Re: I dont know wether the ativan worked or not

May 22, 2006

Dear

You said:

<< I dont know wether the ativan worked or not it gave

me a soft insomnia right just after i was starting sleep again sort

of i vaugely have some memorie and music in my head

mostly i think the problems were food sleep and warmth sleeping with

heating pad helped alot >>

** Something definitely helped. You're communicating much

clearer than you ever have here.

I'm having a hard time seeing Ativan as causing insomnia. This

may be just a coincidence or it could be that feeling a little better

caused you to be more alert. An alertness is certainly showing here

now.

What do you think you should do? Are you comfortable taking

another 0.25 mg dose of Ativan today -- perhaps earler than you did

yesterday?

Take care, Chris.

Regards,

May 22, 2006

not really

>

> Dear

>

> You said:

>

> << I dont know wether the ativan worked or not it gave

> me a soft insomnia right just after i was starting sleep again sort

> of i vaugely have some memorie and music in my head

>

> mostly i think the problems were food sleep and warmth sleeping with

> heating pad helped alot >>

>

> ** Something definitely helped. You're communicating much

> clearer than you ever have here.

>

> I'm having a hard time seeing Ativan as causing insomnia. This

> may be just a coincidence or it could be that feeling a little better

> caused you to be more alert. An alertness is certainly showing here

> now.

>

> What do you think you should do? Are you comfortable taking

> another 0.25 mg dose of Ativan today -- perhaps earler than you did

> yesterday?

>

> Take care, Chris.

>

> Regards,

>

May 22, 2006

not really how long till it wears off

it popped me up all night and made my memories worse

>

> Dear

>

> You said:

>

> << I dont know wether the ativan worked or not it gave

> me a soft insomnia right just after i was starting sleep again sort

> of i vaugely have some memorie and music in my head

>

> mostly i think the problems were food sleep and warmth sleeping with

> heating pad helped alot >>

>

> ** Something definitely helped. You're communicating much

> clearer than you ever have here.

>

> I'm having a hard time seeing Ativan as causing insomnia. This

> may be just a coincidence or it could be that feeling a little better

> caused you to be more alert. An alertness is certainly showing here

> now.

>

> What do you think you should do? Are you comfortable taking

> another 0.25 mg dose of Ativan today -- perhaps earler than you did

> yesterday?

>

> Take care, Chris.

>

> Regards,

>

May 22, 2006

Its called a pardaxocal reaction it did cause it and it quited my mind

Yah um i communication should be taken as sign of anything benzos make

you talk to think fo the life of me i dont feell like me at all like

me. uh i dont know what comfortable means i cant relax im in drug

induced stillnes

>

> Dear

>

> You said:

>

> << I dont know wether the ativan worked or not it gave

> me a soft insomnia right just after i was starting sleep again sort

> of i vaugely have some memorie and music in my head

>

> mostly i think the problems were food sleep and warmth sleeping with

> heating pad helped alot >>

>

> ** Something definitely helped. You're communicating much

> clearer than you ever have here.

>

> I'm having a hard time seeing Ativan as causing insomnia. This

> may be just a coincidence or it could be that feeling a little better

> caused you to be more alert. An alertness is certainly showing here

> now.

>

> What do you think you should do? Are you comfortable taking

> another 0.25 mg dose of Ativan today -- perhaps earler than you did

> yesterday?

>

> Take care, Chris.

>

> Regards,

>

May 22, 2006

CAn i do a consult if that would work

a half hour

> >

> > Dear

> >

> > You said:

> >

> > << I dont know wether the ativan worked or not it gave

> > me a soft insomnia right just after i was starting sleep again sort

> > of i vaugely have some memorie and music in my head

> >

> > mostly i think the problems were food sleep and warmth sleeping with

> > heating pad helped alot >>

> >

> > ** Something definitely helped. You're communicating much

> > clearer than you ever have here.

> >

> > I'm having a hard time seeing Ativan as causing insomnia. This

> > may be just a coincidence or it could be that feeling a little better

> > caused you to be more alert. An alertness is certainly showing here

> > now.

> >

> > What do you think you should do? Are you comfortable taking

> > another 0.25 mg dose of Ativan today -- perhaps earler than you did

> > yesterday?

