Weight check-in, and holiday eating, and... stuff. (long)

[Guest guest]

Heyyas

Well, I've officially been back on program - faithfully - for two weeks.

It's not that I intended to be off program before, but I think as lifetimers

that we have a tendency to get lazy about the very things that bring us

success - journaling, counting every bite, and making the " best " choice for

our health. I know my mother-in-law laughs at me hysterically every time she

sees me pull out my little book, but perhaps that's why I'm down to a healthy

weight, and she's ready for her second hip replacement due to being almost

150 pounds above a healthy weight. I'm not embarrassed to pull out my

journal any more than I'm embarrassed to pull out my accucheck and be sure my

blood sugar is safe.

Anyway - two weeks back on program, and I'm down 4 pounds. It's exciting!

First of all, that it's coming off so quickly, and also that I'm following

program so faithfully as we approach the holidays. You see, for some of us

the holidays aren't really a time for celebration. To me, it's a time when I

have to be with my husband's family because mine is no longer living. The

first year they were fairly sensative - last year they weren't. Oh well, I

guess it takes some of us more than 2 years to get over losing both parents.

It's something none of them have experienced, so it's not their fault that

they don't understand.

So I have my own reasons for being stressed during the holidays - and my own

reasons that food *would be* a comfort. I say would be, because I won't let

it be. That's just silly. Making myself miserable for the sake of " comfort "

just doesn't make sense! I'm only a couple of pounds from goal, and while I

may not make my short term goals, I've always been in this for the long run.

I may not lose all 6 by thanksgiving the way I planned, but I'm 4 pounds

closer to that goal, and two weeks closer to keeping it off forever.

My husband is with his family. He goes out this time of year to hunt, and

that gives me time to myself. Usually, that's my invitation to eat as much

as possible without a witness <g>, but this year I'm taking it as an

opportunity to see how low I can get before he sees me next. I wonder if

he'll notice? Normally we do this together, and he's *supposed* to stay on

program while he's there, but his mother's cooking is a temptation he has a

lot of trouble resisting. I hope this year is an exception, as we've both

been doing so well. He'd just broken the " 225 plateau " that always hangs him

up - his goal is around 210 - and I hate to see him have to go through it all

over again.

Yesterday I had my holiday meal - at school, where portions could be limited,

and there are no leftovers. This is important to me, because my in-laws

don't eat what I consider a " traditional " meal. Fried chicken and mashed

potatoes is usual holiday fare because it's everyone's favorite, but I was

raised with good old turkey and dressing. Two years ago I discovered that if

I don't get it, I don't feel I've had the holiday... I tend to go grazing for

something that will satisfy me, and eat everything I find along the way.

This year I've taken care of it early, so I'm prepared for whatever they

serve next week.

I'm now only 3.8 pounds from the official WW goal. Once I'm below, I plan to

start back to meetings. I'm sure there'll be a fee for the first one, but

after that the lifetime membership should kick inn and I shouldn't need to

pay. It might be nice to sit in on the meetings again. I went for awhile

last year, and I miss it, but finances are just too tight to pay for another

ticket book.

Okay - enough rambling. I guess I'm just reflective this morning. I hope

you all have a lovely day.

-Crys-

WW to date: 171.4 / 143.8 / 140 (-27.6)

Thanksgiving Challenge: 147.8 / 143.8 / 140 (-4.0)

Christmas Challenge: 147.8 / 143.8 / 135.0 (-4.0)

If you want to be somebody else...

If you're tired of losing battles with yourself...

If you want to be somebody else, change your mind!

Sister Hazel

[Guest guest]

> Heyyas

>

My husband is with his family. He goes out this time of year to hunt,

and

that gives me time to myself. Usually, that's my invitation to eat as

much

as possible without a witness <<<<<

WOW, that is so ME, I could have written it myself! Except for me,

its not just this time of year, in spring its turkey season,

summer, " coon " season, fall - bow, black powder, fall turkey,

groundhog, big game, straight through to Jan/Feb, then its Rabbits, &

that takes you up to Spring and the turkeys all over again!!!, lol

so its always some season, and my husb. lives to hunt, as does my

youngest son, so Im always home, just me & my refridge! talk about

SNEAK eating? Dang, I was good at that!

I do love my time alone, Im never bored here by myself, but now that

Im not spending every minute EATING, I have a lot of time on my hands.

Its funny how many things we all have in common, and not just the WW

issues.

Good luck Crys, we can do this!

Bev

216.8/202.8/130

" grief stands beside me, seems she only loves me, puts her hands on

my head as I sleep, where I always am alone... "

Mato Nangi - Indigenous