Re: : better today

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Hi Joanne

Sorry I did not see this email until right now- sometimes yahoo for me does this

where I think I have seen all the emails and then when I go back to look for

something I see a bunch of unopened emails.

Did you ever find the site that the woman you met told you about? I think you

are probably correct that your son's girl friend wanted your son to ask her to

be married. I think many do wish this but feel funny about talking about it.

It is so bad here in the US for married couples that we are taxed higher and its

so expensive to go to college. My step daughters are very lucky that they did

not have to pay. My step daughter who went away and came back got engaged but

did not even come out and tell us. I had to find out from my little sister who

is friends with my step daughter from her facebook. I know my husband is

upset but if that is what she wants to do with her life we can only be happy for

her.

I am excited to tell you that my sister wants to go back to church with me. I

know this will be good for her and it will give her more strength to stick with

the diet and help her poor mood.

We can only share our experiences with our children and hope they learn and hope

they will welcome God in their lives. So many people are searching but not

searching their faith and I do believe that is why there is so many unhappy and

unhealthy.

I will continue to pray for you and your family. Happy New Year!

Ciao-

Ange

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To: " fibromyalgiacured " <fibromyalgiacured >

Sent: Fri, December 16, 2011 3:34:59 AM

Subject: : better today

I have not stopped thinking about that lady I bumped into yesterday, she has had

a big impact on me. She told me the name of her group but I was not listening

and now thinking I should have it might have been a good place for me to go. She

said it helps folk with all conditions, not just alcohol and she said many

people with carb addiction, even chocolate addiction and diet coke addiction

attend there. I know I am OK with all of this and I will not return to that, but

often olk who have these diiculties have what we call isms, behaviours that

resemble our old self and of late I have noticed some of these things in me. I

may be able to ind that group on the Internet, I am going to have a look

Yes my son, it is very difficult for me to gage what is going on with him, I do

try to keep out of their business, I always have done. I know from all my past

experience with family that I do not do well when I am involved with other

peoples troubles. I tend to zoom in to all the nagative stu and believe it all

very intensely and I try to fix things, often just to relieve myself of anxiety.

I am not great at just letting things be. This is why I avoid getting in the

thick of things, I do think to some extent the emotional part o my brina is

somewhat under developed that I never really developed the patience and

graciousness adult relationships often require. I am far far far too serious and

far ar ar too sensitive when it comes to other peoples stuff, especially family

I know what you mean about them not being married and not having children too,

sounds so sad I know but here in England the situation for married folk,

especially if they have children is terrible. It is so bad now even priests and

vicars are telling the young ones not to marry because they know they will be

separating within a few years. It is mainly because the tax system is so biased,

married couples pay so much more in tax and it is a nightmare for everybody. We

have not had a wedding in our family for over 10 years and nobody in my husbands

family has married either and both are big families

I ahve not asked but I susect some of this is what is upsetting his girlfriend,

I suspect she wants to settle down, and have children but even now they are both

paying o tremndously high loans from their time at University and this story

just goes on and on. The young here are all in this kind of mess and the

situation with the housing market and such means things are getting a lot worse

or everybody. Politically everybody keeps getting on at the government about all

this but the government are more interested with what is going on in Europe and

all that nonsence. My daughter and her boyfirend have their own traps and all

these young olk are frustrated

I tell them all, the Lord will find you a way i you just become open to his

ways, but they do not really have a clue what I am talking about. My daughter is

a little bit more spiritually wise, she does look for humble ways to pass her

time. But when she goes to work they are constantly offering her opportunities

which on the service look very good, but in reality will require a lot of

sacrifice and determination. The other thing with my children is they both look

the part, they look like they could manage a large team and would work all the

hours God sends to ensure a business run well and I do think this is why they

get ofered good positions and so on. But I think back to mysel when I was young

and how capable I was and how determined and commited I was to so many things,

but when I got tied up with things this was when I was dragged down.

This is where all my confusion comes with my children I never know how to guide

them with such matters. I myself prefer the more humble way of living but in

reality it seems unlikely either of them will ever take this path, and besides

their partners too what them to be doing things that really are not my business.

