I am back,,

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Hi Everyone.. I hope everyone had a happy holiday. I had an interesting holiday to say the least.. I have been mentally out of it for more than a month, I was sorry that I couldn't get back to you Sher but my computer was out of commission all this time, and it's one of my sister's computer and she was having a hard time during the holiday's as well so nothing would get done.. I have had a few serious emotional attacks which I had to see a doctor for, I thought I was going crazy, I wanted so much to die, I was in so much pain!! I wanted to end! I wanted all the emotional pain to stop.. I through myself against the wall and slapped myself, well why go on you can imagine.. I am on different meds for depression now and I am seeing my old doctor, he is supplying me with the meds.. (because I still have not been disabled) and the crap that they were giving me at the clinic was going to be the end of me.. I still haven't been able to get a portable

oxygen machine, and ON top of everything else I have just been diagnosed with diabetes, mild, but they found protein in my urine, so I am trying to loose some weight by walking when possible without getting winded and eating right..(No animal Protein) to see how that goes.. Because the doctor that told me this great news said you have diabetes go home eat 6 small meals a day and take these pills, come see me in 3 months...I am not kidding.. I asked him aren't you going to explain? tell me what to eat? how high is my sugar? He said I don't have time I have a lot of people waiting for me outside in the waiting room!!! He took my file and walked out... I reported his fat Butt to the director of the clinic.. I can still do some crying but it isn't like before...(THANK GOD!) I feel better more and more now, I have driven my family crazy!! On Christmas eve I had a knock out drag out fight with my father!! I was very hard on him, in my mind he was

provoking me to loose it...Things are much much better.. My nephew took me away for a few days to settle my thoughts, before they locked me away and throw away the keys.. Well I can actually say I am really better, I have a lighter heart, I am getting along with my family ..I also must say that I found a book at the dollar store that I feel great reading..Has anyone heard of the Prayer of Jabez??? it's from Bruce Wilkinson... it's a powerful book!! and I really think it was a answer to my prayers!! I recommend highly.. Well again Sher sorry that I didn't get back to you.. But i was so ugly that I really wasn't a good person to talk to!!and I wasn't being reasonable I can see that now.. I didn't want to push anyone buttons on the sight..I know I was driving everyone crazy here... I was hateful and I knew that I was hating everything and everyone!!! Now I am back and I am doing pretty good!! well that's it for

now you are all in my prayers.. Love ya Oly __________________________________________________