in my billfold because when I asked what it was I would blank out. I found myself feeling like a wire was cut up in my brain. The first MRI said it looks like it with the family history you have MS. Still it did not sink in until yesterday after three doctors sat down to tell me. That they have ruled out all known cause. The tripping over things not there, and friends asking me if I had been drinking. (which I do not drink) Right now I am faced with looking at getting a wheelchair, and having to find a place that I can live as I am renting room that is more of garage and I can not walk up the flight of stair to use the bathroom. I cannot afford much, and to pay all the dep. It is just about all I can handle right now. Even if I could, I do not have way to move the few items I have, nor the strength. Today I sitting here feeling a desperation I do not ever remember feeling. It is a helpless feeling, one minute I can figure out how to do something then the next I sit here and cannot figure things out. I get mad at myself for not being able to see things or to see the answers to simple things. Well I have rambled on far too long in this email. Thank you for listening. If anyone knows of a way to reach, a MS group in Tacoma Washington please let me know. Bryce

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Dear Bryce:I'm glad you found us and joined us. I'm really really sorry to hear of your difficulties. Are you registered with your local chapter of the National MS Society? Call them and tell them you are newly diagnosed. Take a look at this link for: http://www.nmss.org/was/event/event_detail.asp?e=375There are self-help groups as in the link above. Their home address link is http://www.nmss.org/was/home/ and their phone number is . Tell them your situation and maybe they can also guide you to some organization that could help you move to a place that would be accessible for you. Sharon Sharon (MSersLife Group Owner/Creator) It's not easy taking my problems one at a time when they refuse to get in line. ~Ashleigh Brilliant Intro. Hi, This is my letter of introduction so to speak. I am 47 year old male that lives alone in Tacoma Washington. In my early 30's I was told that they thought I had MS. I did not want to hear that as my mother had it. I figure that since I only had one flare-up I am told it is called. That I was a miss-diagnose, however things have been getting so bad that I went to my doctor and they did one MRI last month and told me they were pretty sure I had MS. Still I would not listen; I figured if I did not look at it I could fight it better. Yesterday I went in for my results of the second MRI done last week about a month after the first one.

There is no question from all have going on and the history of my mom having it. They told me that there are few more lesion they found on the second MRI. I have been on SSI for a while now, all the reason I have been on I can now see from reading about MS are part of the illness. The concentration, the blurred and double vision, the head aches, the body weakness. See I never looked at all these things as MS including the doctors I had started seeing. They had been told I had been told I might have MS at 30. They also knew about my mom. However, they said I had Fiberyalgia. For some reason I was able to live with that. See there is a way to deal with it. Although I did not know that pushing my body everyday to do some of the exercise was making the MS part worse. In addition, I did not know the stuff I was going through was MS it was not like my mothers. Therefore, I would tell myself it old age

creeping in and hey it not like mom's so it can't be MS. The counselor that SS had me go to said the blurred and double vision was my way of handing stress. Whenever I got stressed out it effected my eyes. They said that because when I went to the eye doctor they said your eyes are okay you just need glasses. However, I guess I was ready to face it. I demand the doctor to an MRI, I was getting tired of locking myself away from people when I could not walk. When my grades at school start to do a fall. I went from a 4.0 student to a 2.5 and a fight to keep it there. I had to write down my address and carry it in my billfold because when I asked what it was I would blank out. I found myself feeling like a wire was cut up in my brain. The first MRI said it looks like it with the family history you have MS. Still it did not sink in until yesterday after three doctors sat down to tell me. That they have

ruled out all known cause. The tripping over things not there, and friends asking me if I had been drinking. (which I do not drink) Right now I am faced with looking at getting a wheelchair, and having to find a place that I can live as I am renting room that is more of garage and I can not walk up the flight of stair to use the bathroom. I cannot afford much, and to pay all the dep. It is just about all I can handle right now. Even if I could, I do not have way to move the few items I have, nor the strength. Today I sitting here feeling a desperation I do not ever remember feeling. It is a helpless feeling, one minute I can figure out how to do something then the next I sit here and cannot figure things out. I get mad at myself for not being able to see things or to see the answers to simple things. Well I have rambled on far too long in this email. Thank you for listening. If anyone

knows of a way to reach, a MS group in Tacoma Washington please let me know. Bryce

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When I was diagnosed with my MS my neurologist recommended I

try to get it. I also have my diabetes and do well with it. I know with

the info he filled out about my MS, his info probably helped the most.

