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Deb R..

Knowbody in your intimate family may care about you. But you had better believe you "ON LINE FAMILY" certianly does care..

((((((DEB))))))

I wish there was something I could say. like it will all be ok and so on.. But that is not going to help..

Your post reminded me of my mom.. I lost her on mother's day in 1994..she was only three day's from what woud have been her 53rd. birthday. she never made it..Mommy knew she was dieing her and Daddy lived in Michigan. with my sister.. she called me in Febuary and asked me if her and Daddy could come here to Illinois to live with me and my DH.. I said well sure but you know we are on the road. (we drove truck) she said that's ok jake's family is close by if we need any thing I said fine. we will come get you.. on March 4th. Jake and I had a delivery in Grand Rapid's Michigan. (my home town).. (Now remeber we had a semi truck not our own personal vehichle) we delivered our load and headed to my sister's house in Lowell, Michigan. it's about 20 miles North of Grand Rapid's... It had snowed in Michigan and the roads were slick. especialy for a semi on country road's.. we finaly got to my sister's. backed the semi up to the house and loaded my mommy and daddy's belonging's into the back of our semi.. Mommy and Daddy climbed up into the cab of our semi..(this is Illegal as heck) mommy and daddy rode in the sleeper Jake and I drove.. we hit one Heck of a BAD snow storm of I-57 just south of Chicago.. we had to pull into a rest area and wait it out.. we finaly got home to our house in Ava,IL.. my FIL and MIL was there waiting for us and helped us un-load the truck. Mommy said that was the best trip in her life she had alway's wanted to ride in a semi..(little did I know it would be her last trip) Jake and I stayed home for two day's paid up the bill's did laundry and so on.. and headed back out on the road.. In April his mom ended up in the hospital she had been diagnosed with Cancer. jake's brother called our dispatcher and requested for us to come home ASAP.. we was clear out in California. a normal 36 hour trip took us less than 30 hour's we drove NON stop to get back to IL..(now remeber we are comming home because of HIS mom) this was late April. we requested some time off we had a great boss. he told us to take as long as we needed..I started taking care of my MIL.. she was given less than 6 months. to live..she had colon cancer, Breast Cancer and Uterian cancer..they did a hyst. on her but it was too late. the cancer had already spread...all this time. my mommy had not said one word to me that she was ill. or not feeling well.. and during this time Jake and I found out I was pregnant..Our anniversary is may 9th.. daddy,mommy Jake and I went out, for a nice dinner mommy and daddy's treat. well on the way hoome mommy said she had one of her bad migraine's.. I stopped and got her some advil like she wanted and we went on home.. on Friday. mommy said her head was hurting real bad. and she told me she thought she had pnemonia..(mommy was a nurse) and she told me. with out cracking a smile or anything that she was going to die.. I just shrugged and said ya right mom.. Well she did.. she died Saturday night.. at 1:15 am. which actually was Sunday and Mothers. Day..

Deb. I know you do not want to cause your children grief. or make them feel sorry for you. and so on BUT.. take it from a daughter's point of view. Tell your children. spend as much time with them as you possible can. let by gon be by gon's..

I wish with all my heart that I could have that last week of my mom's life back b/c believe me I would do alot of thing's diffrent. I would tell my mom how sorry I was for all the fight's all the resent ment and so on..and tell her I loved her..even thou. she did not raise me and most of my chid hood and adult life she was not aprt of..But she was my mother.. and I am greatful to her for giving me life...

So Deb tell your kid's and mend those bridge's while you still can..

Love you Deb..

Gentle Caring Hug's

Marie (sorry this is so long)

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Dear Deb,

I am totally speechless, and that rarely happens. I really don't know what to say except that you are loved here. Please don't give up because of what that doctor said. Get another opinion. You owe that to yourself and your children. I will pray for you.

Kathleen in NC

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ahh Marie, must of been a real tough time for you.... and I know also that if my Mom were to be that sick and not tell me... no matter what had gone on all my life she is my Mommy too... I would want to know... So I too encourage you Deb to talk it over with your children.. they need to know too {{{{{{{Deb}}}}}}}

Huggles you lots

Sophia

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Date: 11/26/04 20:35:56

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Sophia: Thanks for caring.. It was a hard time..but I made it through and I am stronger because of it.. Gentle Hug's Marie Marie A. Roomsburg pretty_n_cute2002@... marieava@...