A job crisis - need some suggestions!

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Hi all,

I'm home from work today - I do have a cold, but that's not entirely

the reason why. The truth is, over several months I've been slowly

coming to realize how incredibly disfunctional my boss is. And I

don't mean just that she's incompetent as a manager, she is that, but

what I mean is, she's a very suspicious, bitter, vengeful person.

I've been killing myself on the job, trying to do the work for the

whole group (there are only two of us who actually WORK, the rest

just sit around), but she doesn't see that. Lately myself and the

other person who works have been teaming up to fix problems, because

we've discovered that we fix things quicker (and have more fun with

it) when we work together. Well, my boss is jealous and suspicious,

and she's started to " keep tabs " on us, ie follow us around, have

people call her when they see us, etc. She does things to assert her

power, like assign us menial tasks in ways that are degrading and

very obviously a power play to make herself feel better.

Yesterday, she assigned me something menial, and then smiled at me in

the EXACT SAME WAY that nada used to, when she knew she had me.

Help!

I'm sick to my stomach, because I'm getting triggered all over the

place. Her boss knows that she's not doing her job, and he's promised

us that he'll do something about that, but my gut is telling me to

get out NOW, that I shouldn't give her even one more day of that kind

of power trip over me. I feel that she's crossed a boundary with me.

I can't decide if I'm over-reacting and to just wait it out, or if I

should get out because I promised myself that nobody would disrespect

me in that way ever again. And talking to her about it won't help -

I've watched her lose four friendships in as many months because she

refuses to see the other side of things, only how much she's

suffering.

Add this to the fact that I'm realizing that not only am I way

overqualified for my job, but I don't even WANT to kill myself

anymore - since learning The Truth (ie BPD and how it has affected my

life), I realize that I have so much more potential and this job is

NOT where I want to be. The only thing keeping me here is that my

boss' boss has promised me a promotion to another area " soon " , but I

don't know if I believe him. I do have a " Plan B " , but it's riskier -

we could swing it financially, though.

Anybody have any words of wisdom? Suggestions? Right now I don't want

to ever go back there again, but I feel as though I'm on the verge of

either the Worst Decision of my Life, or the Best Decision of my

Life, and I can't decide which!