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[Guest guest]

Tara and everyone else...

I think that this year isn't going too well. I had such high hopes for it.

I'm tired of " trying " , tired of getting my hopes up, tired of checking my

" girls " to see if they are sore or not, tired of everything to do with ttc.

I don't want to do it anymore. It isn't fun. It's stressful. It's taking a

toll on me that I don't like.

I pray to God to bless us with a child if it is HIS will. Maybe HE knows

what's in my heart better than I do. Maybe we are just supposed to have one

and leave it at that. I know we have more than a lot of people. We have a

child but I still feel like I'm missing something.

I'm not in the best of moods this weekend because of AF. I actually had a

dream that I was pg. Second time that happened and second time for

disappointment. At least now I can get an x-ray when I have to go to the

dentist in a couple of weeks. I think I have a cavity so I'll be looking

forward to getting some nitrous when it is filled. Gee, I could really use

some now.

Sorry this email is a downer. I'm wallowing again. It's been a rotten

weekend. My daughter puked on me Saturday morning at around 2am, I almost

did the same about 5 hours later but I fought it off, I felt like crapola the

rest of the day, dh tossed his cookies Saturday evening, we all felt better

Sunday but ate too much for lunch so had to cancel plans for a movie, yadda,

yadda, yadda...

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. I'm climbing out of my pit of despair long

enough to enjoy the day and hopefully have a nice dinner. I hope all of you

have a great day tomorrow!

Thanks for listening,

L

p.s... I'm a huge ER fan. Did anyone else see that episode??? Wasn't it

fabulous??? I was sooooooooooooo stunned at the end!!!! Okay. I feel

better now that I got that out of my system!

[Guest guest]

Jo-Ann,

Next weeks episode of ER isn't a repeat. It's the continuation from last

week. I can barely contain my excitement. It's driving me nuts waiting like

this! At least it gives me something to look forward to!

Only three more nights till the continuation...

L

[Guest guest]

Just ignore my previous post. I'm responding as I read these. Maybe I

should check them all first before saying anything more stupid!

Take care,

L

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 2/14/00 7:07:15 AM Central Standard Time,

ride7108@... writes:

<< PS I haven't been able to watch ER since my surgery. It used to be one of

my favorites. Every time they intubate (which is often) I start to sweat

and freak out. Being intubated caused me a lot of pain.

>>

Tara,

Sorry about that. I didn't think that it would bother anyone. I can't

imagine the hell you went through with all of that. I guess I wouldn't be

able to watch that too. I don't know if my like for medical programs made my

ordeal any easier. I watch Paramedics, Trauma Life in the ER, ER, and other

shows like that. I watched before my ep so I really think it helped me some.

I kinda knew what to expect from the staff and all the stupid things they

would say.

One such thing being said by the nurse admitting me. She took my blood

pressure and it was high. Well, imagine that. I'm spotting, having severe

cramping where my fallopian tube is, I'm on vacation in a strange town, I

know there is something wrong with my pg, I'm in the ER...Gee, I don't

understand why my blood pressure would be high. She kept telling me that

after I left the hospital that I would need to see my regular doctor to get

medication for my blood pressure even though I REPEATEDLY told her that I

don't normally have high blood pressure. *smacking palm of hand to forehead*

DUH!

Anyway, getting back on track, I'm just thankful I didn't have such a

horrible experience as yours. I'm sorry it brings back those awful memories.

Do you have your friend with you? You know, Mr. Pamprin? I have mine. He's

great. He's the only thing making me keep control. He helps me sleep at

night and endure my cramps and back pain. We should all have friends like

Mr. Pamprin.

My gosh, I just proofread my email. How awful! Lengthy and fragmented.

Eeewww!

Forgive? It's late again and I should be sleeping...

Take care,

L

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 2/15/2000 12:10:44 AM Eastern Standard Time,

Teneniel2@... writes:

<< Next weeks episode of ER isn't a repeat. >>

Ok, of all of us faithful ER watchers, who thinks Lucy is going to die? I

know she is leaving the show after this season, but could she be leaving

now???

[Guest guest]

l,

You crack me up. I love reading your messages.

I used to love watching ER and the trauma show on the learning channel

before my ep. I really do miss ER because I loved the characters, but now

I will get bad dreams. My own version of post traumatic stress disorder -

LOL.

Pamprin is a staple of my diet. I never used to take them. But after a

couple of years of marriage dh went out one Saturday and didn't say where.

He was back 15 minutes later with a bottle of Pamprin and begged me to

take them. I keep a regular supply now.

Tara

Re: scan

In a message dated 2/14/00 7:07:15 AM Central Standard Time,

ride7108@... writes:

<< PS I haven't been able to watch ER since my surgery. It used to be one

of

my favorites. Every time they intubate (which is often) I start to sweat

and freak out. Being intubated caused me a lot of pain.

>>

Tara,

Sorry about that. I didn't think that it would bother anyone. I can't

imagine the hell you went through with all of that. I guess I wouldn't be

able to watch that too. I don't know if my like for medical programs made

my

ordeal any easier. I watch Paramedics, Trauma Life in the ER, ER, and

other

shows like that. I watched before my ep so I really think it helped me

some.

I kinda knew what to expect from the staff and all the stupid things they

would say.

One such thing being said by the nurse admitting me. She took my blood

pressure and it was high. Well, imagine that. I'm spotting, having severe

cramping where my fallopian tube is, I'm on vacation in a strange town, I

know there is something wrong with my pg, I'm in the ER...Gee, I don't

understand why my blood pressure would be high. She kept telling me that

after I left the hospital that I would need to see my regular doctor to get

medication for my blood pressure even though I REPEATEDLY told her that I

don't normally have high blood pressure. *smacking palm of hand to

forehead*

DUH!

Anyway, getting back on track, I'm just thankful I didn't have such a

horrible experience as yours. I'm sorry it brings back those awful

memories.

Do you have your friend with you? You know, Mr. Pamprin? I have mine.

He's

great. He's the only thing making me keep control. He helps me sleep at

night and endure my cramps and back pain. We should all have friends like

Mr. Pamprin.

My gosh, I just proofread my email. How awful! Lengthy and fragmented.

Eeewww!

Forgive? It's late again and I should be sleeping...

Take care,

L

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Gwen I don't know what day it was because I havn't had a period since giving birth. The reason that she wanted to scan me was to see what the lining was before I finished my Climagest.

The reason I thought ,that she said that I was shedding was due to fluid in the uterus , and a large follicle 22mm which would mean to me forgive me if I am wrong is that I am due to menstrate?