Another's Pain Too/Needing to Vent

[Guest guest]

I am still in a great deal of pain and unable to leave the house.

Today I didnt even get out of my PJs or brush my teeth. I tried to

sleep as that helped the day go by and I didnt feel the pain as I

wasnt aware. I have started the methylprednisolone today, as I

couldnt stand anymore pain. I keep pushing myself along until it

starts to help, which is usually in 3 days or less. I have taken my

usual pain meds without any real change in the level of pain today. I

now have a headache from the Methylprednisolone though and I fear it

will turn into another Migraine.

My soon to be ex husband called me 6 times today to ask how I was and

if I needed anything. I wanted so much to say yes. I used all my will

power to resist, as this man is a disaster and he has only made me

feel worse once he " helps " . Emotionally he takes advantage when he

knows I am physically feeling really bad. That only makes me suffer

that much more.

He also called to let me know that our daughter. who is travelling in

the far east to all the places involved in the Vietnam War, is doing

ok and on her long 10 day tour. She wont write to me or speak to me

and has taken his side against me in the divorce, so I have to hear

everything from him if I want to know anything about her. She is on

her way from Hanoi to Laos. Having grown up with the Vietnam war

every nite for years as a kid I cant believe my daughter is a tourist

in these areas.

I really needed to vent and I hope that someone can respond. I feel

so alone and cant bear to feel so alone when I am in so much pain. I

wonder what will happen to me and if I should subscribe to one of

those services they advertise for elderly people. They have a button

to press and help is summoned right away if they need it.

I recently broke my arm when I was still living with my soon to be

ex. He and my daughter were out at the time. I knew it was broken as

I nearly passed out from the pain. I kept telling myself dont lose

consciousness, stay awake. I did and when I went to the orthopedist

he did an exray that didnt show the break, so I went on for another 3

weeks not knowing why I was in so much pain. Then I went back and the

MRI showed the break.

My daughter never believes me when I am in pain and accuses me of

being a hypochondriac. I still feel the emotional scars from her

reaction to my broken arm. I had gotten a letter from the doctor just

to explain it to her. She read the letter and still sure of herself

said she still didnt believe I had a broken arm. I was just faking

it. I told her I had an MRI and the Mri couldnt be faked. She still

refused to believe me.

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