just rambling, ignore if u want

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HI, for those of you who dont know, im Belinda im eigteen and have charge

syndrome, it annoys me constantly the way people judge a person with a

disablity, There are so many people that hear the word " disabilty " and picture

some person in a wheelschair depressed and waiting to die. it really annoys me

the way people hnave stereotyped different disablilties this way. i know a lot

of people with disabilties including all the great charge people on this list

and they are all amazing. lots of great acheivments have been made by disalbed

people. The persumption that we act different and have different views is just

getting stupid.

I think one of the reasons this annoys me so much becuase my own mother is one

of these ignorant people (shhh dont tell i said this those few people who know

her hehehe) shes constanlty told me all my life im " different " from other people.

SHe doesnt do it so much anymjore becuase ive proved her wrong so man y times.

but it still annoys me. I remember so many times in high school she would say to

me people are only talking to me because they feel sorry for me and that i wont

ever have good friends without disabilities.

I remember last year when my best friend (who does have a disability) got a

boyfriend, who is as she would say " normal " he has a really slight hearing

impairment, but doesntneed hearing aids or anyting becase its so slight. ZBut my

mum was like, see only disabled person wojuld want to go out with her.

Last year i was arngung about this with her and my younger sister was like " well

one of my friends has a really slight hearing problem to' and my mum said " yeah

but shes normal "

I had a boyfriend last year, who was about three years older then me, he acted

" normal " he hade a learning problem but he was a great guy and when i told my

mum how old he was she said i shouldnt go out with him but i told her he had a

disability and she was FINE with it. that just really bugged me. what does it

matter if he had a disability or not.my friendh as a boyfriend in prison who

knows of a deaf rapist.

I said to her a few days ago well ive got " normal " friends at uni wit h no

disabilites and she was like " yeah but the yare probably notr people with many

friends and they proably dont go out much " this reallky angerd me , iwas like

what so people would only be friends with me if they had no one else. i got

really mad at her and told her my friend has a boyfriend in prison and that made

her stop but it just bugs me so much.

A few months ago i was with my friend Mel, and we were waking down a street and

we saw and old friend of hers sshe hadnt seen in a few years. so we are talking

to this girl and her friend and her friend said i was " giving her greasy looks "

which iw asnt and punched me in the face and stole Mels bag. This had NOTHING to

do with the fact i was disabled except for maybe the fact the girl thought i was

giving her " greasy looks " the way i look at people i donno. but of course my mum

said it was all because im disabled. and it so was NOT taht stuff happens all

the time to normal people as well.

Ok i cant believe im about to write this, in June ithought i was pregnant (i

wasnt) and my mum foiund out and u know what she said she said she expected it

to happen becuase im blind. and that she wouldnt of been surpised if i got

raped. Do u knwo how f-ing stupid this made me feel. NOTHING that happend

happend becuasei was disalbed NOTHING ive thought about it forever and i KNOW

it had nothing to do with the fact i was blind. It just really gets to me

because even though i know its not true anymore. i use to think it was i think

its tone of the reasons i didnt really have friends at high school becuase i

thought no one likes me anywaqy becuase im disabled. I get so paranoid at

everything . my mum always has such low expectations of me and it annoys me

the only reason i dont hate her is becuase i know she thinks shes right. she

says alot if i odnt tell people she sais it to me coz shes only doing it to

help.its only been in teh last few months ive realised that its all crap

Im sorry, i just i donon had to write that and tell someon thanks for reading if

u did

((((((HUGS EVERYONE))))))))

Bel