Guest guest Posted June 11, 1998 Report Share Posted June 11, 1998 hi All My name is Pete and I am a survivor of a UK 12-step rehab. (Incidentally, I'd be interested in finding others if there are any out there). I guess I'm unlucky - dodecamania doesnt have as hard a grip here as it does in the US. My main problem is overeating and " love addiction " I guess - and the 12SP really did my head in. So that's me.... P. ---------------------- Pumpkin Eater " Facts are stubborn things " -- Judge Zobel, from Alain Rene Lesage [no, I didnt know who he was either] PERSONALITY-DISORDERS LIST: http://rdz.stjohns.edu/athenaeum/lists.phtml?personality-disorders _____________________ " At the Master's table, They gather for the Feast; They stab It with their steely knives But they just cant kill The Beast. " -- The Eagles ---- Read this list on the Web at http://www.FindMail.com/list/12-step-free/ To unsubscribe, email to 12-step-free-unsubscribe@... To subscribe, email to 12-step-free-subscribe@... -- Start a FREE E-Mail List at http://makelist.com ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 12, 1998 Report Share Posted June 12, 1998 In a message dated 6/11/98 11:23:18 PM, rock4u@... wrote: <<When did you first notice something was amuck with your step work? Was it a particular step? Did you start feeling creepy and couldn't figure out why? Or did you get alienated right from the start?>> The first day of rehab was nightmare. I was hungover, sick with pneumonia, scared to death and they sat us in a hospital meeting with all these other people with our hospital gowns on. At some point someone said to me " Go ahead. Go up there " I never said a word, just followed other hospital gowned people and someone gave me this white chip. What the hell was I doing here?? I understood later what had been going on and tried my best to get with the program. I hated it when they wouldn't let me do things that I was good at. Rehab is such crap but that's a whole story in itself. Anyway, the steps didn't give me too much trouble until Step 5. I never did get a sponser but my therapist kept encouraging me to do this with someone. There wasn't anyone I wanted to do this with. I'd done my internal inventory, these were my personal demons and why would I share them with anyone let alone someone I hardly knew. Rehab and the steps seemed intent on humiliating one til they're raw. I'm glad I never did a Step 5. And I could never do Step 9 with one person whom I'd had a long term relationship with. My self respect would have totally gone out the window had I apologized to him. Plus it would have been totally insincere. There were many people I sincerely amended to but you can't do it with everyone. And it wouldn't have " injured him " , he just didn't deserve it! And it wouldn't have allowed me to grow. There's were this program fails....it keeps humbling you til you can't look up anymore. I haven't thought about this stuff for awhile. It stirs up many memories, most of them frustrating, confusing and conflicting. Perhaps this forum will serve to release some of the detrimental feelings. Mag ---- Read this list on the Web at http://www.FindMail.com/list/12-step-free/ To unsubscribe, email to 12-step-free-unsubscribe@... To subscribe, email to 12-step-free-subscribe@... -- Start a FREE E-Mail List at http://makelist.com ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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