> >

> > Take care, Chris.

> >

> > Regards,

> >

>

May 22, 2006

It made it worse i lost the ability eat with fork and knife

my cns is shock

im going into ativan withdrawal again]

i should just do nothing

> >

> > Dear

> >

> > You said:

> >

> > << I dont know wether the ativan worked or not it gave

> > me a soft insomnia right just after i was starting sleep again sort

> > of i vaugely have some memorie and music in my head

> >

> > mostly i think the problems were food sleep and warmth sleeping with

> > heating pad helped alot >>

> >

> > ** Something definitely helped. You're communicating much

> > clearer than you ever have here.

> >

> > I'm having a hard time seeing Ativan as causing insomnia. This

> > may be just a coincidence or it could be that feeling a little better

> > caused you to be more alert. An alertness is certainly showing here

> > now.

> >

> > What do you think you should do? Are you comfortable taking

> > another 0.25 mg dose of Ativan today -- perhaps earler than you did

> > yesterday?

> >

> > Take care, Chris.

> >

> > Regards,

> >

>

May 22, 2006

> > >

> > > Dear

> > >

> > > You said:

> > >

> > > << I dont know wether the ativan worked or not it

gave

> > > me a soft insomnia right just after i was starting sleep again

sort

> > > of i vaugely have some memorie and music in my head

> > >

> > > mostly i think the problems were food sleep and warmth sleeping

with

> > > heating pad helped alot >>

> > >

> > > ** Something definitely helped. You're communicating much

> > > clearer than you ever have here.

> > >

> > > I'm having a hard time seeing Ativan as causing insomnia.

This

> > > may be just a coincidence or it could be that feeling a little

better

> > > caused you to be more alert. An alertness is certainly showing

here

> > > now.

> > >

> > > What do you think you should do? Are you comfortable taking

> > > another 0.25 mg dose of Ativan today -- perhaps earler than you

did

> > > yesterday?

> > >

> > > Take care, Chris.

> > >

> > > Regards,

> > >

> >

>

May 22, 2006

ok but on side not i seam being losing my recenly aquired

ambidextrousness( i suppose i would have keep usimg my mind and body

to keep that)

its not that simple with benzos the talking part takes over the uhm

higher rational part of me is damage wich witch is damaged

wiil get it back

> > > >

> > > > Dear

> > > >

> > > > You said:

> > > >

> > > > << I dont know wether the ativan worked or not it

> gave

> > > > me a soft insomnia right just after i was starting sleep again

> sort

> > > > of i vaugely have some memorie and music in my head

> > > >

> > > > mostly i think the problems were food sleep and warmth sleeping

> with

> > > > heating pad helped alot >>

> > > >

> > > > ** Something definitely helped. You're communicating much

> > > > clearer than you ever have here.

> > > >

> > > > I'm having a hard time seeing Ativan as causing insomnia.

> This

> > > > may be just a coincidence or it could be that feeling a little

> better

> > > > caused you to be more alert. An alertness is certainly showing

> here

> > > > now.

> > > >

> > > > What do you think you should do? Are you comfortable taking

> > > > another 0.25 mg dose of Ativan today -- perhaps earler than you

> did

> > > > yesterday?

> > > >

> > > > Take care, Chris.

> > > >

> > > > Regards,

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

May 23, 2006

Dear

You said:

<< CAn i do a consult if that would work

> a half hour??

** I think at this time a consult wouldn't make sense. There is

so little you can do until we get you more stable. After you are

more stable, this would be the time to do a consultation.

As far as supplements go, because of what you've been through and

your natural leaning, you will be sensitive to supplements. I would

liketo see you go slowly with supplements and do only a couple right

now.

Do you have magnesium? If so, what kind (oxide, citrate, taurate,

etc)? I will recommend a dose when I knmow what type you have.

Also, fish oil -- do you have it? If you do, you could begin by

taking 1,000 mg. Then, please let me know how that feels.

You said:

<< communicating clearyl for me is bad i alwaysh had pendantic

referrential mode of speaking>>

** You were communicating very clearly in writing after you took

the Ativan. Then it deteriorated as the Ativan was wearing off. You

also reported that you couldn't hold a fork as it was wearing off.

