Ranting...

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It's 21 degrees outside. It's sunny and bright, but that still doesn't

change the fact that it's REALLY cold. I haven't been outside since I

haven't felt well the past couple days, but I'm pretty sure that in

addition to the snow, there's also ice and slush... just because

that's a " michigan winter. "

We put up our tree yesterday. Actually, it's sort of early for my

household to be putting the tree up - usually it doesn't go up until a

week or so before Christmas, and then if comes down within the week

after New Years. I also took a trip down Memory Lane and put in the

tape of the " Polar Express " and read along. My mom used to sit down

with me every year at Christmas time and read that book to me. I

bought the book for me neice for Christmas and it has a tape, a CD,

and the bell along with it. It's always been one of my favorite books

for the holidays.

I think I'm getting sick I haven't been doing much else except

sleeping, and I was really hungry this morning when I woke up and so I

had some soup and about half a bagel and now I don't feel well. Maybe

it's stress, I still don't have job... I don't want to be sick for the

holidays. So I really hope it's just stress, that I can deal with.

I'll double up on my vitamins...

Last week I started going into a flare up, it stayed at a minimum for

most of the weeks, and now I just don't want to move. Problem is, with

my tummy feeling like it does I can't tell if it's really a flare up

or me getting sick.

Since the flu vaccine restriction has been lifted, my family is now

eligible to get flu shots since we live with a high-risk patient (my

younger sister). So I could go get one... but as much as I hate shots,

and as many different strains of the flu there are, it's usually just

not worth it - since I usually get the flu just from the shot. It's

like injecting myself to get sick.

I won't be able to go back to college this winter, I'm going to have

to wait. I don't have enough money to pay for even one class. I'm

upset about that, I was really hoping to go back. Unless I can ask my

mom for the money, or ask her to help pay. I don't qualify for gov't

aid and the school won't give me another loan. I was hoping that if I

could get an A or B in this one class I might qualify again. But I

think I'm going to have to wait... longer.

I need a chick flick and a nap =)

I'm going to go try and make myself feel better so I go job hunting again...

Loves and hugs,

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