Re: Test Results VERY BAD

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deb,

omg, you are the gal who invited me to dinner yesterday, and this is what you were facing today? what a remarkable lady you are. again, i'm speechless. i've never met such loving, caring, giving people.

now, i don't know you at all, having just joined the other day, but i do know you cannot give up. never give up. there are always miracles and yes, they do happen. i don't know your health condition(s), other than fibro, and yes, it does sound very serious, but please don't give up. have you gotten another opinion or tried alternative treatments.

your message made me cry. all my life, i searched for someone to love me as well. i never felt loved. i know my parents didn't want me. i grew up feeling as though i never fit in anywhere, with anyone. my first husband treated me like dirt. i was separated from my children in 85 and have tried and tried over the years to form a meaningful relationship with them, but all they see in me is a failure. it's their loss. i now know that. it took me a long time to feel this way though. what you said, just reminded me of all this.

just know, that i know you are loved here. i can feel it in the messages i've read, even before you wrote this one, when anyone spoke to you.

i know it's easy for me to say all these things because i'm not the one who got the news you did today. i don't know what i'd so in your shoes, but i hope that i could try to think positive, as positively as possible, considering. a positive frame of mind goes along way in healing. others have been given horrible diagnoses before and have beat them.

i will be praying for you deb. you will be in my daily thoughts. i will ask God to touch you, heal you and give you comfort and strength.

take care of yourself and just know we are all here for you, day or night. if you email me privately, i will send you my toll free number -- we have it because hubby used to call on it before he got his cell phone.

and deb, may i ask your age?

love and gentle hugs,

lindy

Hi everyone I hope everyone had a great day yesterday. For whomever wanted to know about my test results they were very bad. My main artries are blocked 75 per-cent on one side and 69 on the other. Since my health is so bad when we talked about surgery my Dr. said I would not make it out of surgery alive. So the news she spelled out to me was I don't have much time left and to get my will in order as well as what I would like to have done before my time is gone. I have been trying to be brave about this by myself but tonight am having a real hard time. You see I haven't had a chance to have any love in my life yet and I wanted so badly to know how that would feel. All my life I wanted some one to care and love me. But I guess thats not going to happen now. I am having a hard time tonight I feel like am falling apart and no one is here. There never has been and now never will be. As for my girls I don't want to tell them anything until after the holiday! s. I am going to try and have one more nice X-Mas with the kids. I am not trying to feel sorry for myself I am just telling you the facts. It doesn't matter now what anyone thinks of me I can now give up trying for someone who cares. My Mom and Dad never wanted me and no one else did either except God now and I ask why so young. Maybe he feels I have suffered enough with the physical and emotioneal pain. Gentle Hugs To All Deb R.

[Guest guest]

So sorry to hear your bad news. Hugs. So difficult to say anything, but we are all thinking of you.

When I was in hospital just a couple of weeks ago my consultant told me very much the same thing.. that I needed surgery and couldn't have it. He said I didn't have long left, but didn't say a definite time. I have told my sons and my ex (who is my supportive best friend). I felt they should know.. and we are all being fairly upbeat about it. I assume you had some happiness in a relationship to have had your girls? Though I know I wasn't really happy with the boys' father.. we divorced when they were very young.

I am glad you have your faith.. I do too. I hope things look a lot better for you soon, and that Christmas is a good time for you.

Hugs

Penny UK

On 27/11/2004 04:02:11, fibromyalgia_support_group wrote:> Hi everyone I hope everyone had a great day yesterday. For whomever wanted> to know about my test results they were very bad. My main arteries are> blocked 75 per-cent on one side and 69 on the other. Since my health is so> bad when we talked about surgery my Dr. said I would not make it out of> surgery alive. So the news she spelled out to me was I> don't have much time left and to get my will in order as well as what I would like to have done before my time is gone. I have been trying to be brave about this by myself but tonight am having a real hard time. You see I haven't> had a chance to have any love in my life yet and I wanted so badly to know> how that would feel. All my life I wanted some one to care and love me.> But I guess that's not going to happen now. I am having a hard time tonight> I feel like am falling apart and no one is here. There never has been and> now never will be. As for my girls I> don't want to tell them anything until after the holidays. I am going to try and have one more nice X-Mas with the kids. I am not trying to feel sorry for myself I am just telling you the facts.

[Guest guest]

Deb hun,

So sad here about your news... i am just thinking we need to get you healthy somehow and then they can maybe offer treatment??? I am glad that you found us hun... you are going to need some close support and shoulders to lean on and us. You are in my prayers hun and am so sorry you received this news during the holidays. And know that we all are here for you to talk too hun okies... Hugs you, am here at a loss for words but know you are in my prayers and thoughts hun

Huggles you lots

Sophia

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From: deb rongholt

Date: 11/26/04 20:02:39