accepting presents

[Guest guest]

Does anyone out there besides me have trouble accepting presents? I

usually get no joy from receiving tangible items. I love to buy for

the people I like, and I often pick up little things on the spur of

the moment if someone I know is having a difficult time. But I have a

really hard time accepting gifts and feeling the joy that someone

thought enough of me to give me something. I especially hate to have

to give a " want " list.

Do you think this is a KO thing, or am I just weird? I would be fine

with nothing for me under the tree. I don't know if I feel like I

don't deserve things or what, but lately I've been more aware of the

feeling. Nada has always turned gifts into proof of love, demanding I

acknowledge that her gift to me is the best thing available and that

she spent soooo much money (even though she couldn't afford it) and

looked sooooo many places to find the absolute perfect present. I

resent that so much that I wonder if I've turned it around on myself

somehow.

Wisteria