Guest guest Posted December 25, 2004 Report Share Posted December 25, 2004 I got up this morning about 8. and started cooking right away. put my roas on. got all my other stuff out of the cupboard and got thing's ready to cook.. But I just was not into the season this year at all. for me something was really missing.. maybe it is this darn fibro that's got me down so much.. I hurt so much all the time.. there never seems to be an end in sight.. and for me I get tired of hurting..KWIM? I hate complaining about how I am feeling.. heck there is know body around this house that care's any way's.. for the last week I have felt like i am in a daze..I don't know if it's the fog. or the weather. depression or the holiday's..maybe a combination.. I love each and everyone of you here you have all added meaning to my life. and have made my day's much more brighter.. and a little easier to face..((((((HUG"S ALL))))))) Gentle Caring Hug's Marie Marie A. Roomsburg P.O. Box 346 Ava, IL. 62907 E-mail marieava@... or marieava62907@... Messanger. aol. marieava. yahoo. marieava62907 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 25, 2004 Report Share Posted December 25, 2004 Hi Marie, To make a lonnnnnng story short........ My childhood was hell...abusive (physical/verbal/sexual) alcoholic step-father, several car accidents, several riding (horses) accidents, passive-aggressive mother, one motorcycle accident, eating disorder (borderline between non-purging bulimic {my " purge " was exercise and starvation} anorexic), endometriosis, several emotionally abusive relationships, couple of bouts with serious depression, couple of suicide attempts, some self abuse (cutting and the like)....yada yada yada. Fortunate for me....I finally got help, lots of therapy, learned some new coping skills so I do a little better. I am a very type " A " personality. I am extremely perfectionistic in regards to myself and no one else and I'm a major control freak.....I don't think that causes my fibro but I do think it aggervates it. I think my fibro was already beginning before my surgery (hysterectomy), but shortly after (about 4 months) my surgery I went into a MAJOR flare. I wasn't officially diagnosed until I had been hurting for about 6 months.....that was about 2 years ago. I think the surgery just kind of " revved it up " . As mentioned before...I did have " issues " (depression etc) prior to my diagnosis. I don't think the fibro has worsened my depression..I have " good days " and " bad days " .....on my " bad days " I am depressed, frustrated and I cry a lot; but, I'm only that way here and there not all the time. I do think it has increased my anxiety levels; kind of a " Oh no! What will I do if I'm out somewhere and I have a REALLY serious flare or cramp or or or " . I just write it off to my being a major control freak and I try to take a deep breath and " push on " . Pixi > Hi All: > > > > I have been doing a lot of thinking and reading about fibro.. > > every thing I read say's that Fibro is ''Usually " brought on by a traumatic > experience.. > > I know for me mine was.. and for me I can now look back to when I was a kid. > and had Pneumonia and chicken pox. and then pneumonia again when I was 13, I > was also sexually abused as a child. which I have suppressed those memories' > till I was much much older... > > any way's > > my Questions are... > > 1. Did a traumatic experience happen to bring on fibro? > > and if so How long after the Expirience was you diagnosed with Fibro? > > 2. Did you have Depression, anxiety or other mental problem's before you was > diagnosed with FMS? If yes.. has the fibro made your anxiety,or depression > or other mental problem's worse? > > > > Gentle Caring Hug's > > Marie > > > > Marie A. Roomsburg > > P.O. Box 346 > > Ava, IL. 62907 > > E-mail marieava@a... or marieava62907@y... > > Messanger. aol. marieava. yahoo. marieava62907 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 25, 2004 Report Share Posted December 25, 2004 It DOES aggrevate it because it's all stress; stressing to be perfect! so it will cause flareups. That's from Dr. Margaret. Margaret, mom to the monsters > I am extremely perfectionistic in regards to myself and > no one else and I'm a major control freak.....I don't think that > causes my fibro but I do think it aggervates it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 25, 2004 Report Share Posted December 25, 2004 Sophia: you have been through so much, and yet you keep going you are such a strong woman.. and such an inspiration..so glad you are apart of this wonderful group..(((Sophia))) Gentle Caring Hug's Marie Marie A. Roomsburg P.O. Box 346 Ava, IL. 62907 E-mail marieava@... or marieava62907@... Messanger. aol. marieava. yahoo. marieava62907 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 27, 2004 Report Share Posted December 27, 2004 > > my Questions are... > > 1. Did a traumatic experience happen to bring on fibro? (I am sorry it looks like I was yelling! I just typed all this out, and looked up & it is in caps!) YES, I BELIEVE QUITE A FEW TRAUMATIC EVENTS CROPPED UP OVER TIME, AND FINALLY WORE ME DOWN COMPLETELY. I ALSO NOW REALIZE NOW THAT I HAD CFS FOR MANY YEARS BEFORE THE MOST SEVERE FIBRO PAIN SET IN. I WOULD SAY THAT MY ACTUAL REALIZATION OF SOMETHING TERRIBLY WRONG WITH SUCH DEVESTATING PAIN, FEVER, EXHAUSTION, REACTION TO HEAT, ETC WAS 16 MONTHS AGO. APPARENTLY, ALL OF THE NEGATIVE THINGS THAT HAD OCCURRED IN MY LIFE CAUGHT UP WITH ME, AND STRANGELY ENOUGH IT