Re: more self harm memories

[Guest guest]

hey...that's kind of interesting that you post this at this exact

moment because i have been thinking that i actually have some self

harming behavior. when i was in high school, i used to sew my fingers

together. it was fun to gross people out. hehehe... also, in art

classes, whenever we were using exacto knives, i never worried about

cutting myself. in fact i actually liked the fact that i could cut

myself and it would be pretty bad and people would freak out and i

would be all, " relax, it's just a cut. " didn't even take any

precautions to prevent cutting myself, so i was always slicing into

the pad of my thumb. if you look at my fingerprints, you can see

little scars that traverse the spirals. i pierced my own ears several

times. just sharpened the posts of stud earrings and popped them

through the cartilage. i totally bite myself, still. i bite the pads

on my thumbs and fingers. i tear my nails off if i don't keep them

short enough. i cut off all the white of my nails because if i don't,

i'll scratch myself until there's no skin left. i slap my arms and legs.

hmm...interesting...never really thought about all this until like

(LITERALLY) 30 minutes ago.

bink

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wrote:

>

> Hi hi, If you are a cutter or are struggling with self harm, please

don't

> read this if there is a chance you will be triggered.

>

>

>

> I was reading online about child abuse/bpd stuff a couple of days ago. I

> read something (can't even remember where) about kids of the

mentally ill or

> mentally ill kids.

>

> Anyway, it said that some kids slap themselves, bite themselves and

claw at

> themselves with their nails. I didn't remember that I did all these

things

> between ages 11 and 15 until I read this. I did them all and often.

>

> Scary and definitly a sign of an unhealthy upbringing. If I saw a child

> doing any of those things I would seriously get help for that kid. That

> can't be normal but when I was young I thought it was.

>

> I'ts a powerful memory for me and I'm glad now that I remember,

validation.

> gs

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Autistic children bite themselves. And it seems to be, at least for

my son, when he is unable to communicate to you his needs. It's

probably very painful for him. Then, he becomes frustrated if you

say no to his request and he keeps trying to explain his need. I

don't think he quite understands that I understand and that the

answer is sometimes no.

I've noticed in autistic kids that they have several things mentioned

in other kids that show up as " abused reactions " or stemming from

abuse or feeling demeaned or something. And I find it interesting.

Because, the parents may not be abusing them. But, in a way life

is. And their lives are very hard because of the disability. They

lose much of their freedom to choose their own lives choices. It's

very sad.

>

> Hi hi, If you are a cutter or are struggling with self harm, please

don't

> read this if there is a chance you will be triggered.

>

>

>

> I was reading online about child abuse/bpd stuff a couple of days

ago. I

> read something (can't even remember where) about kids of the

mentally ill or

> mentally ill kids.

>

> Anyway, it said that some kids slap themselves, bite themselves and

claw at

> themselves with their nails. I didn't remember that I did all these

things

> between ages 11 and 15 until I read this. I did them all and often.

>

> Scary and definitly a sign of an unhealthy upbringing. If I saw a

child

> doing any of those things I would seriously get help for that kid.

That

> can't be normal but when I was young I thought it was.

>

> I'ts a powerful memory for me and I'm glad now that I remember,

validation.

> gs

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Although I stopped biting my nails in high school, I constantly chewed

my fingertips & cuticles & always had at least 5 scabbed & bleeding at

any one time until I went NC with nada 6 months ago. I haven't chewed

them since. Coincidence? I think not.

[Guest guest]

Hey Cam,

I'm sorry that your son has a disability but I am glad he has you for his

mom. Do you know anything about autism and BPD being related? I think they

are, BPD is the opposite, basically emotional hemophilia but it seems

connected.

gs

>

> Although I stopped biting my nails in high school, I constantly chewed

> my fingertips & cuticles & always had at least 5 scabbed & bleeding at

> any one time until I went NC with nada 6 months ago. I haven't chewed

> them since. Coincidence? I think not.

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

You are not alone. I used to do this as well at those same ages. It is so sad to

be desperate to have some physical evidence of the trauma that you would resort

to self injury just to have something to show for it. I thought it was just me.

more self harm memories

Hi hi, If you are a cutter or are struggling with self harm, please don't

read this if there is a chance you will be triggered.

I was reading online about child abuse/bpd stuff a couple of days ago. I

read something (can't even remember where) about kids of the mentally ill or

mentally ill kids.

Anyway, it said that some kids slap themselves, bite themselves and claw at

themselves with their nails. I didn't remember that I did all these things

between ages 11 and 15 until I read this. I did them all and often.

Scary and definitly a sign of an unhealthy upbringing. If I saw a child

doing any of those things I would seriously get help for that kid. That

can't be normal but when I was young I thought it was.

I'ts a powerful memory for me and I'm glad now that I remember, validation.

gs

[Guest guest]

I wonder if there is more autism in BPD families? Interesting to

look into that.

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> > Although I stopped biting my nails in high school, I constantly

chewed

> > my fingertips & cuticles & always had at least 5 scabbed &

bleeding at

> > any one time until I went NC with nada 6 months ago. I haven't

chewed

> > them since. Coincidence? I think not.

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