Guest guest Posted January 2, 2004 Report Share Posted January 2, 2004 I totally relate to your situation!! Throughout my life when anyone would say I looked like my nada I would deny it because I really never saw similarities....it got to the point when a couple of years ago my nada phoned me and asked me why I thought it was such a bad thing to be compared to her...I felt kinda bad at the time and completely kissed her a-- in that conversation. But besides physical resemblence I find myself constantly questioning my reaction to different situations, sometimes I bight my tongue even though I may be in the right so as not to be compared to nada. I sometimes feel like people are dismissing valid points I might have because " oh she's like her crazy mother " I question myself too all the time, I feel like my internal sensitivity radar is on overdrive because of trying so hard to please her my whole life. After I attend a party or any get together I review what I did and sometimes end up feeling yucky about nothing, I too think way too much. I also feel deep down that there is going to be punishment for me at some point for not letting my mother back in my life, but I guess its a price I'm willing to pay because the thought of her truly sickens me... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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