Hello all, new here

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Hello,

I am just getting around to introducing myself to the group but with the

holidays I was so busy. I did read all your emails and my heart cries for all

of you in your pain. I also noticed that this group seems very caring and I

feel this will soon become a close group for me as soon as I learn each one in

here.

I am a divorced 53 year old woman. I live in a very small town in

Oklahoma. I was born with pain I do believe. My health problems may be

different in ways that everyone else health and pains but I suffer with pain as

you do. I am not new to chronic pain as I live in it 24/7. I feel like this is

a group for me as we can understand each other and the feelings that go along

with chronic pain.

Okay, hold on as I give you a list of my problems and the causes of my

pain. First off, at the age of 4 years old I developed a diesease called

psoriasis. Psoriasis is not catching but one inhirits it from their family. No

one in my closes family have a case like I do tho. Psoriasis, for those who do

not know is a skin problem causes your skin cells to multiply 7 times faster

than normal skin. Thus , it covers 85% of my body with big red spots that forms

flakes. It is painful in its self but the embarrassment of people seeing it is

the worse. It changed and gave me a life I would of never chose for myself.

Finally, 3 years ago I was given a shot called Enbrel that cost $1,000.00 a shot

and I have to take 2 shots a week. I am on SS disability now for 10 years due

to my bad health so I get help with doctor and meds. Thank God because I am on

so much meds. Along with the Psoriasis it carries with it psoratic arthritis

which I have a sever case of. It is worse than RA or anything. On Arthrotec 75

and Soma for the PA. I have Fibro bad too. I have 2 buldging disc in lower

back pressing on the siatic nerve. Bone spurs are so large and all thru my

body. I had a cancer turmor removed from bridge of nose and doc said I even had

bone spurs in my nose. I have a very large bone spur on my middle of my throat.

Doc is afraid it will grow and cut off my throat. I need all kinds of surgiers

to try to help problems but I am in such a bad health risk they will not do it.

Do not know what will happen with this because I badly need my gallbladder out

but surgeon said I am such a high risk a simple gallbladder removable gives me a

50/50 chance I will make it thru.

Like I said bone spurs are on every bones of my body. I am a brittle diabetic

and now on an insulin pump. I can eat very little even on pump to control my

sugar. Then I go too low and it is very hard for someone to bring me out of it.

I have a special shot I have to

carry to bring me out of comma. On top of diabetes comes the diabetic

neuropathy which I have all over my body. My feet feel like they are on fire

all the time along with numbness and tingling. My tendons are all frayed in my

legs and bones are deteroriting in my neck and spine. Also hips and I was put

into a foot brace to hold my foot still because my bones are turning to powder

from rubbing on each other. Next month I go into a brace for my other foot. I

will stop here but maybe you will understand my pain . Pain like everyone here

has. You can see I know what pain is.

My doctors say I need to be in a wheel chair and can not understand why I

am not screaming for pain meds. I do take Tramadol at times but , not trying to

say anything to upset anyone here, but I put my trust and pain in God. I do not

understand why we have to go thru this pain. There must be a reason but I know

the best people are those who understand and I am so glad I found this group.

Gentle huggs, Zoella

" The only people to get even with are those who have helped you. "

When He was on the cross....You was on His mind