Update and question responces

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I have ate for the past four days the following..

4-8-06

breakfast: 1 bowl cereal with 2% milk

Lunch: Nothing

Dinner: Mac and cheese w/sour cream 1 , 24 oz water

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4-9-06

Breakfast: Cereal and 2% milk

Lunch: Salad, ranch dressing 12 oz water

Dinner: Mac and cheese sour cream and baked beans 24 oz water

Snack: banana pudding

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4-10-06

Breakfast : sugar free banana Pudding 12 oz water

Lunch: Salad ranch dressing and 12 oz water

Dinner Mac and cheese and water

Snack: Banana pudding

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4-11-06

Breakfast: Cereal 2%milk

Lunch: Mac and cheese

Dinner : Mac and cheese and a salad with ranch dressing and 24 oz water

Snack: banana pudding

Junk food: Chips

I don't normally eat like this but I just keep craving carbs.

I started I believe in August of 2005 to get off my depakote and I came off it slowly. It was a coated pill 250mg 3 times a day so I could not desolve, crush or chew the pill. So I took and lower the dose after each month or so I believe but only when I felt I could handle it. The doc put me back on paxil to help me get off depakote. I was already clean of Paxil once and felt better but had a really hard time with panic attack while withdrawal from depakote. Things that happened was, Did not know where I was or who I was, I was sick to my stomach, Nervous, dizzy, couldn't breath and nightmare so bad I couldn't sleep and the list just goes on. I was at the point all I could do was rock and cry and pray it would pass soon. Now it is much better but I still feel really bad and now that you mention the over stimulation I know that has got to be it. It makes so much sense. But if I don't keep busy I panic so it seems to be a lose and lose again thing.At this point right now I am feeling the following:

*Panic like I need to find someone to help me to calm down, I feel a rush of hyper energy and can't breathe and things I know are normal feel strange and not right and off key.

* Lost and depressed to the point I don't find much happiness in anything.

* a very alone feeling and clueless to the point I can't explain it.

*Nightmares

* very tired then not tired at all. My last e-mail I wrote to the list was before 6 am and that is not like me at all.

*I will have a nightmare and wake up sweating from my hands and feet.

* I have to read e-mails or letters or anything like 4 or 5 times to understand them. And I am messing up a great deal when I type and this is so not me.

I hate to bother you with all this I am just afraid and trying so hard to understand everything. . My paranoia and panic or anxiety happens when I feel like I am sick or have done something wrong or if I get yelled at by someone or I am tired. It also happens when I am taking care of my moms legal issues with the courts. I do think I do look for things to go wrong. If something is out of place I get afraid when I can't remember every detail of how it got that way. The following is what I'd like you to actually answer. This is how CBT works. don't just read it; respond to it.1) How many times did you end up in the ER from accidentally takingtoo many pills? (I did this one time and ended up in the ER and they called the poison control center cause they did not know what to do and ever since I have been freaking about all kinds of meds.) I am now just trying to protect myself from taking to many pills again and ending up in the ER again.2) Was that the one and only time you have ever taken pills? (Youranswer here, we know, is "No, I took pills every day for at least 14years.") I have taken pills for over 14 years and now I am feeling all my emotions and my mind and body feels overwhelmed and My hormones are all messed up now.3) Was the day you took too many pills the last day you ever took anypills? (your answer here again is, "No")No I kept taking my pills till another doctor told me to come off them that I did not need them and I joined this list to have me to cope and find others that were going through what I am so I would not feel so alone and afraid.4) Let's summarize, you managed to take pills for 14 years daily andonly have one incident of taking more than you should. Yet, you areextrapolating from this ONE experience and allowing your emotionsabout it to dictate your actions and dominate your life.Yes I am tripping over this once time I took to many pills. I think maybe I am trying to watch and protect myself till the point I in a way believe will keep me safe from ever doing that again when in a way I know it is just making things worse by stressing me out. G

[Guest guest]

Thank you so much for everyone's help. I am always here if anyone ever needs to talk. I can't offer much right now because of everything that I am coping with but I can be there to listen. I have learned a great deal from this list and If I ever come across anyone wanting off these meds other than myself I will tell them to join this group. It has helped me so very much.

G

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

You can take control of this situation you're in. You can take

control of the panic and fear. Here's how to start.

Every time you feel panic and fear, or every time you feel a symptom

that makes you feel panicked and fearful, repeat this statement to

yourself:

" Everything I am feeling is from withdrawal. My panic and fear are

caused by withdrawal. They are not real fears....they come from

withdrawal. All these feelings are temporary. "

Do this. It works.

Regards,

Kim

moderator

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[Guest guest]

" Do this. It works. "

It sure does, I still repeat the mantra Kim gave me about blood sugar.

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>Reply-To: Withdrawal_and_Recovery

>To: Withdrawal_and_Recovery

>Subject: Re: Update and question responces

>Date: Wed, 12 Apr 2006 16:47:48 -0400

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>Hi ,

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>You can take control of this situation you're in. You can take

>control of the panic and fear. Here's how to start.

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>Every time you feel panic and fear, or every time you feel a symptom

>that makes you feel panicked and fearful, repeat this statement to

>yourself:

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> " Everything I am feeling is from withdrawal. My panic and fear are

>caused by withdrawal. They are not real fears....they come from

>withdrawal. All these feelings are temporary. "

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>

>Do this. It works.

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>

>Regards,

>Kim

>moderator

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[Guest guest]

I heard this recently about fear and really like it: FEAR = False Events Appearing Real

This helps me put these things in perspective.

Pat

-----Original Message-----From: Withdrawal_and_Recovery [mailto:Withdrawal_and_Recovery ]On Behalf Of Kim Sent: Wednesday, April 12, 2006 3:48 PMTo: Withdrawal_and_Recovery Subject: Re: Update and question responcesHi ,You can take control of this situation you're in. You can takecontrol of the panic and fear. Here's how to start.Every time you feel panic and fear, or every time you feel a symptomthat makes you feel panicked and fearful, repeat this statement toyourself:"Everything I am feeling is from withdrawal. My panic and fear arecaused by withdrawal. They are not real fears....they come fromwithdrawal. All these feelings are temporary."Do this. It works.Regards,Kimmoderator--KIM DENISE FINE ARTwww.Kim.comFine Art Giftswww.CafePress.com/Kim