(was)Takes the Cake (now) Akiba's fall & things lost to MS

[Guest guest]

Oh Akiba! I'm so sorry you fell. I know how that feels and it feels awful. For me, it's not just the pain of the fall it's the emotional fear that you will fall again. And the realization that MS means so many losses to my life. Like Akiba, I can't dance anymore.......but then I couldn't dance before MS!

But before MS I could walk without a cane, I could shop (and shop, and shop) without using a scooter, I could think clearly, I could go through my day without constant pain, I could take care of my family without having to 'rest'.... I could go anywhere I wanted to---by myself! Now I can't drive and that's a huge loss to me personally because I've always been so independent.

But we will get by. (And for the newbies I would like to remind them that everyone with MS is different and many with MS never have advanced degree of disability--so don't worry after reading this or any others in response to this please)

love to all who deal with this.....

Sharon (MSersLife Group Owner/Creator)

It's not easy taking my problems one at a time when they refuse to get in line. ~Ashleigh Brilliant

Takes the Cake...

Just an example of how much my brain is disapearing.I booked a flight two months ago for our annual conference with The Body Shop at Home. I had looked at my eticket at least three times since then. Only today, two days before leaving, do I realize that I booked it for last weekend. I feel so stupid!!!!!I would like to say "luckily" the airline would give me credit for my ticket. Only it's not so lucky as the current price of the ticket is $700 more. Looks like I'm driving now. Grrrrr...... what I wouldn't do to feel like I did in college. I was superwoman. Single mom, carried 18 credits and worked full time. I was always so focused and energized. Now I'm brain dead. I expected this to happen at 65 not 35. Makes me afraid, very afraid of how goofy my brain will be in 30 years. To top it all off, I fell down the last five steps to the basement this morning. I'm going to go to conference looking like I'm

an abused wife. Ha! Gotta love this disease. But hey, I can control my bladder so that's one step in the right direction!Mindy