need to hear the mantra

[Guest guest]

Hi everyone. I am not having a good day. Tuesday I was told I am on 60-day probation at work b/c my turnaround time is too slow. I had to sign a paper. In effect it is permanent probation.

My sponsor thinks it would be "magical thinking" to think that if I get my speed up everything will be okay. She is telling me to find a new job. My good friend who used to be a personnel director is telling me to find a new job. So I will.

Meanwhile, the anxiety and sensitivity to noise are very bad today. I feel like a raw nerve. The White Chestnut just came today, so I am taking that in hopes it will help with the fear. I started the GOL multi today too. And I have requested a consult with .

And I have been up since 2 am when my beloved orange cat knocked over a lamp.

Meanwhile I need to hear that everything I am feeling is withdrawal.

I need to find the strength to send out resumes this weekend.

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[Guest guest]

Hi ,

I am sorry you have this additional stress. Can you

take stress leave for awhile and explain to your

doctor your difficulty and symptoms? Maybe you can

get time off and take it slow ie finding a job.

--- from land

wrote:

> Hi everyone. I am not having a good day. Tuesday I

> was told I am on 60-day probation at work b/c my

> turnaround time is too slow. I had to sign a paper.

> In effect it is permanent probation.

>

> My sponsor thinks it would be " magical thinking " to

> think that if I get my speed up everything will be

> okay. She is telling me to find a new job. My good

> friend who used to be a personnel director is

> telling me to find a new job. So I will.

>

> Meanwhile, the anxiety and sensitivity to noise are

> very bad today. I feel like a raw nerve. The White

> Chestnut just came today, so I am taking that in

> hopes it will help with the fear. I started the GOL

> multi today too. And I have requested a consult with

> .

>

> And I have been up since 2 am when my beloved orange

> cat knocked over a lamp.

>

> Meanwhile I need to hear that everything I am

> feeling is withdrawal.

>

> I need to find the strength to send out resumes this

> weekend.

>

>

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

I can understand your position - I had to do the same

thing at my job earlier in the year when my boss

whined to the office manager that " there were a

million mistakes " in my work. I made the mistake of

letting the firm know what I was going through - which

at that time was Effexor withdrawal cold turkey.

I hope your HR department is unaware of your current

situation. It will more than likely make matters

worse. I quit my job in March because the office

manager was constantly on my ass insisting I made too

many mistakes and making my work life a living hell.

I don't know what you currently do or how long you've

been there, but if they made you sign something

chances are it won't get any better even if you do get

your speed up. Don't take this the wrong way, but HR

may very well find something else to bitch about. I've

been there and done that and don't want to do that

again. During my tenure at that firm, I was on and off

a myriad of drugs and apparently it all decided to

some to a head in January 2005.

Keep your chin up, though - really. The job market's

tough, as we all know, but if you can get another job

(that is, if you want to get another job), do so.

I will tell you, though, that being out of regular

work since March (I had a couple gigs peddling beer

for local music festivals) gave me the opportunity to

clean myself out and detox. Now I feel that I can go

into a new job with a clear head.

Starbuck

--- from land

wrote:

> Hi everyone. I am not having a good day. Tuesday I

> was told I am on 60-day probation at work b/c my

> turnaround time is too slow. I had to sign a paper.

> In effect it is permanent probation.

>

> My sponsor thinks it would be " magical thinking " to

> think that if I get my speed up everything will be

> okay. She is telling me to find a new job. My good

> friend who used to be a personnel director is

> telling me to find a new job. So I will.

>

> Meanwhile, the anxiety and sensitivity to noise are

> very bad today. I feel like a raw nerve. The White

> Chestnut just came today, so I am taking that in

> hopes it will help with the fear. I started the GOL

> multi today too. And I have requested a consult with

> .

>

> And I have been up since 2 am when my beloved orange

> cat knocked over a lamp.

>

> Meanwhile I need to hear that everything I am

> feeling is withdrawal.

>

> I need to find the strength to send out resumes this

> weekend.

>

>

>

> __________________________________________________

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Starbuck,

Thanks for your support. I can't even afford to be out of work for a week. I spent my entire savings account on emergency vet bills a couple weeks ago. But thank God my cat recovered.

Fortunately they don't know anything about my medical issues on this job. I've only complained about vague things like hypoglycemia, insomnia, and back problems.

Anyway, I plan to send out resumes to all the insurance agencies in the area over the weekend. I work in insurance. I like what I do for this company, and the same job would not be available anywhere else in the area. But I hope I can still find something interesting.

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[Guest guest]

<<Hi everyone. I am not having a good day. Tuesday I was told I am on

60-day probation at work b/c my turnaround time is too slow. I had to

sign a paper. In effect it is permanent probation.

My sponsor thinks it would be " magical thinking " to think that if I

get my speed up everything will be okay. She is telling me to find a

new job. My good friend who used to be a personnel director is telling

me to find a new job. So I will.>>

***Oh , that stinks! But it's not as bad as it looks. You still

have the job, for starters! More about that in a minute...

<<Meanwhile, the anxiety and sensitivity to noise are very bad today.

I feel like a raw nerve. The White Chestnut just came today, so I am

taking that in hopes it will help with the fear. I started the GOL

multi today too. And I have requested a consult with .>>

***These symptoms are from the withdrawal. Your difficulties at work

are from the withdrawal. Everything is from the withdrawal. And it

will ALL GET BETTER!!!

