Guest guest Posted May 3, 2008 Report Share Posted May 3, 2008 A bit ago I wrote about not knowing " Who and What I Am " ... after mulling this over with great intent (not something I ususally take the time to do but therapy has forced me there willingly)... I realize it's not that I DON'T KNOW... I know perfectly well what is at my core... it's just that Nada has never liked it. I think I've been searching for a " me " that she would like. A " me " that she would - TOTALLY AND ABSOLUTELY - love, trust, adore, respect, validate, support, etc... in otherwords... I've been trying to adjust myself to HER standards to receive the " unconditional love " we've all heard about. Ironic. I know who I am when with friends, my SO, my son... I know who I am when I'm working, with school-mates, my step-dad. It's just around her, or when I'm 'with' her in any real & tangible or distant but 'there' place that it all goes away as I am constantly trying to shift what I am to get a positive and supportive feedback from her. NO WONDER I'M EXHAUSTED AROUND HER... So. Today I stop. Lynnette - She can like me or she cannot... her choice. The buck stops here. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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