It seems like heat messes with my health a lot with my MS so I just go

back inside when I get too warm. I also skip some events if I have to

be outside too long. When my kids play ball in the summer we live in

our town so Judy and I will drive desperately aand I will leave once I

get too warm. I always hate missing my kids sport events.

Bill

katelloydkidz@... wrote:

Gee Bill, I never realized how young

you are! Wow! That must have been scary to have double vision for that

amount of time. Once last summer of '05 I had double vision for 15

minutes--it was awful! I am confused about disability. How does it

work? I don't just 'get it' with a dx of MS, right? I work part-time

during the school year at a nursery school doing music. I don't

actually have a 'physical' disability, but find my fatigue and

depression affects my concentration and focus, and that is why I

haven't tried to get more work.

blessings, kate

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Hi Bryce, Welcome to MSersLife! ) I'm Challis and I have no dx yet, but maybe someday. <g> I've been having symptoms for between seven and ten years, I guess. It was only about seven years ago when they began increasing more and taking a turn I couldn't ignore so much. I still tried though. I did finally decide to take a look at this and see if I could find some answers. That was about two years ago now. I saw a Neuro, had a braan MRI, lab work and all that fun stuff. No answers for me. My Mother also has MS. She's Sharon (wobbletowalk on our list). She created this list some time back and talked me into joining two years ago. Everyone here has been wonderful! ) I am married to and we live in Arizona. We have four children, whom we

Homeschool. is 19½ (graduated), is 16, Jenna is 6½ and Maya is 3. Some days are harder than others, though I've found somewhat of a reprieve in symptoms for about nine months now? I'm not sure. I just realized one day that things seemed to have improved a bit. It was the first time in years that I noticed it like that. I have numbing over most of my body, with some places growing more intense or flaring hard at times. Heat will always do that to me. I've had trouble with my right eye for some years now. It came and went, then settled in for a long while. Right now it's doing okay. That trouble is like a block on the nose-side of my eye. I do notice if I touch that eye, I can't see well for some time after. It's not the usual blurriness that may follow rubbing an eye though. I have seen Eye Docs, who found nothing, though the first (without knowing of my

MS concerns) asked about a Neuro and suggested MS based on other symptoms I was having. The Eye Docs tell me my vision is 20/20. I say it's nice to know this when I can't see. LOL Among other symptoms is the Cognitive Dysfunction. I think it grows worse in the heat, as does my fatigue. And when I'm feeling that intense fatigue, my brain just refuses to work. Word retrieval is a problem, slurring, thinking one thing and saying another, hearing things wrong, and so on. It is very hard when I want desperately to talk or type and I just cannot get the thoughts to run through my mind and absolutely cannot get anything out right. There are times Homeschooling is a bit tougher, just as is simply raising the children. They ask me things I should know, and I do know, but it's a complete blank. I laugh and tell them to ask me again in a few hours or the next

day. Depression is a big part of MS for so many. Do you feel this is affecting you now? Are you on any meds for your MS or facets of it? Challis Bryce wrote: Hi,This is my letter of introduction so to speak. I am 47 year old male that lives alone in Tacoma Washington. In my early 30's I was told that they thought I had MS. I did not want to hear