You mentioned in another post that you didn't think Ativan was the

answer. I agree. But there is no GOOD answer here at this juncture

(there will be better answers as you progress) so what we are seeking

here is the least harmful, most helpful alternative that will help to

take your brain and body out of some of the withdrawal it is in so

your system can begin to calm down a little. There is nothing I can

do to help while your system is in complete chaos. My other concern

is that if we don't get you more stable, your family will be hauling

you off to another hospital.

So, what we do is take some small steps, monitoring it every step

of the way, and try to keep you off the edge. After a while, we can

add other supplements and begin reducing the Ativan very slowly.

I know it is difficult to have it interfering with sleep but as I

said, there are really very few options. I'm contrasting the Ativan

and its drawbacks with hospitalization and other drugs. In my eyes,

the Ativan wins. Again, though, you're the boss here. It's your

body and mind. But I will plead my case one step further. This is

something you've experienced over the past several months. You're

flying blind here, so to speak. I've had literally hundreds of

people in your type of situation in the past 20 years. While most

haven't had the added issue you told me about, a few have. This is a

lot of valuable experience. I believe I can help you. It's going to

be a long slow road, but it can be done, undoubtedly much better than

what will be done if others perceive you as unstable.

Regards,

May 23, 2006

>

> Dear

>

> You said:

>

>I have tons of magnesium and fishoil

oxide

> << CAn i do a consult if that would work

> > a half hour??

>

> ** I think at this time a consult wouldn't make sense. There is

> so little you can do until we get you more stable. After you are

> more stable, this would be the time to do a consultation.

>

> As far as supplements go, because of what you've been through and

> your natural leaning, you will be sensitive to supplements. I would

> liketo see you go slowly with supplements and do only a couple right

> now.

>

> Do you have magnesium? If so, what

kind (oxide, citrate, taurate,

> etc)? I will recommend a dose when I knmow what type you have.

>

> Also, fish oil -- do you have it? If you do, you could begin by

> taking 1,000 mg. Then, please let me know how that feels.

>

> You said:

>

> << communicating clearyl for me is bad i alwaysh had pendantic

> referrential mode of speaking>>

>

> ** You were communicating very clearly in writing after you took

> the Ativan. Then it deteriorated as the Ativan was wearing off. You

> also reported that you couldn't hold a fork as it was wearing off.

>

> You mentioned in another post that you didn't think Ativan was the

> answer. I agree. But there is no GOOD answer here at this juncture

> (there will be better answers as you progress) so what we are seeking

> here is the least harmful, most helpful alternative that will help to

> take your brain and body out of some of the withdrawal it is in so

> your system can begin to calm down a little. There is nothing I can

> do to help while your system is in complete chaos. My other concern

> is that if we don't get you more stable, your family will be hauling

> you off to another hospital.

>

> So, what we do is take some small steps, monitoring it every step

> of the way, and try to keep you off the edge. After a while, we can

> add other supplements and begin reducing the Ativan very slowly.

>

> I know it is difficult to have it interfering with sleep but as I

> said, there are really very few options. I'm contrasting the Ativan

> and its drawbacks with hospitalization and other drugs. In my eyes,

> the Ativan wins. Again, though, you're the boss here. It's your

> body and mind. But I will plead my case one step further. This is

> something you've experienced over the past several months. You're

> flying blind here, so to speak. I've had literally hundreds of

> people in your type of situation in the past 20 years. While most

> haven't had the added issue you told me about, a few have. This is a

> lot of valuable experience. I believe I can help you. It's going to

> be a long slow road, but it can be done, undoubtedly much better than

> what will be done if others perceive you as unstable.

>

> Regards,

>

May 24, 2006

Did i metnion on top of this i have compound personality?

>

> Dear

>

> You said:

>

> << CAn i do a consult if that would work

> > a half hour??

>

> ** I think at this time a consult wouldn't make sense. There is

> so little you can do until we get you more stable. After you are

> more stable, this would be the time to do a consultation.

>

> As far as supplements go, because of what you've been through and

> your natural leaning, you will be sensitive to supplements. I would

> liketo see you go slowly with supplements and do only a couple right

> now.

>

> Do you have magnesium? If so, what kind (oxide, citrate, taurate,