Nada believes she shares all my achievements!

December 19, 2007

Wow! The comments by nashbabe hit right on target for me! All my

life I was expected to be perfect at everything I did. I remember my

husband saying, " I knew I was a good basketball player but I never

thought I was perfect or could go to the NBA. I just enjoyed the

times I got to play knowing I was pretty good. " I thought wow do

people really think that way? I believed somehow I could and should

always be perfect at everything or I was a failure. This is what I

was taught and what my parents ingrained in me. I continued down the

path of accomplishments until I received my PhD in Child Development

(wonder what I was searching for?) and then got type 1 diabetes at

age 29. My endocrinologist said it was due to prolonged stress on my

body, mind, and spirit. After I received my PhD I authored a nursing

drug book which was my dream. However when I did this it didn't

amount to much. My Nada always told me how horrible of a writer I

was and how she was the one gifted in writing. She has always

dreamed of writing a book and talks about it often but she has never

sat down to write one sentence. When I got my second offer to

complete a different book she was so unimpressed she didn't even

mention it to my father. My achievements were never " good enough " .

In fact she has spoken about how she should share my degrees with me

because of all the support she gave me during those times. After I

had my first child who is now 3 I quit. I am now a stay at home mom

with a PhD and I love it! I guess in a way I achieved all I could by

30 years and then decided to finally live the life I desired.

Kelley

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