that as my mother had it. I figure that since I only had one flare-up I am told it is called. That I was a miss-diagnose, however things have been getting so bad that I went to my doctor and they did one MRI last month and told me they were pretty sure I had MS. Still I would not listen; I figured if I did not look at it I could fight it better. Yesterday I went in for my results of the second MRI done last week about a month after the first one. There is no question from all have going on and the history of my mom having it. They told me that there are few more lesion they found on the second MRI. I have been on SSI for a while now, all the reason I have been on I can now see from reading about MS are part of the illness. The concentration, the blurred and double vision, the head aches, the body weakness. See I never looked at all these things as MS including the doctors I had started seeing. They had been

told I had been told I might have MS at 30. They also knew about my mom. However, they said I had Fiberyalgia. For some reason I was able to live with that. See there is a way to deal with it. Although I did not know that pushing my body everyday to do some of the exercise was making the MS part worse. In addition, I did not know the stuff I was going through was MS it was not like my mothers. Therefore, I would tell myself it old age creeping in and hey it not like mom's so it can't be MS. The counselor that SS had me go to said the blurred and double vision was my way of handing stress. Whenever I got stressed out it effected my eyes. They said that because when I went to the eye doctor they said your eyes are okay you just need glasses. However, I guess I was ready to face it. I demand the doctor to an MRI, I was getting tired of locking myself away from people when I could not walk. When my grades at

school start to do a fall. I went from a 4.0 student to a 2.5 and a fight to keep it there. I had to write down my address and carry it in my billfold because when I asked what it was I would blank out. I found myself feeling like a wire was cut up in my brain. The first MRI said it looks like it with the family history you have MS. Still it did not sink in until yesterday after three doctors sat down to tell me. That they have ruled out all known cause. The tripping over things not there, and friends asking me if I had been drinking. (which I do not drink) Right now I am faced with looking at getting a wheelchair, and having to find a place that I can live as I am renting room that is more of garage and I can not walk up the flight of stair to use the bathroom. I cannot afford much, and to pay all the dep. It is just about all I can handle right now. Even if I could, I do not have way to move the few items I

have, nor the strength. Today I sitting here feeling a desperation I do not ever remember feeling. It is a helpless feeling, one minute I can figure out how to do something then the next I sit here and cannot figure things out. I get mad at myself for not being able to see things or to see the answers to simple things. Well I have rambled on far too long in this email. Thank you for listening. If anyone knows of a way to reach, a MS group in Tacoma Washington please let me know. Bryce

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Hi Bryce, sorry to hear of the things you are going through. Have you called your local ms society? They will know of a group for you. Also there are some ms web sites that will help you. This ms group is also a good one. Bryce wrote: Hi,This is my letter of

introduction so to speak. I am 47 year old male that lives alone in Tacoma Washington. In my early 30's I was told that they thought I had MS. I did not want to hear that as my mother had it. I figure that since I only had one flare-up I am told it is called. That I was a miss-diagnose, however things have been getting so bad that I went to my doctor and they did one MRI last month and told me they were pretty sure I had MS. Still I would not listen; I figured if I did not look at it I could fight it better. Yesterday I went in for my results of the second MRI done last week about a month after the first one. There is no question from all have going on and the history of my mom having it. They told me that there are few more lesion they found on the second MRI. I have been on SSI for a while now, all the reason I have been on I can now see from reading about MS are part of the illness. The concentration, the

blurred and double vision, the head aches, the body weakness. See I never looked at all these things as MS including the doctors I had started seeing. They had been told I had been told I might have MS at 30. They also knew about my mom. However, they said I had Fiberyalgia. For some reason I was able to live with that. See there is a way to deal with it. Although I did not know that pushing my body everyday to do some of the exercise was making the MS part worse. In addition, I did not know the stuff I was going through was MS it was not like my mothers. Therefore, I would tell myself it old age creeping in and hey it not like mom's so it can't be MS. The counselor that SS had me go to said the blurred and double vision was my way of handing stress. Whenever I got stressed out it effected my eyes. They said that because when I went to the eye doctor they said your eyes are okay you just need glasses. However,

