Re: Sometimes I wonder...

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All the time. I can honestly say that I have no friends because most of the

people I was friends with were NPD challenged and I just don't have the time for

that any more. My best friends from childhood, college, adult friends etc. I

either gravitate towards these people or they sucker me in and I just don't see

it coming. As I look back on them, they were all more concerned with how I made

them look rather than how I felt.

Now I question my judgement whenever I get close to anyone. The same judgement

that was constantly under assault by my parents. As a result I just don't bother

and concentrate on raising my son and pursuing my interests. I need friendships

in my life, I just don't know if I am any good at finding true friends.

As far as being like your nada, the fact that you are even concerned with this

indicates that you are able to look outside of your self and see the world as it

is not as you want it to be. You may have tendencies, I know you are not BPD. No

BPD could stand to be on this board and their self-centered diatribes could be

spotted miles off.

You are just someone looking for some answers, and that seems to be something a

BPD can't do. Mostly because they are sure that they know all the answers and

there is NOTHING you can ever tell them that would make them consider any

alternative.

Be strong

Sometimes I wonder...

I feel very insecure in my friendships and, in addition to feeling bad

from the insecurity, I am freaked out because I wonder if I am actually

just like my mother. I never let on that I am insecure, but it

actually is very overwhelming at times.

Does anyone else have this problem? Any insight in how this flows from

having a BPD mom? Any words of wisdom that can help be believe that

I'm not like her?