WOW! This is all so familiar

[Guest guest]

I'm new to this, so I apologize I'm not up on all the lingo. I just have to say

THANK YOU!

Reading these posts makes me realize I'm not alone.

I have a BPD mother and sister. I feel like I'm living in hell. I've tried

everything in my

power to protect my sister (younger by 9 years), but it's hopeless. I want out

of all of this

so badly...but they are my mother and my sister. If I ended my relationship

with

them...they would think so little of me and that kills me.

My mother just tried killing herself for the 4th time. This time was the most

serious. She

left a note to my sister and I and I'm haunted by it. She was forced to stay in

the hospital

for 6 days. I was sure this time there would be some hope...but there was none.

She

came out of the hospital and my sister and step-father acted as if all was good

in the

world and everything was perfect...after we talked about helping mom. I am

still setting boundaries and maintaining my position that things need to change

and mom needs to

get help. However, I'm the only one. So...I'm now looked upon as the " bad

guy. "

I know I'm all over the map here. I just don't even know where to begin. I've

been in

therapy for 5 years and am doing really well (all things considered). But this

last " episode "

has really hurt me and my mom just doesn't freakin' care. She doesn't see it.

She says " it

was just an accident, get over it. " Oh...OK! I want to scream.

I'm reading all the books I can. Seeking out all the help I can. Yet...I'm

still so broken. I

just want to be happy and live my life. I have so much going for me in my own

life (great

husband and 3 amazing kids) but each day there is a part of me that feels like

I'm

drowning.

Any suggestions on how to get through this?

Thank you to all of you!