And so I have to stand back and hand all this over to the Lord and ask Him to

show himself more in their lives and to show them the better paths in regards to

all their decisions

It is hard for me not to interere, I can see so many things that might help them

all but when I start meddling that is when my downfalls always occur. Can you

see my Alanon mind working here, this is how we all are in Alanon, are good

people but we have many inner struggles, we do not do well at all dealing with

amily issues

Anyway, since seeing that lady yesterday I feel so much calmer and more positive

too. When I awoke this morning, the film St had just started on TV so I

sat here and watched that, that gae me a lot of inspiration too. My son has gone

to work now so I really need to just get on with today. One thing my parents did

teach me in life is that one day the house can be up and the next day there can

be all kisses and cuddles, and I strongly suspect this is what will be happening

here. LOL

I am going to church now but I should be online later

Love Joanne

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To: fibromyalgiacured

Sent: Thursday, 15 December 2011, 20:25

Subject: Re: Joanne; Another Guided Image

Hello Joanne

It does seem that god sends us people who bring us back on track or bring us

joy. What I have learned that people need time and need to go through their

emotions. It is like when someone dies you need to go through all the emotions.

It is great he has you to come home to live. It is always good to have a safe

place.

Try to get him out for a walk when he is feeling low or ask for his help in

something physical. Men do best when they are moving. At least he was not

married to her before she broke his heart.

I am sorry to hear that you have nightmares. One thing I do is picture either a

log cabin or a garden before I go to sleep and while I am trying to sleep I then

fix up the log cabin or decide what plants and fountains etc in the garden and

before you know it I am asleep and dreaming of a beautiful garden near a

lake..etc

I always find when you share with someone they too have something to share.

Ciao-

Ange

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To: " fibromyalgiacured " <fibromyalgiacured >

Sent: Thu, December 15, 2011 11:54:39 AM

Subject: Re: ; Another Guided Image

My husband has a similar outlook, and similar wisdom too. He can so very easily

take himself off to wonderful places in his mind and heart and dwell there. It

is as if his mind is made up of mainly good things. Alas, I cannot claim this.

There is a lot of crazy stuff still goes on with my mind especially when I

sleep. It is like I am strong when I am concious but when I close my eyes that

is when the dark powers appear. Sad thing is that when I am asleep my mind

loops, on these bad things and I have no control over this. I can sometimes

remeber it, or I awake with it, but I know anyway if this has happened because I

am far more slower and sad when I awake

I use a lot of music, scripture, imagery and creative activities to concur this.

It is not always easy. Well it is easy a lot of the time but in winter I do find

it harder

Watching certain dramas help, they help me release some of my inner thoughts,

but it is still a bit hard for me to deal with this stuff since my mind has a

way of denying its significance until I sleep. Also, I do not like talking about

this stuff because sometimes talking about it feeds it

Today as I shopped I met a lady who was happy to listen to my woes so I just

said a few things about the cost of living and how things are getting over here

and stuff like this and she too shared her views on stuff. Next I told her a

little about my family and how by my son returning home a few things from my

past were being triggered.

My son has the voice of his father but the attitude of my dad and when I here

him speak sometimes he reminds me of them. He is not happy about this fall out

with his girlfriend and is in some ways setting the mood of the house, which

reminds me of my mother, and the list goes on

I was telling this lady about how all this was getting in on my head and making

me feel glum and that glumness is not good for me because I have the fibro and

the nightmares and how all this can if I let it lead to me walking the wrong

path

I told her about our group and how the diet had set me free from carb addiction

and other addictions and that although I new I was nowhere near any of them

problems my thought patterns were heading that way

I told her that I was frustrated because my son is home and his manner and

subject matter is raising stuff inside of me that I dont want to be dealing with

right now, and to avoid hearing any more of it I have come out of the house but

ever since I have been in the supermarket I keep thinking about how it is wrong

to just walk away from somebody you care about and how wrong I was for not

staying home and listening to him, I even said I then get thinking my son might

commit suicide, which I really do know he will not but these thoughts are in my

mind

The lady listened

I warbled and warbeled and warbled and got it all off my chest, and then she

said

I am a recovering alcoholic, I am a member of a support group where we use the

12 steps, and we hear many stories like this daily. LOL, I was blown away. I

just hugged her and said, God has sent you here to me today. She was a bit

shocked at my sudden joy. No no no I said you do not understand I needed this

more than anything today and it has happened. I am OK now.