I guess I was ready to face it. I demand the doctor to an MRI, I was getting tired of locking myself away from people when I could not walk. When my grades at school start to do a fall. I went from a 4.0 student to a 2.5 and a fight to keep it there. I had to write down my address and carry it in my billfold because when I asked what it was I would blank out. I found myself feeling like a wire was cut up in my brain. The first MRI said it looks like it with the family history you have MS. Still it did not sink in until yesterday after three doctors sat down to tell me. That they have ruled out all known cause. The tripping over things not there, and friends asking me if I had been drinking. (which I do not drink) Right now I am faced with looking at getting a wheelchair, and having to find a place that I can live as I am renting room that is more of garage and I can not walk up the flight of stair to use the

bathroom. I cannot afford much, and to pay all the dep. It is just about all I can handle right now. Even if I could, I do not have way to move the few items I have, nor the strength. Today I sitting here feeling a desperation I do not ever remember feeling. It is a helpless feeling, one minute I can figure out how to do something then the next I sit here and cannot figure things out. I get mad at myself for not being able to see things or to see the answers to simple things. Well I have rambled on far too long in this email. Thank you for listening. If anyone knows of a way to reach, a MS group in Tacoma Washington please let me know. Bryce

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Bryce, welcome to the group. Most of us have gone through a lot of the same feelings you are going through now. This group is a good place for you to be. Here is a link to the MS society in the state of Washington. http://www.nationalmssociety.org/mycommunity/chapter.asp?ChapterID=91 & state=WA Here is the link about group sessions: http://www.nationalmssociety.org/was/event/event_detail.asp?e=375 I'm going through a divorce and I have learned of subsidized housing. They go by how much you make. You need to research that online. Here's a place to start you: http://aptfinder.org/cgi-bin/index.pl Even the WA MS society might be able to help you. Good luck to you. It will be ok. You're not alone, you have us. Shirley Bryce wrote: Hi,This is my letter of introduction so to speak. I am 47 year old male that lives alone in Tacoma Washington. In my early 30's I

was told that they thought I had MS. I did not want to hear that as my mother had it. I figure that since I only had one flare-up I am told it is called. That I was a miss-diagnose, however things have been getting so bad that I went to my doctor and they did one MRI last month and told me they were pretty sure I had MS. Still I would not listen; I figured if I did not look at it I could fight it better. Yesterday I went in for my results of the second MRI done last week about a month after the first one. There is no question from all have going on and the history of my mom having it. They told me that there are few more lesion they found on the second MRI. I have been on SSI for a while now, all the reason I have been on I can now see from reading about MS are part of the illness. The concentration, the blurred and double vision, the head aches, the body weakness. See I never looked at all these things as MS

including the doctors I had started seeing. They had been told I had been told I might have MS at 30. They also knew about my mom. However, they said I had Fiberyalgia. For some reason I was able to live with that. See there is a way to deal with it. Although I did not know that pushing my body everyday to do some of the exercise was making the MS part worse. In addition, I did not know the stuff I was going through was MS it was not like my mothers. Therefore, I would tell myself it old age creeping in and hey it not like mom's so it can't be MS. The counselor that SS had me go to said the blurred and double vision was my way of handing stress. Whenever I got stressed out it effected my eyes. They said that because when I went to the eye doctor they said your eyes are okay you just need glasses. However, I guess I was ready to face it. I demand the doctor to an MRI, I was getting tired of locking myself away

from people when I could not walk. When my grades at school start to do a fall. I went from a 4.0 student to a 2.5 and a fight to keep it there. I had to write down my address and carry it in my billfold because when I asked what it was I would blank out. I found myself feeling like a wire was cut up in my brain. The first MRI said it looks like it with the family history you have MS. Still it did not sink in until yesterday after three doctors sat down to tell me. That they have ruled out all known cause. The tripping over things not there, and friends asking me if I had been drinking. (which I do not drink) Right now I am faced with looking at getting a wheelchair, and having to find a place that I can live as I am renting room that is more of garage and I can not walk up the flight of stair to use the bathroom. I cannot afford much, and to pay all the dep. It is just about all I can handle right now. Even if I

