Things nada said to me

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Things nada said to me

If you do not sit there and be really good, I will never come back

(said when she sat me in a chair within a store so she could shop

without me)

Bitter laughter, " she doesn't need that " when shopping for a bathing

suit at age 12 (swimsuit with a bra). Nada refused to acknowledge my

development and so my first bra was for a 34B. I walked out of the

store and hid; when I was finally located, it was all my fault

(lesson that anything nada says has to accepted and I am always wrong

in a situation with nada).

You look like a chicken going north when shown the only picture

formal picture taken of me with my much younger half brothers. A

chicken going north means that my face looked like the backend of a

chicken, I was an ass face. I was 14 years old.

You have too many children and no one will ever want to be your

friend while visiting me and my family in California, I was 28 and

married with six children.

Everyone has sexual abuse; it is not a big deal.

WHEN I VISITED NADA

It is a shame you have not done this before now (when I lost a lot of

weight)

I had to widen that interior door because you are too big to get thru

it (I complimented her most recent remodel project)

My last visit was when I met people that nada know well in the

community (had lived there for five years) and they said " I did not

know you had a daughter "

Nada especially loved to humiliate me in front of people; even today

I begin to go numb and experience terror feelings when anyone

criticizes me in public. I have memories of numbing humiliations all

during childhood and do not remember what nada said because I

withdrew mentally.