wrong therapist for me?

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Exasperated....

I find it difficult in figuring out if this therapist I've met is

right for me or not and need some advice on my feelings about who I've

seen.

I have to travel hours to get to a therapist in another country where

they speak English and it is hugely costly for us to do so, hence I

can only manage it once a month. I met with a CBT (Cognitive

Behavioural Therapist) recently thinking this is the form of therapy I

need in order to 'get past' the hurt and anger toward my nada and

other problems I have in life. But.... the thing is, she's quite cold

- the therapist - and I have no idea if its simply her, the technique

(which I've tried before and helped in the past) or whether its just me?!

She said I could email or ring her at any time during this period of

not meeting her, and I did so the other day with the following:

****

Hi,

I need to vent this to you as I can't cope on my own right now....I

hope that's ok?

Its as if everything is transpiring against me.

The first week after arriving back from London was great, I felt

refreshed, alive, back to my 'normal' self and full of optimism

then gradually I got sick, and it started to fade.

I kept up hope for the upcoming NZ trip and then everything else fell

down around me....

crap weather - more snow, ice, cold wind

financial concerns

contact from my mother - of which I ignored because I choose to have

less stress in my life i.e. without having contact with her

contact from pat and cyril (family friends I plan to stay with in NZ)

about mother - guilt treatment which brought on anxiety and nausea and

lessen the need to go back to NZ

PMT symptoms - as per every month - irritability, nausea, tiredness,

causing argument with husband

Kids fighting with each other

family in law stressing me out, guilt treatment about how we bring the

kids up, about being sick etc etc

still being financially reliant upon the family-in-law

allergy, blood, etc tests - often at the hospital - also financial burden

my sisters manipulation about money and family problems - guilt and

entrapment

getting bronchitis and then the flu - having to stay indoors for a few

days with the kids and husband

kids getting sick - again having to stay indoors for a few days with

the kids and husband

lack of sleep - because of being sick, kids being sick, and teething

toddler

and then not being able to fly out to NZ because we are sick!

then finding out we can't get any government help to go flatting to

get away from the oppression of my in-laws

everything feels so desolate and negative

spiralling downwards out of control

I'm reading and trying to keep my spirits up with music, or writing

these things down, or reading about depression, (I purchased two of

the three suggested books, only because one wasn't in stock) talking

with friends when I can (due to time differences) but I keep getting

let down with one friend in particular because of the time differences

and her work schedule. It feels impossible.

I feel pulled in so many, too many, directions all at once and need to

space out for a bit....

Angeline

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And her response was:

Hi Angeline

It has taken me a few days to come back to you as I'm away in the US

for the week. If you think I can help you more specifically let me

know and I can come back to you when I am back at work.

Best wishes

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Er....I kinda thought she would know what to do??

Am I expecting too much?

Am I just being dumb about all of this or what?

Please anyone out there.....can you make suggestions?