Does anyone have a problem with overdoing things until you feel pain or are numb

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An example of how I feel into this pattern of overdoing everything

until I am in pain or better yet numb was when my mother would make me

write and re-write my papers over and over and over and over again

sometimes up to 8 times (usually until I was provoked to wrath,

screaming, and in pain then that was the sign to stop). I can remember

this starting at about 7th grade. What is sad is how I now do this to

myself. I will exercise until I feel pain or better yet numb, write

and re-write things, clean and clean excessively, add more and more

tasks to the day. It's like I'm trying desperately to get back to that

unpeace, pain, and imbalance I grew up in. Has anyone else experienced

this or better yet found a way to find balance in a state that feels

unbalanced because it is healthy?

Kelley