Guest guest Posted February 5, 2007 Report Share Posted February 5, 2007 Moderator's note: Welcome to the group . The Fentanyl patch, or Duragesic Patch only contains the narcotic Fentanyl. http://www.duragesic.com/ Kaylene Hello, I am new to the group, just joined today. I am dealing with a lot of back pain and at times it gets to be more than I can handle. I have 6 discs in my lower back that are herniated/bulging and I have 4 facet joints that are messed up and they have bony overgrowth in the center of them that is pressing on the nerves to my legs. I am under the care of a pain management specialist and right now I am on the Fentanyl pain patch; it contains Fentanyl, Morphine and Methadone. I am on the next to the lowest level and I am going to have to ask him to increase the dosage, this level is not handling the pain. Also every other month I get an epidural block to my lower back. I have had back pain off and on for several years and was diagnosed with degenerative disc disease. One morning I was leaned over scooping out the cat's litter box and I felt some pressure in my lower back and when I straightened up, I felt like someone had shot me in the back. I couldn't sit down, couldn't lay down, all I could do was hang on to the wall and scream. My husband took me to the ER and the doctor said he was sure I had had some discs to turn loose but I needed an MRI which I had done a week later. I had cervical spine surgery 3 years ago; a disc ruptured and it had to be removed and I have hardware, bone graft, and all that good stuff in my neck. I am on the pain patch I mentioned, Neurontin, Soma muscle relaxer, and a few other things such as med for high blood pressure and a hormone patch. All of this interferes so much with my life, I am so sick of hurting all the time. I can't work anymore, I rarely drive anymore because of all the pain med I am on. I have a small online business that helps to fund the ferret rescues we do. We have ferrets and we take in the old ones that no one wants. I get tremendous pleasure out of my ferrets, I try to draw on their energy and sunny disposition but it is hard to battle this every day and keep the depression beaten back from the door. When I had the cervical spine surgery, it was HORRIBLE and I guess my body saw it as such an assault, I immediately went into fibromyalgia and my life has pretty much been hell ever since. I really need some help trying to figure out how to live with all this. I feel the quality of my life is slipping away. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2007 Report Share Posted February 5, 2007 Hi . I am Connie. Welcome to the group. Give me a shout if you like. > P wrote: Hello, I am new to the group, just joined today. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 5, 2007 Report Share Posted February 5, 2007 Hi , Welcome to the group. Sorry that you have to be here, but glad you ound support. You will, I am sure, benefit from our group, as I have. Try readig through some of the old posts, and ask lots of questions, if theyare not answered right away, ask another. There are many people with lots of different experiences to share here. Good luck, and try not to let your pain dictate who you are. I did that for far too long. Angie --------------------------------- Don't pick lemons. See all the new 2007 cars at Yahoo! Autos. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 29, 2007 Report Share Posted December 29, 2007 Hi Tressa, Welcome to our group. My mother is also undiagnosed (except by me!). She is not high functioning, though - more medium functioning, if there is such a thing. This is a great place for the kind of support you need. Take care, Sylvia > > Hello, > > Today I found and joined this group - I am grateful it exists! I am > writing to introduce myself to other group members and to open up > future lines of communication. > > I joined this group because I recently came home from a disturbing, > miserable but typical Christmas with my family. Regrettably, this > may have to be the last Christmas I spend at my Mother's home. I > just can't stomach my Mother's irrational rages and mood swings, her > constant devaluation of my stepfather in front of everyone and the > overall feeling of being trapped in a chaotic/abusive/toxic > environment. > > My mother presents with the characteristics of a high functioning > borderline. While she has not been officially diagnosed as such, the > signs are there. Regardless of whether or not it is the case, those > around her bear the brunt of the associated behaviors. > > Anyway, I'm joining this group in order to connect with others who > are dealing with high functioning borderline mothers in order to > share coping strategies and to both recieve and give support. Please > feel free to respond if you are dealing with a similar situation.. > > Thank you, I look forward to connecting with you! > > -tressa717 > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 29, 2007 Report Share Posted December 29, 2007 Tressa, This is another one of those eerily familiar posts--often, when other people on here describe their BPD parent's symptoms, it's as though we were two doctors comparing x-rays of smiliarly fractured collarbones or something. It's incredible that a mental injury can cause such consistent and predictable behavior! My mother is also extremely high functioning, sits on several committees, owns her own business, has a gorgeous house that has been in two decorating magazines, walks around the world looking like Princess Di yet exists within a chaotic world of rage, fear, paranoia, depression and cruelty. She, too, devalues step-dad to anyone and everyone (the woman at the nail salon, the check out guy at the grocery store) and treats him like an insubordinate child in front of his friends, coworkers and family. Your description of your 'typical' family Christmas was funny--I sent several e-mails to my boyfriend this week, the titles of most were 'miserable' and 'disturbing tales'. And I too feel that, at 27, I have the power to decide that this is the last Christmas I'm spending w/ nada. I haven't felt adult or empowered enough to make that decision in the past but this particular trip was so messy and stressful, it was the utter opposite of a vacation, whatever that word would be, and I'm returning home exhausted with big bags under my eyes and cloudy thoughts. It's frustrating to know, more certainly than you know almost anything, that your mom has BPD but won't/ can't be diagnosed because she's too cunning and in denial to be arrested, committed or treated. My inability to help or change her is of the heart breaks I've tried to release back into the universe but it doesn't make it any easier to coexist with her. We succumb, voluntarily to that 'trapped' feeling when we return home because there's only one way to exist in Oz and that's under the Queen's thumb. I've had very little autonomy since I've been home--I'm told we're running to out to see family friends at 11 am and find myself still trapped in the car at 5 pm after having been dragged on eleven errands to the bank, dry cleaners, book store etc. If she's not hungry I'm not hungry, if she can't sleep I find her lurking in the door at 4 am whispering 'Jo? Jo? You awake?' She so quickly emmeshes my identity into hers that I forget I have needs of my own. I'ts such a strange world we suffer but it feels great to share stories on here and to find a little humor in all of this. We only have one life and have to reclaim it for ourselves! Nadas have a whirling vacuum of emptiness inside them them and they will suck away the life force of everyone around them to no end--my mom reminds me of a dementor in Harry Potter sometimes:) Glad you found this site, it's a great resource when things are particularly bad- tressa717 wrote: Hello, Today I found and joined this group - I am grateful it exists! I am writing to introduce myself to other group members and to open up future lines of communication. I joined this group because I recently came home from a disturbing, miserable but typical Christmas with my family. Regrettably, this may have to be the last Christmas I spend at my Mother's home. I just can't stomach my Mother's irrational rages and mood swings, her constant devaluation of my stepfather in front of everyone and the overall feeling of being trapped in a chaotic/abusive/toxic environment. My mother presents with the characteristics of a high functioning borderline. While she has not been officially diagnosed as such, the signs are there. Regardless of whether or not it is the case, those around her bear the brunt of the associated behaviors. Anyway, I'm joining this group in order to connect with others who are dealing with high functioning borderline mothers in order to share coping strategies and to both recieve and give support. Please feel free to respond if you are dealing with a similar situation.. Thank you, I look forward to connecting with you! -tressa717 --------------------------------- Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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