Re: Close to suicide/

[Guest guest]

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I read your post and my heart broke for you. Before I met my husband

I was in an abusive relationship, one that almost got me killed.

During that time all I could think about was what I was doing wrong

that made him act like this, that made him hurt me. I almost

committed suicide because I couldn't think of any other way out of

it.

Even now, although I am away from him, sometimes my physical pain

is so much that I just want to die so I can be without the pain. The

only reason I am here today to say this, is because I could not leave

behind my children. I could not EVER leave them with the guilt or pain of that.

I'm sure you love your daughter, and although I can only imagine how much that

jerk has hurt you, think of her right now. Think of what it would do to her.

Yes, it will end your heartache and your physical pain, but at what cost.

I know that I don't know you at all, but I am positive you have the strength

inside of you to push through this, as hard as it may be, and come out better

for it when you get to the other side.

No one deserves to have someone they love do that to them, but it is not your

fault, none of it is. I thought for years that I had the " please hurt me " sign

on me. Just because I was a trusting, loving person does not make it my fault,

nor does it make it OK for them to treat you badly.

If there is anything I can do or if you just need to talk, please let

me know. I'll be here for you as, I'm sure, will everyone else in

this group.

in FL