WAS SOMETHING MINOR THAT KICKED MY " BUTT " . I HAD NO AIR CONDITIONING, AND THOUGHT I WAS JUST HAVING HEAT EXHAUSTION CONSTANTLY IN MY OLD TRAILER THAT I LIVED IN AT THAT TIME. IT STAYED OVER 100 DEGREES IN THERE. I REALLY FELT HELPLESS, AND THOUGHT I WAS ON MY DEATHBED. (NO EXAGGERATION) BUT, I KEPT MY FAITH ASSUMING IT WOULD END. BUT, IT DIDN'T. I HAD EXPERIENCED MUCH PAIN PRIOR TO THIS ANYWAY, AND SOME REALLY AWFUL THINGS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE. BUT, THIS WAS THE BIG TURNAROUND IN A WORSE DIRECTION OF NOTHING BUT SICKNESS & PAIN THAT IS PROGRESSIVELY GETTING WORSE. Some traumatic events that seemed to be wearing me down over the years included sexual, physical, & mental abuse by my first husband I married at age 16, and remained with for 16 years. I was homeless a couple of times, but always tried to act like I was tuff. I went through a terrible flood where I lost everything a few years ago, but I also thought I handled that well, and was thankful to be able to stay at the National Guard Armory in a town nearby for a few months. Then, my 2nd husband had affairs, and finally left & did not return home to my little boy & I about 4 years ago. My Mother has always stayed on me if I gained any weight, and that caused me to have long cycles of anorexia all my life. This caused physical problems like degenerative disk disease once I was in my 40's. I also have a herniated bulging disk in 4 vertebrae in my upper spine. There are many more stressful times, and traumatic events - but, I think my body just finally caved in to fibromyalgia after it could not take any more. I SUFFERED FROM SEVERE PANIC ATTACKS FROM AGE 22 TO 37. I FINALLY FOUND MY PRESENT DOCTOR AT AGE 37, AND HE PUT ME ON ANTI DEPRESSANTS & XANEX, AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS I WAS ABLE TO COME OUT OF MY HOUSE AGAIN! So, yes, I had been diagnosed with Major Depression & severe anxiety disorder. The strange thing is that with fibro & CFS - my panic attacks are better because I stay so sick. I keep a fever nonstop of about 100-101 degrees. So, I am so fatigued and exhausted, and in such pain - I guess I do not have as much adrenalin to cause panic attacks. I am depressed only because I hurt. Otherwise, I would consider my life finally stable & content if it were not for these problems. It's sad that it's too late now, and I am already affected by this mess! Hugs! Betsy > > and if so How long after the Expirience was you diagnosed with Fibro? > > 2. Did you have Depression, anxiety or other mental problem's before you was > diagnosed with FMS? If yes.. has the fibro made your anxiety,or depression > or other mental problem's worse? > > > > Gentle Caring Hug's > > Marie > > > > Marie A. Roomsburg > > P.O. Box 346 > > Ava, IL. 62907 > > E-mail marieava@a... or marieava62907@y... > > Messanger. aol. marieava. yahoo. marieava62907 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 27, 2004 Report Share Posted December 27, 2004 Hi Marie, I am not sure if a traumatic experience brought on my Fibro or not but... When I first started getting ill, I had just made a LOT of changes; got married, moved out of town, left my job and made a life-style change. I used to abuse alcohol. I am not an alchy but did abuse it for many years. I am sure my body was "pickled" from it. ;-) That was traumatizing really to the bod, to be without it suddenly. I didn't drink again for many years. Now I am ok with it. Then the marriage went sour... and that caused a lot of probelms, but that itself did not bring it on no. I had anxiety before being dx'd, and a lot of it was from my bad marriage and from doctors not believing I was ill. I had bouts of depression, but too was from losing babies a lot and from the situation I was in. I guess I can say that being sick, has made my depression worse yes. It can affect you so many ways. Some days I just get so tired of being sick and all the other things it causes, such as being unemployed and poor. etc. - that affects the mental for sure. Or because I feel so cruddy and my pain / sickness is not under control enough and I feel stuck. xo li ----------------------- 1. Did a traumatic experience happen to bring on fibro? and if so How long after the Expirience was you diagnosed with Fibro? 2. Did you have Depression, anxiety or other mental problem's before you was diagnosed with FMS? If yes.. has the fibro made your anxiety,or depression or other mental problem's worse? No virus found in this outgoing message. Checked by AVG Anti-Virus. Version: 7.0.298 / Virus Database: 265.6.5 - Release Date: 12/26/2004 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 28, 2004 Report Share Posted December 28, 2004 li: thanks so much for your answer's.. I liked your last paragraph best.. I guess I can say that being sick, has made my depression worse yes. It can affect you so many ways. Some days I just get so tired of being sick and all the other things it causes, such as being unemployed and poor. etc. - that affects the mental for sure. Or because I feel so cruddy and my pain / sickness is not under control enough and I feel stuck. "I FEEL STUCK" is exactly how I feel sometime's and I think a lot of other's on this list proble feel the same way.. Gentle Caring Hug's Marie Marie A. Roomsburg P.O. Box 346 Ava, IL. 62907 E-mail marieava@... or marieava62907@... Messanger. aol. marieava. yahoo. marieava62907 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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