VERY SAD TONIGHT!!

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I don't usually post any messages; I usually just read and learn, but

tonight I am so sad after today's endo appt that I just needed to

share with you all and be here tonight among people who understand.

Just to give you a brief background of where I am in my thyca

journey: I was dx with papillary thyca in Feb-01; tt in Mar-01; RAI

in July-01; Cytomel started (2)-25mcg; Tsh at 2 weeks after RAI

was .23; Cytomel continued at same dose; Tsh recently taken on 10-8-

01 was 8.3!!! I just found out today at my appt. My endo doc has

increased my Cytomel to 3 times a day to try to get my Tsh back

down.

Here's why I perplexed and very sad:

I don't understand WHY my Tsh would be DOWN to .23 initially after

starting the Cytomel, AND NOW my Tsh is up to 8.3! I asked my doc,

but he had no answer to give me. He just said to wait until the

increased Cytomel has a chance to kick in and will redo the tsh level

in about 6 weeks.

I'm afraid and sad tonight because I think it means that my thyca is

back. Why else would my tsh be elevated since I have no thyroid and

I've had my RAI and the meds did work OK at first.

I'm so afraid that I'm dying of this cancer. I've been so tired and

my mind has been so muddled for several months now. I just don't

know where I'm going to find the strength to keep going.

Thanks for being here to listen to me tonight.