Sad and depressed today friends

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Hi friends,

Glad we have this support group here, as I feel I will continue to have good and

bad days, I mean really, with this LBD disease, it isn't a fun way to be at the

end of your days here on earth.

It seems when I go see Mom every day mostly, she talks real fast to me non stop

to get all the things she needs to tell me to make up for time we aren't

together to tell me of her " fantasies " that are REAL to her. I can't even

imagine being her age one day, and these scary, sexual, gross, nasty, filthy

people and thoughts would come into my mind!!! Who would of ever thought this

would of happened to her??? No one in my family has lived as long as she has,

and no one has had dementia of this kind or any kind. So all of this throws me

for a loop! Just when I think, " I can handle " her hallucinations, well, I

can't. I try so hard to be there for her at all times when I can, listen so

intently, pretend to take it all in what she tells me, and how can a human being

listen to someone like this and not be FREAKED OUT???!!!! I will not dare say

the words that come out of her mouth, what is in her head from this insane

disease, it would freak ya'll out. I prayed to God all the way home to please

please please ease these thoughts out of her head and mind. I know with this

LBD or any type of dementia, the reality of it is, they don't get better. And

can get worse as time goes on, medicine or no medicine. She is still sweet as

ever just looking at her, talking to her, but her inside mind takes her over

sometimes and it is not PRETTY!!!

Thanks for letting me vent this out ya'll. God in heaven we need friends that

are dealing with the same kind of things we are dealing with to relate to us.

My main concern is for these hallucinations not to get so bad she really freaks

out and the staff will freak out.

Love and HUGS!

in Texas