Alone in this world

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Hi to all,

I have written in the past a brief history of myself. Since I haven't

written in so long I will write a short intro again.

I have a mother who is BPD, I think. She has ALL the traits and the

descriptions you give are exactly like my mothers.

I became NC since May 7th of this year. I am an only child. Mother left my

father when I was little, 2 years old.

I didn't know my family on my fathers side. I dont know my family on my

mother's side because she didn't want to

be bothered with them. Long story. I wasn't allowed any friends. I had no

cousins, siblings, aunts or uncles, not even

my real dad. I had a step dad, who kept me partly sane. He died when I was

18.

There is a family. I just don't know them or where they are at. I did meet

some of them a few times.

So here I am with NC with my nada. Where does that leave me? Alone in the

world. I gave birth to eight children.

Of which 3 are grown and left because I was married to a man who was also

BP. I am divorced now with no help from family

or friends. My only blood family are my children. The only thing that keeps

me sane is one true friend I have, a therapist and this group. It lets me

know there are people who have gone through similar things as I.

Has anyone here ever felt they are alone with absolutely no one, like me. I

have a hard time allowing anyone close to me. I'm friendly but don't know

how to make close friends. I do have one tho. Is it normal not to have many

friends. Truth is that I don't know what normal is. I always question myself

when I do things.

I'm wondering how much alone I am in this situation. I know we have a lot in

common but the only thing I don't know is if anyone out there feel like an

orphan even tho they know their parents and they're alive.

fina