I am at the library and I am going to look up my image stuff on youtube

Just wanted to share this with you

Love Joanne

Hi Joanne

There is so much to thinking about your healing and esp your brain. I know I

still have some brain damage from my stroke. The doctors say they expect a full

recovery and I do as well. I often think about my brain healing. I also love to

look at plant catalogs and dream about my dream garden.

I know many people who have used imaging to heal for cancer. I am sure both of

us will heal our brains with the diet, imaging and positive thinking.

I just spoke with a coworker today who reached out to see how I was doing. I

told them what happened at least from my perspective and that I have to have the

brain procedure in Jan but I am glad that we have a plan and I expect to be back

to my old self and hopefully pain free. I asked how he was doing and he said he

had quite the year too but nothing like what was going on with me and he felt so

blessed. I told him I feel blessed as well. I did not mean for my sharing to

sound like I was woeful. I guess people just put their own feelings on how they

think they would feel. We have such a fast pace stressful job that it must be

hard for them to imagine having to take time to heal. But I dont fret over it.

One other thing I do is play games

on http://www.gamesforthebrain.com/game/mahjongg/

I love the mahjongg game but there are lots of games that are fun and they are

all free!

Ciao-

Ange

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To: " fibromyalgiacured " <fibromyalgiacured >

Sent: Wed, December 14, 2011 10:35:22 PM

Subject: ; Another Guided Image

I do not know what happened to my brain, I still insist it was and is PTSD, but

even more than this was going on. Physically my brain had trouble and still does

have trouble seeing the positve. It never used to be like this even when I was

stressed I still could imagine, and see better than my currentl situation, but

now, since the PTSD event, the main event the big one, my mind struggles with

the abstract and if I am having flashbacks will not produce healing images

This is why I have to seek them out and use them with different situations and

opportunities

This guided imagery is of cells healing and it is something I use with

meditation to try to speak to my immune system and remind her that she can get

me well

I am pretty certain I have damaged important parts o my brain where the

programs, i you like to call it that, where the programs needed to simply create

these loving healing images. So now I dig them out and watch a variety daily.

this helps a lot and it can be enhanced by using the NLP and EFT from

Mckenna CDs or other CDs that cover this suject. Dr Mercola also covers this on

his site

love Joanne

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To: fibromyalgiacured

Sent: Thursday, 15 December 2011, 1:50

Subject: Re: dr visit yesterday

Thank you I will try it

I have a torn AC and RT cuff in my left which is odd because I am right handed

and torn RT cuff on my right shoulder. I used to play softball and tennis and I

know I hurt my right shoulder almost years ago playing tennis. But at the time

everyone was telling me not to have surgery. I just stopped playing tennis and

would sometimes play my husband because he is a beginner and I knew it would not

get competitive

I think when my husband was working in another state and I started to have to do

more physical stuff and then I moved some furniture with my dad that it messed

up my left side.

My shoulder doctor wont operate until my head stuff is addressed so he wont kill

me during surgery. I would prefer not to have surgery at all but Physical

Therapy and Massage made it so much worse

Thank you for the tip

Ciao-

Ange

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To: " fibromyalgiacured " <fibromyalgiacured >

Sent: Wed, December 14, 2011 2:00:50 PM

Subject: Re: dr visit yesterday

I dont know if this of any use to you, but my husbands brother has frozen

shoulder and he uses this

http://www.penetrex.com/

My husband uses it for his back and his pain is very much relieved with it.

Love Joanne

said........................

I still need shoulder surgery in both shoulders. I hope next

summer to be able to swim again. I hope you are able to get enough protein from

your diet. Beans for some people are hard to digest.

Do you do the Braggs Apple Cider Vinegar?