Nervous Paxil User

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Hi all this is my first post. I have been taking Paxil, 60 mg/day for 5

years. I will say that it did the trick for my problem which was chronic

worry, and psychosomatic tendencies. What started me looking online for

info on weaning is the HUGE amount of weight i have gained in that time.

It's not just the chronic feelings of hunger, but the shakey low blood sugar

feelings i get between meals like eveyday. Theres no mystery where the

weight came from, but now i want to stop the craziness. I am nervous to go

off the medicine for a few reasons, because i dont want to live the way i

did before the Paxil where I was always checking myself for any sign of

illness and always living in fear of something bad to happen. I hated that,

it stole my life and then after Paxil came I got my life back. Yes it did

come with " extras " , like forgetfulness, fatigue, and the worst is the FAT!

I never had depression at all, just the OCD. I dont know what to do, i

really want to be off this drug and get my energy back and not be starving

all the time, but will it be at the expense of my sanity. I mean, i was not

just a worry-wart, i was a " sit in the bathroom checking all over my body to

make sure everything looked ok person " , and as soon as i was convinced it

looked ok, i would need to start over again. My Dr said it was a form of

OCD. I desperately do not want to live like that again, there was no joy in

my life. At the same time I am very interested in getting off the Paxil

even though I dont know if i will go back to my old crazy ways, then i would

have to take something else because i refuse to live like that again, now

that i know what it's like to not be obsessed all the time, i am not willing

to go there again. Weaning is not my forte, i always wean too dang fast and

I keep reading here to convince myself to take it slow. I am planning to

drop tomorrows dose to 45mg, i dont want to be 80 before i get off the crap

(I am 39 now). Sorry for the rambling i just wanted to say hi and tell you

all that i am rooting for each of you, keep fighting the good fight and you

will prevail. I have not been here for more that a day but does

sound like a wonderful person. I will check in later. -Cherry