White Chestnut helps with obsessive thoughts. If your fear comes from

obsessive rumination on problems, then it will help. Otherwise,

magnesium and calcium are good for anxiety, and so is lemon juice in

water. Check out the " supplements for anxiety " article in the FILES

under " Supplements " . If you're feeling like a raw nerve, fish oil is

very good for that.

I'm glad you're having a consult. It helps to pull everything

together at one time, when your questions and answers are not

separated by hours or days and spread out among multiple emails.

I know things don't look so great right now, but moving on from this

job (remember-- you STILL HAVE the job!!) may be a very positive

change. Who knows--you may walk into the best job you ever had. It

happened to me--I had to leave my job and move in with my parents for

financial reasons, and I took the first job I could find when I got

here. That job, which I considered purely temporary, has turned into

the best job I've ever had! I love what I'm doing and it keeps

leading me to bigger and better things.

So many times, changes that look scary and awful are really doorways

into a new phase of life. Try to regard this as an opportunity. It

IS an opportunity, and the way you think about it will give it that

much more power.

Tonight is a new moon, traditionally a time of new beginnings. What

perfect timing! I want you to spend some time just thinking about

possibilities and new beginnings. Turn this frightening time into a

personal power time. It's all there inside you.

And all that garbage you're feeling is from withdrawal. It's not you.

You're a wonderful, gifted, loving and loved human being. All that

crap is just the withdrawal!

Hugs,

Kim

(co-moderator)

[Guest guest]

Hi Kim

Thanks so much for your kind words. I needed to hear that. I will look at it like a new beginning. There has to be another job for me out there.

And I really needed to hear that it is all withdrawal. I am not sure if my fear comes from obsessive thoughts, but certainly I have plenty of repetitive negative thoughts.

This morning when I woke up at 5:30 the anxiety was better. Then I remembered I was on probation and got the jolt of anxiety in my stomach. So now I know there is a relationship with my thoughts.

I will continue the white chestnut and see what happens.

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[Guest guest]

I'm happy about your cat :-) - I have three. But I'm

sorry that evreything got depleted.

Just going by personal experience, the less your boss

knows about your medical situation, the better. It

also helps that you like your job - maybe your boss

will see that then. It's also too bad you can't get

the same type of job elsewhere, but who knows? Maybe a

company will be so impressed they'll create it for

you. It's been done....:-)

Good luck and hang in there!

Starbuck

--- from land

wrote:

> Hi Starbuck,

>

> Thanks for your support. I can't even afford to be

> out of work for a week. I spent my entire savings

> account on emergency vet bills a couple weeks ago.

> But thank God my cat recovered.

>

> Fortunately they don't know anything about my

> medical issues on this job. I've only complained

> about vague things like hypoglycemia, insomnia, and

> back problems.

>

> Anyway, I plan to send out resumes to all the

> insurance agencies in the area over the weekend. I

> work in insurance. I like what I do for this

> company, and the same job would not be available

> anywhere else in the area. But I hope I can still

> find something interesting.

>

>

>

>

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Start your day with Yahoo! - make it your home page

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[Guest guest]

HI ,

Actually you should tell HR about your health

problems. If you have legitimate health concers that

are affecting your work and they fire you after you

tell them, they can get into a lot of trouble. I went

through the same thing at my last job.

--- from land

wrote:

> Hi Starbuck,

>

> Thanks for your support. I can't even afford to be

> out of work for a week. I spent my entire savings

> account on emergency vet bills a couple weeks ago.

> But thank God my cat recovered.

>

> Fortunately they don't know anything about my

> medical issues on this job. I've only complained

> about vague things like hypoglycemia, insomnia, and

> back problems.

>

> Anyway, I plan to send out resumes to all the

> insurance agencies in the area over the weekend. I

> work in insurance. I like what I do for this

> company, and the same job would not be available

> anywhere else in the area. But I hope I can still

> find something interesting.

>

>

>

>

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Start your day with Yahoo! - make it your home page

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[Guest guest]

She's right - I had forgotten about the Americans with

Disabilities Act. I think you can also file with EEOC

if something happens.

Starbuck

--- Amy Eoff wrote:

> HI ,

>

> Actually you should tell HR about your health

> problems. If you have legitimate health concers that

> are affecting your work and they fire you after you

> tell them, they can get into a lot of trouble. I

> went

> through the same thing at my last job.

>

> --- from land

> wrote:

>

> > Hi Starbuck,

> >

> > Thanks for your support. I can't even afford to be

> > out of work for a week. I spent my entire savings

> > account on emergency vet bills a couple weeks ago.

> > But thank God my cat recovered.

> >

> > Fortunately they don't know anything about my

> > medical issues on this job. I've only complained

> > about vague things like hypoglycemia, insomnia,

> and

> > back problems.

> >

> > Anyway, I plan to send out resumes to all the

> > insurance agencies in the area over the weekend. I

> > work in insurance. I like what I do for this

> > company, and the same job would not be available

> > anywhere else in the area. But I hope I can still

> > find something interesting.

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> >

> > ---------------------------------

> > Start your day with Yahoo! - make it your home

> page

>

>

>

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