could, I do not have way to move the few items I have, nor the strength. Today I sitting here feeling a desperation I do not ever remember feeling. It is a helpless feeling, one minute I can figure out how to do something then the next I sit here and cannot figure things out. I get mad at myself for not being able to see things or to see the answers to simple things. Well I have rambled on far too long in this email. Thank you for listening. If anyone knows of a way to reach, a MS group in Tacoma Washington please let me know. Bryce

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Bryce, welcome to the group. Most of us have gone through a lot of the same feelings you are going through now. This group is a good place for you to be. Here is a link to the MS society in the state of Washington. http://www.nationalmssociety.org/mycommunity/chapter.asp?ChapterID=91 & state=WA Here is the link about group sessions: http://www.nationalmssociety.org/was/event/event_detail.asp?e=375 I'm going through a divorce and I have learned of subsidized housing. They go by how much you make. You need to research that online. Here's a place to start you: http://aptfinder.org/cgi-bin/index.pl Even the WA MS society might be able to help you. Good luck to you. It will be ok. You're not alone, you have us. Shirley Bryce wrote: Hi,This is my letter of introduction so to speak. I am 47 year old male that lives alone in Tacoma Washington. In my early 30's I

was told that they thought I had MS. I did not want to hear that as my mother had it. I figure that since I only had one flare-up I am told it is called. That I was a miss-diagnose, however things have been getting so bad that I went to my doctor and they did one MRI last month and told me they were pretty sure I had MS. Still I would not listen; I figured if I did not look at it I could fight it better. Yesterday I went in for my results of the second MRI done last week about a month after the first one. There is no question from all have going on and the history of my mom having it. They told me that there are few more lesion they found on the second MRI. I have been on SSI for a while now, all the reason I have been on I can now see from reading about MS are part of the illness. The concentration, the blurred and double vision, the head aches, the body weakness. See I never looked at all these things as MS

including the doctors I had started seeing. They had been told I had been told I might have MS at 30. They also knew about my mom. However, they said I had Fiberyalgia. For some reason I was able to live with that. See there is a way to deal with it. Although I did not know that pushing my body everyday to do some of the exercise was making the MS part worse. In addition, I did not know the stuff I was going through was MS it was not like my mothers. Therefore, I would tell myself it old age creeping in and hey it not like mom's so it can't be MS. The counselor that SS had me go to said the blurred and double vision was my way of handing stress. Whenever I got stressed out it effected my eyes. They said that because when I went to the eye doctor they said your eyes are okay you just need glasses. However, I guess I was ready to face it. I demand the doctor to an MRI, I was getting tired of locking myself away

from people when I could not walk. When my grades at school start to do a fall. I went from a 4.0 student to a 2.5 and a fight to keep it there. I had to write down my address and carry it in my billfold because when I asked what it was I would blank out. I found myself feeling like a wire was cut up in my brain. The first MRI said it looks like it with the family history you have MS. Still it did not sink in until yesterday after three doctors sat down to tell me. That they have ruled out all known cause. The tripping over things not there, and friends asking me if I had been drinking. (which I do not drink) Right now I am faced with looking at getting a wheelchair, and having to find a place that I can live as I am renting room that is more of garage and I can not walk up the flight of stair to use the bathroom. I cannot afford much, and to pay all the dep. It is just about all I can handle right now. Even if I

could, I do not have way to move the few items I have, nor the strength. Today I sitting here feeling a desperation I do not ever remember feeling. It is a helpless feeling, one minute I can figure out how to do something then the next I sit here and cannot figure things out. I get mad at myself for not being able to see things or to see the answers to simple things. Well I have rambled on far too long in this email. Thank you for listening. If anyone knows of a way to reach, a MS group in Tacoma Washington please let me know. Bryce