Guest guest Posted January 27, 2006 Report Share Posted January 27, 2006 , I can relate to your benzo withdrawal and your feeling that you will not get better. It's difficult - a million times more difficult than people who have not taken these drugs could imagine. You should probably take the supplements recommended by this group, but what I really wanted to say was DO NOT go back on the klonopin - it will NOT be better. Even though withdrawing from benzos has been extremely difficult and I still have many of the symptoms you described, I feel better than when I was on the drugs and I feel like I am continuing to get better. I think there's hope for everyone. --- Gibson wrote: > Hello Group, > > i am looking for someone who knows whats going on > with me really and am looking to know if i am > actually going to heal. i will try and give my story > as thourough as possible so i can maybe get some > advice from some group members. here goes. > > my name is and im a 21 year old male. from > the time i was 15 i was i put on various psych > drugs. i was guinny pigged and tried on just about > all the ssri's and none helped. then after trying > all those i was put on a antipsychotic or two and > did not take those long at all because of course > that didnt help. while taking those and coming off > during those years i never had anything happen near > as bad as what is going on with me now. i did have > some side effects but always was tried on a > different drug before i could fully heal from what > that drug did. it was hard to really notice what was > really going on with me from the drugs. you just > dont know what is going on because it creeps up on > you. i guess i didnt realize it then but i see now > looking back that it did cause more anxiety and > worse depression. > > i did manage to make it through high school and > actually got a couple scholarships to play college > baseball. since i had the depression and anxiety i > have had since birth, college didn't work out like i > wanted. finally, i was given one of the most > addictive and poisonous drugs on the planet called > klonopin or clonazepam. i told the doc this was the > last drug i was going to take and if it didnt work > then i was going to use alternatives. i took the > drug and it never helped and eventually i started > getting really bad effects while taking the drug > like GERD which led me to get off. > > after getting those affects and having problems > with my speech i knew there was something wrong so i > had to get off. i tapered within a months time > thinking that was good and of course it wasnt. it > was basically a cold turkey. my doc said it was good > and i havent seen him since. the cold turkey was > complete hell and the worst thing i believe i will > ever go through in my entire life physically and > mentally at the same time. after reading on it i > knew drugs were poison and i needed to stay off. i > was so incredibly tough i now realize because i was > in so much pain and had no support. i had so many > intense side effects going on at the same time. > > fast forward one year and that is where i am at > now. about this time last january was when i came > off. at this point i have seen improvement which is > good considering what some others are going through > in benzo w/d even after being off one year. but the > thing is that i still have so many side effects and > am pretty non functional. i have a job where i work > a few hours or more a day but it is very simple and > relaxed. not very stressful at all. i do have > trouble with it sometimes though. > > this is what i am feeling; hypersensitivity to > taste, sound, and sunlight, muscle aches, weakness, > and tightness, tingling and burning in my skin, > blurred vision and really dry eyes, unbalanced, > dysphoria, anxiety, really bad depression, severe > fatigue, throbbing from my heart throughout my body, > almost like a vibration, memory loss, feeling like > im in a 24/7 hangover, tinnitus, and possibly > others. at one year i am still feeling around 20 sx > because of a drug that never even helped. i am > scared for my life here because of the effects it > has had on my brain. sx have gotten better and i > dont feel them all at one time. i had really intense > head pressure along with really bad skin burning but > most of that has went away. > > what i am worried about is whether or not i will > heal. i know that the brain is the possibly the most > complex and amazing thing in the universe and it > takes a long time to heal but i just dont know. i > have read a lot of stories where people heal from > benzos and go on to get well even after c/t and then > i have read a few stories of people who dont get > well. it seems that either the brain heals or it > doesnt with people. it seems people are left with > hypersensitivity, motor/muscle sx, and others that > just dont go away. > > im only 21 and cant bear the thought of living my > life with this all the time. theres no way i could > ever be happy. i guess im looking to hear from > someone who knows what is actually going on in my > brain and whether or not it can heal from this and > if there are certain things i have to do in order to > get it back in balance. i feel kind of lucky to know > the truth about drugs and know that a healthy > lifestyle and proper diet is the way to happiness > when you got anxiety and depression problems but i > am scared its too late. im scared that poisonous > prescriptions already got their claws on me and i am > screwed. i have asked myself if i should reinstate > because i think that the drug has left permanent > brain changes or something. i just dont know. i am > stuck i feel. > > anyone with some advice or insight please respond. > it would really be appreciated and is why i joined > this group. take care everyone and hope all is well. > > > > > p.s. i dont mean to scare anyone. im sure most > people here are tapering and if so then you are on > the right track. > > > --------------------------------- > Do you Yahoo!? > With a free 1 GB, there's more in store with Yahoo! 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Guest guest Posted January 27, 2006 Report Share Posted January 27, 2006 Hi , Welcome to the group. I have good news for you. You CAN get better. While you may be left with some symptoms or some sensitivities, you will not be stuck feeling this way forever. We have members who can tell you that when they started doing the things recommended here, even a year or more later, they started getting better. And your youth is on your side. Take some time to read the materials we sent you when you joined. These give a good introduction into how we do things here and will help you get started eating properly and taking some basic supplements, to support your body's efforts to heal. We're happy to answer any questions you might have. I'm glad you found us. Regards, Kim co-moderator -- Visit my art blog at http://kimdenise.blogspot.com/. " Thanks to my work everything's going well " --Claude Monet Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 28, 2006 Report Share Posted January 28, 2006 Welcome to the safest place on earth . You will heal, and you will be happy again. Follow the protocol and what Kim and say and you will go from strength to strength. I'm glad you found us. With love Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 31, 2006 Report Share Posted January 31, 2006 , GERD is Gastro esophageal reflux disease. basically acid reflux. i never had any sx of this until i started taking klonopin and after being on it a couple months, i developed it when i didnt take my evening dose. i always felt like i needed to gag and i puked up stomach acid. it was awful and i took it as a sign that i needed to get off the poison because of what it was doing. unfortunately, i didnt know i needed to do like a 6 month taper and instead tapered within a months time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 31, 2006 Report Share Posted January 31, 2006 That's an easy Google! , Forgive my ignorance, but what is GERD? V. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 20, 2007 Report Share Posted March 20, 2007 get them to write down all the things they think they are good at. that might be hard for them. you can put them into groups, making sure that they have a little of everything in that group. (so they need each other) then give them a little task that really needs each thing they are good at. then.. put them into groups again - maybe the next day, but this time the groups are all based on similar abilities. now - give them some task that they need an ability that none of them are particularly strong in. you can do this either way, first similar groups, then diverse or whatever. you can be as creative as you like, either designing a little survey for them to fill in to establish what theyare good at, or letting them report on their own, right to using what you know about them already. you can be as creative as you like with the tasks you design - from the same task for each group, to different ones. you could incorporate phys ed - relays - runners that are very strong - one in each group - then change it so all the best runners are in one group. or do a reading/math oriented thing.. or architectural design, whatever. it could be a lot of fun to plan, take hours and hours, and ulitmately take them only a few minutes.. but you'd have it for every class each year Joanne Re: NEED HELP cup stacking? -jypsy At 08:16 PM 3/19/2007, alisongrafaol (DOT) com wrote: >Anyone know f any safe, easily-implemented team-building activities or >friendly within-grade team competitions I could >look into to start at my school? >This would be for 5-8th grades. > >*********** ********* ********* ********* AOL now offers free email to everyone. >Find out more about what's free from AOL at ><http://www.aol. com.>http://www.aol. com. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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